This is possibly the greatest story I could tell about any relationship I’ve had. It’s kind of funny, but at the same time somewhat wrong lol.

It was a Friday night, and my best friend Caleb and my other friend DJ were graduating high school, and I went to watch. I brought along my friend Trevor, and we planned to go to my other good friend’s graduation party afterward. Everyone was going. After graduation, we stood all outside the doors waiting on the graduates to come out, and in the group was one of Trevor’s friends, Will, who had went to the same school as us. I had passed Will a million times in the hallway, but we never spoke and I never thought much about him. But as we all stood outside those doors, he turned around to say hey to Trevor, and our eyes met. At that moment, I knew something was going to happen. He turned around and Caleb and DJ were walking out so we all turned our attention toward them to congradulate them.
Trevor and I headed out to the graduation party shortly after all of that. There was a lot of people there. A few hours passed and we were all drunk. I walked inside and sat on the table to talk to everyone in there. Will saw me, and sat down beside me. He said “Hey, I need to talk to you”, and walked me outside. I knew we were going to hook up. We made it to my car and I don’t remember much, but I do remember there not being much talking. (;
The next morning, I woke up in my backseat confused and trying to remember things from the night before. As I woke up, I realized that Will was laying beside me with his head on my shoulder. I laughed a little, woke him up, and he asked me to drive him to his car. I did, and on the way there we talked and laughed and tried to remember the night. Another graduation was taking place later that afternoon, and we both had friends graduating from there as well. When I dropped Will off, I gave him my number and he said we’d meet up and go to the other graduation together. Well, that didn’t happen because we both ended up sleeping all that day lol. Two days or so passed and I didn’t hear from Will. I figured it was a one night stand, and I had accepted that.
That monday, I got a text message from a random number. It was Will. He wanted me to spend the night with him the next night because I was busy that night. I agreed. I got to his house the next night around 10:30, and again there wasn’t much talking done the rest of the night. The next day, I thought he would just send me about my way. Instead, he took care of me. He got me food, let me take a shower at his house, and everything. He asked me if I would take him to Trevor’s house. I wanted to go as well so I agreed. When we got there, Trevor and all of their friends were at the pond fishing. We walked down to the dock, and Will introduced me to their friends. They asked if I was “his girl”. When he said yes, I got confused. But I thought it was sweet so I did not correct him. We had a really fun time at the dock, and later Will asked me to take him home.
When Will and I got to his house, he asked me to be his girlfriend. From that day on, we have been together and very happy. It was a “love at first sight” type of thing, and I still can’t believe it. He is the most amazing guy I have ever met. He’s even beginning to talk about marriage.

Few people know this story, just some of my close friends. I just had to tell someone.

(Screen) Name: Sami Jo

There was a time that Raymond and I are reminiscing some things that happened to us way way back from the childhood and how we find each other again.
It all starts when we are in primary level in school way back 1991. Me and Raymond are both in the same section. Since we are still young we only think is just playing. We are still in the same class from 1st grade to 4th grade. If I am not mistaken I only have one crush when I was in 4th grade, guess who? Its him my fiancée. That time as a rule in the school students have to go to the canteen to get the foods and drinks, he was one of the boys who will get the tray of juices, even if I wanted to replace the my girl classmate who get the tray of sandwiches I can’t coz my mother is a teacher in that school and I am not allowed to do it. On the 5th grade we are no longer classmates, I remember that sometime in my Home Economics class one of my boy classmate told me that someone crushes on me and they said it was Raymond, I was soo shy that time , I just told them that whatever they say, I don’t believe in them. But my heart beats fast I even wanted to hide or hug my mom. Another year passed and I transferred school here in our city coz my mom told me that I am too young to travel from here in our place to school. That’s the reason we’ve been apart, but that time I don’t mind things coz I never felt love maybe, I just go on with my life, I had boyfriends but not happy, when I graduated in college, got a job, sometimes I asked myself where is he, the man that I will marry in the future…
On the other hand I never thought that someone is looking for me or I should say someone like me… When I transferred school he looked for me. He told me that sometime in his childhood days, when he sleeps, he talked, he called my name, he remember that my legs is a bit hairy, I have 2 types of skirt in school, one is long and the other is short. When he told me that I smiled and I cried, I never thought how he liked me that time, so since I left, he just go on in his life coz it was just like a puppy crush, he had girlfriends.
Here’s the sweetest part of the story.
Present –
One time, I’m surfing net using facebook, someone send me a message, I asked to myself who is this guy? It said there,” Hi! How are you?” when I saw the name of this guy I stop then I called my best friend and I told her that this name is familiar to me then she said he’s our classmate in elementary, he has a girl twin, now I remembered but just to make sure I asked him where did he study when he was still in primary level and confirmed he is the guy, he asked how my mom coz he used to be one of my mom’s student. We just message to each other, I wanted to chat with him that time but I can’t see him online, then I laughed hahaha how would I chat with him he is not on my friends list so I added him. We chat about us, how are we now, lots of things are, he is in Qatar, I have a boyfriend that time, I told him that I’m engaged even if it’s not true. Some of our classmates build him up to me. It happened that me and my boyfriend are not in good terms and there is he for me. It is easy to fall in love with him, for me all that I am looking for in a guy I found in him. I broke up with my boyfriend and I choose him. It’s funny coz even if we haven’t met for about 15 yrs the feelings it still there, the only witnessed in our sharing of love is the internet, he proposed to me on the chat, I don’t mind what other said to me I just said yes coz I feel soo much love, respect, happiness, all that u can never imagine. At first our relationship is not perfect there are a lot of trials headed to us but we fought for our love. We called each other, we don’t mind how much do we spend as long as we heard our voices we are happy. Now I am waiting for him to come back here in our city and plan for the next step.

