News for the ‘Love Secret’ Category

A Story No One Would Ever Hear From my lips

I don’t know why exactly I’m doing this. I guess at the back of my mind, I’m thinking if I do this I might be able to ‘exorcise’ this unrequited love.

Let me tell you about my story, my one-sided love story. I’ll start from the very beginning.

I’ve known this guy for almost seven years now. We were in the same block during our freshman year in college. Actually, we had been in the same block from the first semester of our freshman year until graduation. Anyway, the first time I saw him, I never really thought much about him. I glanced at him and forgot about him. He just didn’t really catch my attention. I was more interested in the good-looking, 6-foot tall gay guy sitting at the back of the room. (Hey, just because he plays for the other team doesn’t mean I can’t look and, erm, appreciate his assets). It’s not that he was bad-looking; he was actually one of the ‘prettiest’ boys in the room. I think the problem was he was too pretty for me; I mean, he could’ve worn a wig and he’d be prettier than me. Needless to say, I’ve ignored his existence and he’d pretty much ignored mine then. That was how it was for the entirety of our freshman year.

Second year came, and this is where we started interacting. We were in the same block but our friends aren’t with us. Almost all of my friends are in a different block and so are his. He was the only familiar face there and, I assume, I’m also the only one he knew. So, we sort of gravitated towards each other. We got to talking and at first, I was put off by his weirdness. He had mama’s boy written all over him, too. He’s also prone to making really lame jokes. Nothing offensive, just really, really, really lame. But he’s really sweet. He appreciates my humor, and puts up with my weirdness. He listens to everything I say, he really pays attention when we’re talking. And he values my suggestions/opinions/inputs highly. Before long, we became inseparable. Like, when there are groupings to be done, we were a package deal. People had already taken it for granted that if I’m in something or somewhere, he’d be there, too, and vice-versa. There had never been any romantic rumors about us, though. People just accepted that we’re good friends. And we were just good friends.

The trouble started when I began noticing his nice traits. Nice guys are my weakness. I mean, like any normal, heterosexual, red-blooded female, I am fascinated and somewhat attracted to bad boys but nice guys, really nice guys, make me melt. And he is genuinely a nice guy. I mean, he likes cats! By the end of the first semester of our second year, I’ve developed a minor crush on him. I also started noticing his looks and how he doesn’t seem too pretty anymore. Of course, he doesn’t know. As a matter of fact, until now, no one knows.

The turning point (for me, at least) happened during the second semester of our second year in college. I fell for him, as in fell all the way in love for him. I won’t go into details anymore. It was one moment, just one moment that made me realize that this guy, who’s prettier than me and who’s a mama’s boy, owns my heart and there’s nothing I can do about it.

From then, I carried this secret with me. He never had a girlfriend in all the time I knew him. But he did have crushes. I think he seriously contemplated courting someone during our senior year. I heard from the girl (she’s a good friend of mine) that he actually confessed to her and asked if he can court her. She refused him. No, it’s not because of me; she doesn’t know I’m in love with him; like I’ve mentioned before, nobody knows. Up to now, nobody knows.

I know you’re all asking “why not just tell him?”. Well first, because I KNOW he’ll never see me that way. To him, I’ll always just be that girl with whom he liked spending time with because he’s, how to put it, comfortable around me. I’m like a sister to him, I think. And second, I’d rather have him as a friend than not be in his life at all. I like the fact that I can get close to him, know his thoughts, laugh with him, and talk with him anytime. If I tell him how I feel, I’m sure he’ll feel awkward around me and I’d lose him for good. I’m not being melodramatic. Like I’ve said, I’ve known him for almost 7 years now. I think I know him well enough to know how he’ll react to a confession from a girl with whom he’s not, and never will be, romantically interested in. Credit me with some intuition, please.

So here I am, in love with someone who’ll never love me back. And I don’t think I’ll ever fall in love with someone else because he’s occupied my heart so fully, there’s just no room for anyone else anymore. I mean, I’m not some adolescent girl with her first crush; I’m a full-grown woman in her mid-twenties. This is not just a little crush that time would take care of. I tried dismissing it as such but years have passed and my feelings haven’t faded; if anything, they’ve grown stronger, matured, and became something that will stand the test of time.

