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Today was one of the best days I have had in a while. Then all of a sudden, from my heart to the pit of my stomach felt as though it had been ripped out and I started thinking about the guy I said good-bye to and feeling so so sad. Roller Coaster of love. I wish with all my heart he would call and say that he is in love with me and that he doesn’t want any of those other women and we should be together forever. Isn’t that stupid? Here I am going on 50 years old, living in a fantasy love world! I will be glad when this stage of the break up is over and there will be a day when I don’t think about him and wish he would call. I know it takes time. I’ve been through this before a couple of times and I wish I could remember what I did to finally survive. I’m thinking that perhaps it was just a matter of time healing the wounds. I know one thing. I am so thankful to be able to come here and write my feelings down and at least release some of them.
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Hey Lucy
It doesn’t matter how old we get the getting over the ex process is all the same. You will stop thinking of him one day.(start thinking about YOU) You will notice each day will get easier. Take this time in your life and work on you. Do some special things for yourself. Get a manicure or facial. Listen to your favorite music.. not the song that remind you of him. Just love yourself for Valentine day. Buy yourself some roses! Love will come again! Just be positive. Confidence is the most attractive feature in a woman or man. If you love yourself others will follow. Your love tank was emptied by your ex. Start filling it back up with self love! This is the best time to seek spritual guidance too! We are made up of mind, body and soul!
I agree no matter how old we get we still hurt. People think us old fogies should be pass the teenage love by now. I thought i had met a good guy he was differeent willing to meet my grown son and let him feel comfortable with him big joke on me and my son. I have self esteem problems and he was the one that i felt I wanted to finally open up to I lost my job so emotionally he was so sweet and then BOOM he has started acting like all others now I`m feeling down and depressed. But it was nice while it lasted.
Thank you so much for your response. I was just thinking tonight that for the first time in my life, I feel like I am living true love. Not singing about it when I hear a song, not trying to write poetry about it, but actually living it and feeling it. All the good and all the bad. And I have never felt so a live.
Thank you. I wish the best for you.
Lucy
I am so sad to hear that Evette. I hope that there will be a silver lining in your dark clouds. It is so sad to hear all of that happening to you like dominoes. I suppose the guy had some purpose for entering your life and I hope you learned something or got something positive out of it. It may take a while to figure out what that might be but I firmly believe nothing happens by “accident” and that every person that is put in our life (that touch our hearts) are there for a reason. Please try to hang in there. I hope you find a new job and I hope all works out great for you.
Sincerely,
Lucy