(Screen) Name: Sheray01

It hurts to love n to loose , but it hurts more wen u love but cant say n cant share the feelings wid anybody , its like the silent cries from within …which breaks one’s heart everyday n yet u look so composed n so full of life to the outer world……..u will never understand , why cant one express the feelings..why cant one give it a try …..n tht too knowing tht the one u love loves u even more..its a difficult situation…call me crazy call me mad, but life’s like tht..not tht I’m not happy wid life …but loosing 1st love s da worst thing ..its sumthing like u cant forget not in ur life time ….n da feeling is so haunting , I wonder it’s the same for other person too..or its jus me , wotever…he will never know I loved him frm da core of my heart ..i fell for him da very moment I saw him..n no it was not infatuation …..coz so many yrs have past n I still love him,, the very moment he got down frm the car ,his eyes met mine n time stood still..may b jus for nano seconds n my heart skipped a beat n den it startd beating faster …his so boyish look n thosesilky tresses swept me out of my feet , n I could see the same feelings in his eyes..call it love at first sight ..though I did not bliee in it but its true ……..the weather too was adding to da romance in the air …….it had rained all nite n was still raining n we were off for a picnic trip with all my frens n yes dis stranger ,one of my frens buddy …….the picnic location was perfect..scenic beauty , lush green trees,water fall amongst the rocks n jungle ..a perfect place for a date n then we talked n talked n forgot bout all my frens ……we gelled so well n we become gud frens jus in few hrs n I loved him even more…Punjabi delhi ka munda ,good looking, intelligent,sober, friendly n fun loving .my sort of guy !!! he was all for me too …could sense it easily n I was on cloud nine ……….not tht I had any less fan following in da college campus ..but he was my mr. perfect.aftr returning to hostel ..we parted .though I wanted to stay wid him a l’il longer ..but anyways …..back in da room ..all my frens were talking bout him ..n guessing whom did he like da most …n I knew it from all my heart it was me ..i was overjoyed n was jumping wid joy in my room n thanking god again n again for making him like me amongst all…n den da routine began ..him coming to our hostel almost every evening wid my other frens ..n in few days it was obvious to everyone tht he liked me ……..we met again n again ..but with the whole group…I was a very shy kind of gurl ….who thought too much bout ppl around ….so used to meet in group only n never dared to share my feelings..my frens teased me n asked me about my likings for him but I denied straightaway. N den our xams came n we were bout to finish off our studies n leave da campus….der was pain all around..of leaving the hostel,college n frens…n him …but sumhow he gathered courage n proposed me on a date …my heart ached I wantd to say yes but I said no…keeping in mind my parents , family n society I belongd to ……….i wantd to be with him but couldn’t ..there was no match to the society he belongd to n the place I came from ..he a big city boy n me a gurl from a small district . I was scared of going against my family n all but I was so naïve tht time to think tht love endures all ,conquers all. I had made up my mind tht I n da place I belongd to was no match to him ..n said tht he certainly deserves sumone better.not tht my heart didn’t ache ..i could see his hands tremble ..n feel my heart shatter n tears rolled down my cheeks..my first date of my life was over n was a date to remember …my first love of my life was lost too soon……n then we parted ways ..only to know a few days back tht he is engaged to a girl he loves so much… my heart ached …….lucky girl..he could have been mine , but lost him forever ….but I’m happy for him or so I would have to say coz he got someone better than me ..i jus wish him all da happiness in his life tht he truly deserve..n It feels great to know tht I was loved by such a gem of person once upon a time .