I have succeeded in fooling myself sometimes that I don’t love him anymore; that I have gotten over him. I don’t see him anymore, you see. Last time I saw him was a couple of days before Christmas last year. But just one text from him is enough to make me smile for days. And much as I would like for it to be, I know I’m so far from over him, it’s laughable. I don’t know what to do anymore. It hurts.

(Screen) Name: sinamor1255

Edited: December 4th, 2011

Math Class

I knew on the first day of school, when you walked into math class that I was going to fall for you. And now the teacher keeps putting us next to eachother. I swore to myself that if we got put together again, I would tell you how I feel by the end of the semester.
She put us next to eachother again.
I love you, Kalib.

(Screen) Name: Rose

Edited: December 4th, 2011

As an 8th grade boy

I really like this girl in a grade lower and i am assured that she in return likes me back. i have dreams and images of her in my head all the time! WHAT SHOULD I DO! PLEASE HELP!

(Screen) Name: The pitied one

Edited: December 4th, 2011

friend or love

I HAVE A BEST FRIEND,SHE IS A GIRL.SHE DONT WANT TO HAVE ANY BOYFRIEND TYPE RELATIONSHIPS,JUST WANTS TO BE MY BEST FRIEND.SHE SAYS TO ME SHE FEEL BAD IF I DONT CONTACT HER,OR WHEN SHE WAS UNABLE TO CONTACT ME.BUT I REALLY LOVE HER.WHAT SHALL I DO?IF SHE ALSO TRUELY LOVES ME?SHE ALSO TOLDS ME THAT SHE GETS ANGRY WHEN HER FREIENDS ASK ME FOR THEIR HELP,

(Screen) Name: ra.don

Edited: December 4th, 2011

i like him but i don’t know.

i like this guys since last month. and i even like him more now. i can be crazy, and i just can’t help myself. the problem is i don’t know how to greet him when i meet him. well, we used to chat at facebook but we never talk when we meet. i’m too shy to greet him. i even try to run when i see him because my heart beat so quickly when he’s around. furthermore, he already in a relationship. he has girlfriend. i think i should stop liking him, but i don’t know. i just can’t do it. a few days ago, my friend said he stares me. maybe he want to greet me, i don’t know. can you help me? i don’t know what to do right now.

(Screen) Name: taylor swift’s fan.

Edited: November 2nd, 2011

Confused

I’m 20 and I’ve been dating a girl since I was 15. I’ve had other less serious girlfriends before her but I am her first serious boyfriend. At the beginning of our relationship I would talk to her about wanting to get married and have kids someday, but now that we’re in separate universities I’ve been feeling that I want to try being single again, at least for a little bit.
I know how shallow it sounds but I don’t want to grow up and basically have been married since 15. I would like to have the freedom to “Test the waters” but at the same time I know that if I break up with her after 5 years I’m not sure how she will handle it, especially with all the stress from her school. I still really care for her and if I had the chance I’d like to marry her someday. But I’m just not ready for it yet.
I didn’t know how to end a relationship that was going so well and we’ve been doing the long distance thing for almost 2 years now. We fought a lot last year but we’re better at it this year, although I still sometimes find her really clingy, like she can’t last a day by herself. For example, I have a way to make a lot of money this upcoming summer by going away for 2 months or so. The money will easily cover my next year’s school tuition but she obviously will be pissed at me if I leave.
I cant tell her any of these thoughts I’m having because she will automatically take it as me not loving her anymore (she seems to view the world in a totally “black and white, all or nothing” kind of way). I just don’t know what I should do. Please, can anyone help me?

(Screen) Name: Questioning

Edited: November 2nd, 2011

Mistress

I am in a organization that immorality is totally prohibited and a killable offense. Before I got myself in, I was warned that I may get myself involved in unhealthy relationship. Now, I found myself in a relationship that is totally unhealthy. I’m loving a guy who is married. We’re both in this organization and we find ourselves inlove. We both know, it’s wrong yet we chose to go along and not think about probable consequence/s. As long we are happy, this relationship will be our secret.

