I cannot believe what a day I have had. The weather outside has been absolutely beautiful. Mid-70′s where I live and yet, I have spent most of this day, in my bedroom sleeping. It is just so painful sometimes when I am awake. I feel all of the sadness and deep depression that is paralyzing me when I am awake. Sleep is my escape. I have far too much to be happy about and far too much work on myself I need to be doing to allow one man’s rejection to take all of that away from me. Where is the strengtth I have always had? Hopefully when I go to church tomorrow I will get a refill of that strength. It helped me alot this week and got me through four days in alot less pain so I feel sure I will get stronger as the days go by. One day, he won’t even be a memory! Hopefully it won’t be because I have lost all of my recollections (you may laugh now), but it will be because better things have filled up my mind!

Thanks to all who read and allow me to share my pain, as embarrassing as it is. I do so appreciate your company and your comments and hope you all are doing wonderfully well.

Love,

Lucy Loveless (for now)