(Screen) Name: upset4eva

The Refuge III
By
Elio O. DiClaudio
&
Amy L. Melendez

You witnessed our first meeting; you were witness to our last
You brought us back together again, on one of the darkest days in this lifetime,
To your “church” where we met for the first time so many years before.
Thru the days you watched us sweat beneath the desiccating sun
Loving each other, always wanting more, never enough time
And at night in the back seat when we were one
Kneeling down to Pray

In the shadows’ neath your boardwalk, she opened me to love
Inside each other, we needed to remember this day, moment
Not long after I stand on our spot alone, with just the sun above
So, I could leave him again, or did he leave me, at that “church” door
As sweat turned to tears, I sought comfort by the moonlight
Beautiful Bella Luna, was not written for us to stay too long,
Your rippling waves murmuring “don’t fret it’s alright”
I had no one to comfort me, only imitations

Kill me first with your sword, then yourself…do it so we can be together, promise me my Love
Water to water, salt to salt, that’s the cycle that’s the beat
I had no holy water to cleanse my broken heart
I jump into you, the waves claim the tears
Wanting Him to jump back into me, to make me HIS again
Water to water, salt to salt, the cycles complete
My heart went the wrong way, in every other direction, but HIS
As sweat and tears merge in your cleansing baptism
Take me back to our “Church” forgive me my TRUE LOVE
With simple and humble words, I offer you this tribute
With silent suffering, I learned to write down every word
You gave me peace, you gave me refuge
I want peace again, wanting to go back to our “Church” our sweet refuge

A synchronicity emerging
The clock is ticking, the heart is pounding, a synchronistic event is being born
A birthday celebration, a class reunion, family gatherings
Yes, Yes its time for this to happen, now, again, nothing to fear
Voids of time, in between which a chance to reunite old souls
I remember you – dear friend, I remember the smile, the face, the touch
Back home where years ago together they took their first strolls
So many years, how I’ve wanted to touch you again and to see your beautiful face
One, twenty nine, two thousand ten
Room 309 at nine pm
All the 9’s, they added up perfectly…thank you Universe!
Nevertheless, the numbers don’t add up, the hearts and souls are out sync
The bodies grasp and struggle for the moment
Kissing again, loving again, too much too soon – WAIT (Please, Don’t Go)
Searching in the candlelight, it vanished in a blink
Lost in the frenzy of a ticking clock
Sweet angels, loving angels…. – WAIT (Don’t Go Sugar)
Noise echoing inside my head
If not here and now what other when and where instead?
By the light of that beautiful moon outside the room, – WAIT (Listen)
The energy’s in chaos we can’t refute
Is there still the chance for our last refuge?
BY THE LIGHT OF THE BELLA LUNA, THAT NIGHT, IN A NEW LIFETIME, WE WERE JOINED AGAIN AT OUR “CHURCH”, WERE WE FOUND OUR REFUGE

We were given the blessing now, for us to recognize, that WE DID find our Refuge, our Sanctuary, with Each Other, whenever and whenever it was possible.

(Screen) Name: leyna

hey in 8th class i fallin love . i love her very much but she is always in joking me. she is not serious about me but i love very much.after some time i pro to her she said to me yes . qnd that time i m so happy.Your Abhi.

