Blushing secret

My confession is that I have an embarrassing secret.  I totally love giving blowjobs!   I am a straight guy and am in a relationship with a wonderful girl.   I am not gay and do not want to be in a romantic  relationship with a guy at all.  I don’t want to kiss a guy or hold hands with him.  I don’t want to receive a blowjob from a guy, I just want to give him a blowjob.

My girlfriend has no idea that I periodically get together with a random guy so I can suck him off.  I am not sure why I feel the urge to suck cocks, but sometimes it is a very powerful craving.  I would be so embarrassed if people knew.