Tomorrow marks the 1 year anniversary that I met Tommy. I don’t know whether to celebrate the day or damn it. I went to the doctor today and he prescribed me nerve pills to help me through these roughest of times. Mind you, I was present when my 7 year old step-daughter was hit by a car and killed, I have been through a divorce that I thought would destroy me and I have been through another relationship that took me 10 years to finally get over, all of which I managed to get through without the aid of prescription meds and after one year of knowing this man, I am on nerve pills. My gosh! What is it going to take for me to open my eyes and see how bad he is for me???? What is wrong with me? I should be on nerve pills. Maybe I should skip the pills and go straight to a mental facility so I can get the help I evidently need. I have been reading Joel Osteen’s book all day telling me to look forward, forgive my past mistakes and make today a better day. I prayed loud and hard this morning. I think the devil was eavesdropping because he has been whipping my tail all day. I will rejoice in the day when this bondage no longer has hold on me. I hope I will eventually learn from this the lesson I am meant to learn.

I would appreciate your thoughts as I flow through tomorrow in however manner I am meant to flow….

Love,

Lucy