(Screen) Name: Abhi

she was 26 and i was 11 , she was shapely, sexy, and very much virgin,i was unspolied, and in my teens. she came to our home after marrying my uncle.who left her and went to distant country for new job.there it was like waiting to happen instant attraction.that was like fatal attraction
somehow i knew from day one that she liked me. she touched me once on my cheeks and that was like electric shock. slowly i started admiring looking at her and got admiring her voluptous breasts.they were so shapely firm and round.
it was that day when no one was home and she kept the bath door open.don’t know if that was deliberate. i got so curious and and looked inside
she was there like mermaid
so glorious in her shapely body .

next day and next day same bath session continued
i know she knew it, we fell in love,
you know how it feels .i was shy scared;she was bold and sexy. the burning desire to touch,kiss her was like insatiable hunger
one fine night it happened,
i was sleeping , dreaming of her in my
arms.suddenly felt some one touching my lips
some thing like rose petal touched my lips,it was her lips on mine
i pulled her closer
we kissed so passionately.

tounges lashibg
twisting
we sucked each other’s nector
next day morning when i woke up
she was gone
iam 85 now
cant forget my first love

(Screen) Name: luvme2

2009,that was our vacation and our skol has chosen us as ballroom dancers to perform in a program hosted by our skol. it was during that time that mthis guy which i’ll call Miel had developed his feelings for me. our first performance was during the skol program and he was my partner during that time. and unexpectedly we were invited to perform in a barangay fiesta. and that was the exact time that he was totally turned on to me. that was a night performance. i was bothered when he seemed to be tensed and it seemed that he wants to talk to me. unluckily, my mom was there and so he took me early. a night before he texted me saying “pwede bang manligaw?” oh my gosh!!!! i was very shocked. because in all my life,my only role in his life is becoming a bridge to almost all his courtship activities. after a month we became lovers. for almost 3 months we were together. until one day our relationship started to failed. so one night I straightly asked him about our relationship and i immediately made my decision to QUIt it already. It wasn’t a hard break up for me,because the day just after our broke up,i found out that he already had a new girlfriend. i then realized that he was already courting that girl while we are still On. i don’t know but I didn’t even cry when i knew it. my life continued normally. I didn’t put any care about them. I just kept quite. his new girl mocks me and my friends,but we just let it passed. until one of my friends totally got mad at her. and saw my friend talk to Miel and was able to convinced him to break up with his girl. and so they broke up. and now it was our vacation again ad it was almost one month after their break up and Miel is courting me again. I don’t know and I don’t understand my self either. I gave him a chance and now we are together again. but i don’t know if I really love him.

(Screen) Name: blingbling

I suppose to others, this love story will seem strange, wrong, or even immoral. But to me, it is one of the greatest things that has happened. To make things clear, I am a girl.
I met her a few days after Christmas. The first time we spoke to each other, I knew immediately that I had found a true friend, someone who had so many common interests as me. The only problem; we lived in different countries. So we began messaging each other through MSN, email, and youtube. I soon realized that although we could never physically meet each other, I began to see her in a different light. I knew that I was attracted to both males and females before, but it came as a surprise to me when I slowly developed a crush on her. After about a month questioning my feelings, determining whether or not they were real, I finally decided to tell her I had a form of a crush for her. Her response was that she reciprocated those feelings. A few days later, while messaging her through MSN, I told her that I was wondering what would happen if my feelings ever grew to be more than just a simple crush. I was quite relieved and happy to find that she would never reject my feelings. But she also wouldn’t want to date me until we could meet in person every day. She said she wouldn’t want to tie me down. I understood completely, because I would never forgive myself if I were to cause her pain because she had found someone other than myself that she coveted in such a way. So we remained “just friends.”
Months later, possibly around four, I knew that my feelings had escalated. Very much so. I loved her. I thought that I had loved someone before, but now I realize I never truly had. Not like I loved HER. I only wanted the best for her. In previous relationships, I was extremely jealous, not to the extent where I would voice it, but jealous enough that it would bother me if they were with friends. With this girl, though, it was completely different. I wanted her to be happy, to enjoy everything she could. If her happiness meant we couldn’t speak for days, I was okay with that. I knew I would miss her, but as long as she was okay, I knew I would survive. I wanted to share everything with her, and for her to share everything with me. I’d never allowed a relationship to progress as far as this one has/had. I mean that in the sense that I know things about her. Things I’d never known about exes. As I said before, I love[d] her. So, naturally, I told her. I never expected her reaction to my words. She told me that she wasn’t sure what she was feeling. That she looked forward to it every day. That every time she spoke to me, it made her happy and excited. And then… She told me that she loved me, and that she had never felt this way towards anyone. With those words, I thought my heart would explode from all the joy. I cried tears of happiness at her confession.
To this day, we still speak. I am waiting for her, and I believe she is waiting for me. If it turns out that she finds another, so be it. As long as she is happy, I am. Now I just have to wait for the day when we are able to actually be together.

