Long story…

Its a long story,…

Don’t even know how to start..start in the middle.. I just recently got back from another country like last year. I did have a bf there, yes I did love him very much, but when I came back in here. I been thinking about leaving him, I don’t know if because its long distance or maybe he wasn’t giving something i needed. We did have communication, the only time I loved him was when i get a chance to talk to him, but then I start thinking about leaving him. Thats not really the problem. It started when I started working back to where I used to work. At first I was 2nd shift, then a few weeks gone by I start working morning shifts. It was nothing at first when I meet him I came at 5 am in the morning, saw him working at the front. Me i was all around. I thought he was cute, I even thought he was younger than me. He’s that guy that jokes, funny guy. It wasn’t that week that I got to know him, it was the following week when he wanted to watch a movie, he was asking people who wanted to come. It was a saturday, I didnt know if he was joking or not. He ask me if i wanted to go with him, I said I’ll think about it ’cause I had other plans already. But I wanted to go with him, I don’t know why. What happen was I cancel my plan and went with him. It went well I even took my sister with me. He other another job, he only work weekends where I work. Then it was then, he ask me again, if he wanted to watch a movie, I said sure. But only me and him.. We did, at first I was shy that he wanted to hold my hand. Thinking about my bf back home, but eventually we started holding hands, then after the movie, we didn’t want to go home. We talked, and then he mention something like how he wanted to kiss me, im just there sitting, actually waiting for him to kiss me. Then we got to my house we sat in the car again, told me he really wanted to kiss me, it took a few mins we finally did. I did feel bad, eventually I broke up with my bf telling him a bunch of reasons why i wanted to break up with him. Thats only half of the story… We went out again.. but this time we wanted to do it.. So we went to hotel, he ask me if i was sure and I said yes im sure. So then we did, the next day it was sunday.. We were both tired, saw each other at work, just looking each other with a smile. Then he started working weekdays in the morning. After work we would go to a park just spend some time. At first I didnt know if I was in love, eventually I was. he would make time for me, to go out and just to be with me. Really the point of this story is.. he has a family. Sometimes I ask myself how do I get involve in this kind of situation. But I never regret meeting him, he just so different. Always something different with him. Since his wife started a scene at our work, there’s people that just dont mind their own business. He told his wife, we’re just friends. Even though it hurts, I told her that too. He told me he loved me, I believe him i do too. I tell him everything, he does too. No matter how I try to forget him when he argue sometimes, I can’t. He’s everything I need. Noone knows this relationship except two friends of mine. Not even my family know wats going on with me or even at work. Sometimes its so hard to keep everything inside. The bad thing about this situation is, he told me his wife is pregnant… When we’re only been a month, he does want to leave his wife he’s just concern for his little girl. Of course her, how she going to survive with payments… Now Im waiting till august till the baby comes out, if ever gets that divorce. I know there’s so many guys out there and why him? Its because he accepted me for what I am, and my past. I made mistakes in my past, even now there’s still things I need to learn. But I could never let him go, he’s willing to give up everything for me and start a new life but it won’t be easy. I don’t know if i should wait, I want too but it hurts when you want him near you but at times you can’t. Mostly everyday we spend time together, only for a little while or the whole night. he told me that his wife knows that I’m the reason for this divorce but I dont even know if that ever going to happen. The love for both of them is not there anymore. I dont like seeing him stress out, but the only time I see him happy is when im with him… Most of the time, he’s with me if not he’s at work… There’s more to this..just dont know how to explain it..

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