Aw, I’m sorry this happened. I hope you don’ t mind me kind of giving you my two cents. I have been through the same thing in my life. After being rejected so many times, you start to wonder what is wrong with you. First of all, from my own experience- I used to blame it on the men and there are times where we just pick the wrong ones over and again (like I did). Second of all, I finally had to take a look at myself. Men can smell neediness from a mile away. I’m not saying you were needy, I was. I was insecure, lacked confidence, self love. I was wanting a man to fill this tremendous void I accumalated through the years. I thought that if I found the right man to love me that every thing would be okay, that I would be happy. I finally came to the conclusion that no one is going to fill my void, no one is going to make me happy but me. Look, this void was so big even God couldn’t fill it, I tried that route. I realized that I needed to take a break from dating and work on myself. I needed to learn how to love myself before any one else could love me the way I wanted to be loved. I needed security, self-confidence, self-esteem, and hope. It’s really about digging deep and discovering your own soul, discovering what the void is, why it’s there and realizing that we are the only ones that can fill it, no one else. I realized that I was NEVER going to be in a good, healthy relationship until I fixed “me”. It was going to be the same thing over and again until I worked on the common denominator, me. Do not feel ashamed of having a break down, it happens to the best of us. Sometimes we can only take so much and rejection makes us pick apart and beat up on ourselves. It’s a dark feeling to not feel wanted. The most important love you can ever recieve is from yourself, self-love. Take time off to focus on yourself, your needs, you wants, your life, just you.