(Screen) Name: Kagami~

I was in 8th grade when this all happened I remember riding the bus and a guy came up and asked me for my number. The guy was 16 going on seventeen and I was thirdteen going on fourteen.Everyday he would ask me to hang and I kept making up lies on what I had to do.Then one day he texted me and asked why I kept blowing him off I told him I didnt know him well and he said thats if I came over we would talk and have fun before I hung up he said I have a surprise for u anyway. The next day I told my parents I was going to hang with one of my friends they said it was fine as long as I was home before my crefew which was nine.So I ment him half way and we walked to his house well when i got there there was a blanet outside on the ground and some roses on it.Then I sat down and he sat next to me and leaned over and said I like u jordan ur the most beautiful girl i have ever ment and i was wondering if u would be in a relationship with me I said yes.Then a few weeks later we had are first kiss it was azaming then he told me the words he loved me I fell in love right away.Then we were at are 10 month when my mom told me I was going to live with her.I cryed and cryed I told chase and before I left I wanted him to be part of my life forever so that nite we made love and its not forgetable I miss him I will never forget about my first love.

(Screen) Name: jordan

I Guess it All started in the 7th Grade.. I Dated a Girl Named ” Katie ” she was One of the prettier Girls in are Class. Anyway… She Was bestfriends with another girl in are class named ” Czarina ” Who Was Also Best Friends with my Sister Stephanie.

One night i was on my computer and Katie Asked me on msn if i would like to Go out with her kinda as a joke to Get Back at this other guy or something so i agree’d so we were basically pretending to be a couple.. i dont remmeber why it was a immature random gr.7′r thing anyway.. We ended up staying in this ” pretend state ” for months maybe 3-4 ? probably around the second she actually said … so i guess we really are boyfriend girlfriend so i guess we were Awsum..

Anyway are school Was Going on a Trip to Ottawa just the gr.7 class. Long story short in ottawa katie ended up cheating on me With a Random Kid Named ” nick ” My Friend Caught them making out behind one of the animals in the museum we were in… so i dumped her.. Note during the time we were going out ” Czar ” was always around us kinda like a third wheel sorta thing i never minded because she was a really cool person to hangout with , after i dumped katie.. grade 7 was over and it was time for high school.. i go threw grade 8 normal school year blah blah.

Half Way Threw Grade 9 I Started to begin feeling very very very depressed from the kids that would bully me in EVERY single class i had and the kids that would bully me use to be my BESTFRIENDS for over 6 years and HATED ME for no reason when high school dropped… im talking years or sleepovers , trips , bhalbhalba.

anyway i would walk home like half way threw the school day so id skip my last 2 class’s to cut down the stress i already with took in the morning. .. when i got home i would jump on my computer turn up some tunes and just chilll and talk on msn messenger .. one day in May i was sittin on msn and Guess who Decides to Say Hello… it was Czar haha i havent spoken to her in years she used to be over at my house and shit alot with my sister they were best best best friends so when me and czar hit high school ( shes the same age ) she and my sister kinda stopped hanging out because my sister was in gr.7 and ya.. czar found her own group of friends and fit in with whoever.

anyway She Says Hi and Asks me how ive been and what not.. i tell her good blah blah blah .. then during the last few weeks of may.. i found myself constantly Wanting to go home not just because of the bullying.. but because i Had this URGE to talk to her more and more and more ( Weve Been Friends Since i was prob 7 like a kid.. so we know alot about eachother) anyway.. its a friday night and She Comes on Asking if me and my sister and my sisters boyfriend Wanted to Drink so we were down… we ended up goin to my sisters boyfriends cause his parents were outta town.

