The Scariest Love

I have never been in love like this before. I have never had the ability to wake up every morning and realize that I could never feel this way about ANYONE else, even if I tried. My boyfriend is the best damn thing that has ever happened to me. I don’t know how to tell him. He has made me the happiest person on the face of the earth. He has seen my best and my worst, and he loved me through everything. He makes me feel like there is nothing that will ever be able to stop me or hold me back. He makes me feel like I need to try harder for my personal well-being, not for anyone else. He makes me realize how much things have been hard, and helps me accept and move on. He shows me what it is like to truly love whole-heartedly. He shows me everyday how to be completely honest, open, and actually care about someone other than myself. The part that is the scariest, is the fact that I have never been able to feel this way about anyone. I am 22-years-old, and have been dating this guy for 1 year and 4 months. All I have ever wanted was some version of a fairy-tale that fit my lifestyle. He is my very own personal fairy-tale. He makes everyday seem like a dream. He makes me see that I have been in some very scary places and mind-frames and that this one is designed for me personally. He keeps me healthy, both mentally and physically. I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder when I was 18. It would have been sooner if I explained myself to anyone, but I didn’t. I kept it under the radar because I was afraid to admit it to myself. When he and I started dating, 8 minutes after my 21st birthday ended, he wasn’t running in the other direction. He wasn’t telling me I was crazy, like everyone else did. He accepted me for who I was, who I am. Recently that diagnosis was changed to ADHD, and he has stuck by me. On top of all of that, he has stuck by me while I was screaming at him, and saying all the things I have ever wanted to yell at someone else, and he kept telling me he loves me. Today I just had a really random and strange epiphany that it is true. He really does love me. The next thought was also very scary. I love him. I love this boy more than anything else in the world. Nothing can ever change that.

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