I’m a teenage girl. I always thought that teenagers are to young for love. So if any of my friends were to say ” Hes the one!”, ” Im in love with him for sure”, or ” But I can’t break up with him, I love him!” I would think ‘ They have NO idea what their talking about’ but this was before it happened to me.
His name is Dane. I only met him this school year, he came from an other school with some of his friends. I go to a small school so we only have about 400 students tops at my school. There are four buses that drops us off. We both caught the bus to school but he caught bus four while I caught bus one. If anyone would of asked me if I had feelings for him I would of probably look at them if they were crazy, but this was before I fell in love with him.
Hey don’t get me wrong, I don’t just judge people on the spot from their looks but when I first saw him he wasn’t the most good looking guy here. His hair was always messy, he had one hell of a mouth on him, he always acted stupid around his friends and he was just plain goofy.
In the 2nd quarter of school he and his sister would sometimes catch my bus after school. Since he was the same age as me, my friends and I would talk to him on the bus. Turns to find out he wasn’t such a bad guy. He was fun to hang around with, that goofy grin would always make us laugh, that dirty mouth of his always had something funny to say then later we became good friends.
When I started to know that I had a crush on him wad toward the ending of the 2nd quarter on the bus coming back from school. We dropped of the 1st load of kids so there was barely anyone on the bus. He sat across from me we talked a little but we was both tired from school so we just looked out the window. For some reason I kept glancing at him to see what he was doing, but when ever I would look back at him he would just be looking at me too. I just don’t know, I looked him right in the eye quickly then turned to my window. I felt it, my heart beated so fast, my face heated up, I couldn’t stop smiling and I just knew I had a feelings for him.
I couldn’t help but think ‘God why? Why do I like him?’ like any girl would of course I tell my best friend. Leah. She thought it was soo funny! Remember what I told you? He wasn’t the best looking guy or the smartest. I told her to be quite and we just laughed together and she thought that it was just sooooooooo cute!
I was set on getting over it. I thought it was gonna be easy because 1. I have zero out of seven periods with him so I would barely even see him. 2. He catches my bus after school like once every two weeks or something. So you see what I mean? Easy. But boy was I wrong. He ended up being in a tutoring class ( like I said, he IS NOT the smartest guy around) and was able to cross out two periods and had to move to the rest of my classes. Then he and his sister had practice for paddling so everyday after school he would catch my bus because my bus was a faster route.
I was so irritated that my plan had failed but was a little….well fine I was really happy that I saw him more. At first Leah and I thought it was just a bad crush. Like really bad because I never acted how I did to any of my previous crushes. He could just walk pass me and I would be smiling like crazy. He would just talk to me or just give me his goofy grin and I would blush until my head looked like a giant tomato. He could be sick and I would panic and sometimes even be close to tears. It was just a confusing feeling.
Then somehow everyone started to notice ( you would have been blind not too) that I liked him. I’m sure that he was the ONLY one that didn’t notice. But when he found he started acting so different around me. He only talked to me if it were necessary, he couldn’t look at me in the eye anymore, and he would avoid me.
I couldn’t handle it! It was nearing two weeks and it was just driving me to depression. I was sad most of the time and tried to hide it. I was even brought down to tears and just couldn’t take it anymore. I was so close to being over it. One more day of the pain and suffering and it would be over. But then he just…ugh!
He started to crack up jokes around me again. Hang out with me and my friends again and all these other things and I was so mad! But…I almost cried at how happy I was because he started talking to me and hanging out with me again. But again if someone were to say ” So are you to gonna go out?” he would just play it off pike another joke of his and say ” Not gonna happen!” or ” No way, me and her?” I knew that he was just letting me off easily but it still hurts.
But then I started to get mixed signals! He would always be looking at me or something. I caught him staring at me alot! And sometimes if we would get into touchy play kind fights he would blush. And just smile at me, not his goofy grin but a nice smile with that adorable blush on him made me blush too! And on the last day of school we had out banquet. I was just gonna give him a quick hand shake when I had to go ( hey I’m a tomboy, don’t judge) but when I reached out my hand he grabbed it and pulled his arm around me then hugged me tight. That was one of the best moments of my life. I couldn’t help but feel the warmth go through my body.
I had boyfriends before but they never made be felt like that with just a hug. That’s when I knew it was more then just a crush. We are now almost back to school and just finished summer school not to long ago and are still dancing around each other with mixed feelings.
If anyone would ever say, ask, or tell me I might deny it…never mind I will dent it. It’s not just a crush anymore…I’m in love with him. I don’t just love that body of his ( he goes to paddling practice and they build a body. What can I say?) or that grin that could make any girl blush. I love that goofy grin, they way he acts, his laugh, his smile, that glint in his eyes, his messy hair, his dirty mouth, and everything else. He is my first love and I will remember that forth rest of my life.
(Screen) Name: Just a Girl8
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