Anyway Were taking shots Smokin a lil weed just chillin us 4 watching some tv chit chattin and We End up going into his lil shed/hangout place in his backyard were sitting in there with a lamp and Theres 2 beds inside not really beds but seats kinda like really big cushions anyway… my sister and her bf were on 1 and czar was laying on the other and i went and layed beside her…

I Could Feel the Tension Running threw my veins I Knew she wanted Me And she knew i wanted her.. I Never felt this way Before i never felt this gutsy stomach feeling like i have 5454 butterflys flying around inside… we were laying in a position where i was facing the wall and she was behind me ( kinda like she was spooning me ) but we werent physcially touching eachother just laying beside eachother..

i slowly Raised my left hand and brought it up onto her thigh.. i started going towards her belt.. i undid it with 1 hand and was being really careful and gentle and kept rubbing her upper legs and her ass over her jeans.. i could hear her panting in my ear.. i could feel the cushion shaking uncontrollably like she was nervous and scared like a person in a cave with no flash light. 15 minutes go by as we silently touch and rub eachother ( not sexually….yet ) just legs..arms…hands that kinda stuff…

i was holding her hand and oh god… it felt so god damn good like everything was perfect rite then and there…she slowly started rolling ontop of me ( she was trying to lay infront of me ) so she rolled over and i was spooning her now.. she took my hand and slowly .. so so slowly brought my hand down into her Blue panties.. i couldnt belevie what was happening.. i never went past kissing with my first girlfriend ( katie ) .. i was touching my first Vagina ( as funny and lame as that sounds lmao ) … i had no idea what i was doing but neither did she.. so i was foolin around down there for about half a hour and she was foolin around down in my pants to.. it was the craziest moment of my life.. my sister and her bf suddenly get up ( we were being quiet this whole time if my sister knew this was happening shed FREAK and hate me and her both ) ..

so my sister and him get up and we get up and he says ( you guys should go now parents get home in a couple hours ) so me czar my sister all bike back to my house ( czar was originally spending the night at my house with my sister before The drinking came up ) so were all back at my house and my sister goes off to bed with czar… im sittin downstairs on the couch its like 4am.. its pitch black and im just sitting there… thinking.. pondering… what has happened

i Couldnt whipe the smile from my face.. i felt like I was the king of the world i felt like omg.. words cant describee.. anyway im staring out my window just in silenceee and i hear the stairs creaking.. it was her.. she snuck outta my sisters room and came down … she moved with such elogance and grace.. as she slowly walked towards me.. sat beside me and we both stared into eachothers eyes and kissed and kissed and kissed and kissed for a hour non stop.

the next morning she leaves and were talking on msn… she signs on With faces in her name … She was very very upset and angry and i had to know why.. so i asked

My dad is making my mom send me down to ontario… for a year… ( My heart smashed… rite when i read it .. this couldnt be true .. )

i leave… in 4 days..can we please spend as much time as we can togther before i leave..

so we meet up at around 2pm BEAUTIFULLL Day outside in the summer around junesh I just turned 15 on the night all this happened ( yes it was my birthday surprisingly )

anyway we meet up on this trail in the woods ( we live 5 min from eachother ) and we take a long walk to this Pond and we just layed in the sand for hours.. talking and trying to figure out what were gunna do….she asked if i would comeover tonight and see her.. so i agree’d OF COURSE lol.

anyway i crawl threw her bottom window ( shes in the basement at her house ) and im in her room with her =] shes in her pjs haha anyway were watching finding nemo and its really really quiet… just sittin beside eachother.. it was like Neither of us wanted to make the first move you know :p that awkwurd feeling.. you no what im talking about.

anyway i slowly move my right foot towards her feet.. and play footsies with her she looks over and smilesss ohh god did she smile =] she asked if we could go up on her bed and watch instead of sittin on the floor with the futon so i said ok why not…. we instantly go crazy mad on eachother like a New Toy your parents just bought you when you were 5 .. Anyway this happend everynight for the next 3 nights.. i never spent the night there id leave at like 4am run home.. and No We did not have Sex.. just little stuff.

anyway it Comes to the night shes leaving and a huge group of us are getting drunk for her leaving just like 7 of us… anyway theres this jada chick who was there and i was BLACKED OUT hammerd this was probably my 4th time ever drinking… 15 year old i was fucked up… and supposevly i was getting her to take off her bra to let me try it on ( not like watch her take it off , she took it off under her shirt and pulled it threw her arm sleeve , i didnt see anything nor wanted to see anything ) anyway after that happened all the cops came and we were all on a roof of a school drinking and chillin so the cops came and i ran and jumped off the roof and darted it for the woods, jada did the same and followed me.

