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I do pretty good during the course of the day. But when 5 o’clock comes and I get in my car, instant depression sets in accompanied by overwhelming sadness. Why is this hitting me so hard? I don’t understand it at all. When I engage my brain and list the “why it would never work” and compare it to the “why it would work” list, there is NO comparison. There’s no reason why I should expect or want it to work with Tommy. So where is this hold on my heart coming from??? Maybe it is just the “rejection”. No matter where it comes from, I simply cannot accept that people do not want my love. Crazy. Everyday when 6:00 comes and goes, I know that another day has passed that I will not hear from him because with his schedule he is in bed by then. It will be so nice when you can log on and read a blog from me that is happy and hopeful. Don’t give up on that day, I sure won’t. Until then, I thank you for your interest and appreciate your comments.
Lucy
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Hi Lucy,
I feel for you. One day you will have to start thinking about yourself and getting your life back on the road. But I understand, letting go and believing in it are two very seprate things. All the best, will be reading your future posts!
Hi Susan,
Thank you so much for your encouragement and kind words. Some days are alot better than others. I think my vulnerability to depression and sadness has a lot to do with the fact that I am pre-menopausal and it is my “lucky week of the month” if you know what I mean so all emotions are more intense than usual. Thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate it very much and your comments.
My best to you,
Lucy