It amazes me the places that pain from lost loves pops up from. For example, I had to delete my last love from my IM friend list because the sight of his picture stabbed my heart everytime I looked at. And then there is the radio, and having to quickly change the channel to stop the pain. Memory is a good thing but it certainly can be a painful thing. I had just re-united with my love on New Year’s Eve after not seeing him for 7 months and having only occasional contact. So, I was thrilled beyond thrilled when he invited me to his place to bring in the New Year. It was the most wonderful time. He seemed different, willing to give his heart whereas before, he treated me indifferently. He opened up to me more and I thought it was going to be a new beginning but 3 weeks into the new year and after planning another get together for the end of the month, it looked like it was going to be the same ol’ same ol’ and I just can’t settle for that, so I told him we need to go our separate ways. I don’t know if I did the right thing or not but all I know is that I don’t want to be with anyone who doesn’t want to be with me. It makes me sad to think of all the things we could experience and enjoy together that now, will never be. At least not with him. I believe in my heart that if we are truly meant to be together, when the time is right, our lives will once again come together and it will be. Until then, I cannot curl up and die, I must continue to live, to meet people and enrich my life with those around who do love me.. “He’s Just Not That Into You.” Hard words to hear, but oh so true. One thing I do know for sure, if you are with someone who constantly takes but doesn’t give, your tank will become empty and then, you cannot go any further. So, don’t let them empty your tank and leave you nothing to run on…. Those are my thoughts. Protect your heart…. Lucy Loveless