I had no idea Where Czar Was this entire night.. i thought she was with her friends saying goodbye and waht not sharing a joint somewhere or something i dont no i was hammerd.

anyway im looking around for her and shes no where in site.. everyone has met in the woods everyone got away from cops and czar is no where in site… so i run to her house and shes already there in her pajams laying in her bed ( im knockin on her window )

she comes up to the window and opens it and says GO AWAY LEAVE ME ALONE and slams her window and shuts the curtains.. i was so fuckin hurt and confused WHY she just did that and said that..

the next morning she comes over to my house at like 9am to hug my sister goodbye and head to the airport… i was standing behind my sister when she hugged her .. i was awaiting to talk to czar and hug her .. kiss her.. she just walked away after hugging my sister didnt say bye to me didnt say anything didnt even look at me..

2 weeks pass… her dad doesnt let her use the computer much.. phone.. anything so im basically Dead inside for 2 weeks wondering why..why is this happening i just had the world in my hand and now i have nothing so fast…

anyway.. its almost been a month and a half weve spoken maybe twice for 5 minutes about nothing cause she never had time to talk..

so its like october.. she left in middle of september or something , anyway im sittin on my couch watching The flinstones just eating some cereal and my door bell rings… so im goin to answer it.. and i see Redhair threw the window ( its one of those windows where the design makes it hard to see threw like you cant see a face’s just body outline you know ) anyway i see a head of redhair and im like hm.. so i open the door and there she is… standing on my porch… i ran away from my dad…

i was fucking shocked beyond belief like WTF%$%$!! how did you get home like WHAT ??? my mom got me a plane ticket and a limo driver to pick me up at school… i couldnt beleive she ran away and flew back… for me.. it was like something outta the movies some epic ending to a chick flick or something..

anyway … long story short since ive wrote way to much.. could contact me if youd ever care to hear the full story..

anyway long story short.

- dated from 15 to 18
- We Broke up multiple times during , ( i ended up in the hospital for Suicide attempts )

- We were togther again after that for a while..until she Slutt’d out Drunk with my friends because of the ( jada bra thing when we were 15 it was one of the main problems in are realtionship because it was the night czar was leaving and i was with this chick the whole time and didnt see czar once… she was apparently crying in the soccer field by herself for hours , yes im a fucking idiot.. and regret it everyday of my life ) .

- anyway we were fighting and fighting to survive.. to make it work.. until she slutted out to my friends and was saying all this fucked up shit to them infront of me and saying she wants a 6 some and shit in bed..so i dumped her because she was acting like a skank who hated me for like 2 weeks and i was done with it.. so i dumped her.. she ended up fucking some guy she said she was friends with when we were 15 .. i always knew shed end up fucking this duche bag.. but not 2 years later when were 17 turning 18

so she calls me one night crying wishing and beggin for me back and i cant beleive i acutally agreed and we talked for hours… i was goin over to see her until she said… i slept with someone else.. i had to tell you.. please dont hate me

my mind went blank… it erased at that second.. there was nothing left.. not a single feeling not a single tear nothing.. i just sat there speechless and said…. bye and i hungup.. she called over 200 times in a row.. tryin to talk to me no joking 200 times… hours of calling non stop..

anyway i ended up getting backtogther with her ( ya i was that inlove with her that i didnt give a shit ) i was more inlove with this girl then life itself literally obsessed with her and not in a sick way…. we were crazy in love for years.

anyway i got backtogther with her and she ended up dumping me.. randomlly a normal day and she leaves my house.. gives me a kiss goodbye and dumps me on msn messenger the following day and its now may 24, 2010 and im yet to see her… and any time shes texted me or tried to talk ive been a Rude Giant Omega Asshole because she messed me up for a along time.. and i did nothin but treat her like a princess for years every single day.. every hour.. i didnt talk/hangout/ANYTHING with any other female the entire realtiosnhip we had she never knew what JEALOUSLY was because i made it impossible on purpose.. and she still some how fucks me over.. nice guys finish last is basically the outline of my realtionship.

anyway.. i dont no if its possible to Whipe your brain clean of Someones Excistence.. but i haven thought about her since like janaury.. at all literally not once and i havent seen except once a week ago at the liqour store.. she didnt see me but i saw her… maybe she saw me idk… anyway thats my story.. if i explained it in literal full detail… id make you all cry your eyes out but unfortunetly i dont have time to write up literally 48 hours of typing .. its 4am and i need some rest=] thats my story … thanks 4 readomg

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