(Screen) Name: idol

Edited: October 23rd, 2011

forbidden relationship

hi,
im mikai,a 3rd year student of zamboanga city.It was on friday when i met this guy so called mr.k in marketing subject.
i was so impressed at him because he is the first guy in the school who made me laugh that day,it was so fun being with him because we talk a lot of things we have in common,it was sunday night when he invited me in his house and i was so excited because i want to know him more and more theres nothing that i expect more than chatting,but unexpectedly it happen that we make love that night ,my mind is running because i dont know if its right,and i know both of us is in a relationship with other…
i ask him”do you love me??
he said ‘yes,from the time we meet i feel something special about you,and im doing this thing because i want to know you more and more..
its been three months our relationship is getting blurred,its because i cannot show my love in public because he is settled by his parents to other woman..it was so hurt to think that it should be that way,i broke up with my boyfriend because i just want him alonewho will own me.everytime i ask him if he really does love me..he always says he love,that he truly care,and that he wiil always be forever at my side but how can we survive if our relationship is forbidden,???can he truly fight for me???
plsss….
i need an advice ,

(Screen) Name: ms.k

Edited: October 17th, 2011

plz share ur felling plz ready this story

We are in true love till 10 month as I fell. But one time we a lot of discussion about her past and I used some bad word for her bcoz still she showing her past many years living relations couple pictures in her friend’s facebook. She sent me relationship request to me but I keep it pending because in her friend’s facebook circle there are a lot of her picture with ex bf like they are couple and wife/husband. And wait to accept it when she delete everything bcoz I also wanna to show her in my circle too. So many times I told her if u can’t remove these things I can’t accept it. And many time we had a lot of discussion about these pictures. But she told she can’t remove it because “she doesn’t know her friends facebook password”. Even they are her best and close friends.

Same time she got good financially opportunities with new man. He offer part job with good salary and new room for living inside his living apartment in free of cost. Even she was the permanent employee in repopulate international organization. And she went go with new man bcoz of money ( I think it) and end the relation with me suddenly within 4/5 days. But I was unknown about it and living in another place. I fell something different about her communication and one day I ask about it. But she didn’t inform me anything.

But it was important for me to know about the fact. So one day I made the fake plan and warning her if she don’t inform me the fact I will misuse her facebook ( we share our facebook passwords) and she really fear and tell everything about the relation with new man. New man was her patient son and came from aboard for treatment in her hospital. And she told me he is rich man and wanna to love and care me, so she went with him. And start to live his building and beginning for relax life with him. I was stocked It happened within 1 week

After ending relation with me till 2 month, she didn’t pick up my call and didn’t reply of my any message. Sometime I just wanna to talk and listen her voice but she never talk and reply. I was very upset and painfully but she never look toward me. So sometime, I use rude and bad words again.

But after 2/3 month later she contacts me in skype and I asked about her life. She informed me that she can’t be happy with new man for future life. He only take care her that time. I don’t know what is the exact reason but I fell now she is not satisfied with new man for long term relation. Right now she is on my communication by webcam from few days. In past I had 100% trust and believe on it. I think she is honest and to whom I can trust.

But now how I can believe and trust on her. Once if we lost the trust it was very hard to recover again and sometime impossible. What should I need to do?
• Forget her from my life
• Just continue communication like past
• Just behave as normal friend( which is impossible)
• Forgive her ( why forgive her . I am not her 1st love. She is experienced)
Please I kindly request to advise me. Because of my story I was disturbed in my life and study too. I want to final it. I need ur suggestion plz sothat I can strong on my decision. In past, I think she loves me more then I love her. Now is this true after you knowing my story?
Plz plz advice me.

(Screen) Name: bbpp

Edited: October 17th, 2011

Sorry Love

I’m sorry that I say I love and don’t really know if I mean it or not. I want to feel if you truly love me but I’m so numb to emotion that I don’t know if you do. I wish I could say that we will last together but I do have my doubt because of all the times I cheated on you with my ex who was just using me any ways. I know you say you forgive me but with my mother in the way and hating every thing about you I don’t know how long I can hold on to you. I really feel sad when I’m not with you but I’m sorry babe that I don’t know if I love you.

(Screen) Name: kre397104

Edited: October 1st, 2011