In search of the true one, was always running in my mind. Being the quieter one and finally letting go of the long held emotion, the truth hit like a frost bite. It took so long to accept reality that she was never meant for me, but for someone else whom she had loved and married. Fair enough, life moved on as one thing I had learnt is to keep emotions and life separate.

After all, I am a human being. As time passed by and life flowing through stream, a smile in the corner caught my site finally. The smile of someone with whom I had lost the opportunity of being formally introduced. Once again, being shy, I cared less to act smart. Then came the day, when we got to exchange our names and what we do. Then again, murmuring to myself, this is not you, stop seeing sunlight and so few days pass by.

One fine day, she asks for a favor. The show-off could get the work done easily, totally on his grasp, I say to myself. Then we start talking. She wanted to give me company for a cake I craved for. Time went by and we became closer. We talked and talked, all day, all evening, all night. This goes on.

Excitement hit me, but fear of losing my way stopped me. Then came the sight I couldn’t resist. Right after lunch, I came down and saw her taking small bits of her apple, humming to herself and looking at her monitor. The sight of innocence was what caught me and I readily knew I was in Love.

I still knew she would be leaving in a few months, back home, back from where she came from only for sometime. But that wouldn’t stop me, I was determined. I was confident. But my confidence and determination killed time. I never got the chance of telling her how I felt although I am sure she understood. The confusion lied within me if she had felt the same way and it irritated me more.

My over-estimation and rash attitude of losing her finally led me to the biggest regret of my life. I was never in favor of long distance and the mixed proven fact of her “perhaps not feeling the same way” made me cut off from her. It took me only a bit of time that I had committed the biggest mistake and tried to get in touch with her. I was overburdened with guilt, and I am sure she was overburdened with anger by my foolish crime. She never responded.

I could finally make myself stable with every bit of bitter experience of comparing her with every others I met the last three years. I could never love again, and I stop trying. Just then a text shook me with the click of new year’s excitement. A text from a long lost dear friend, someone I had hurt and regretted.

“Guess you are preparing for new year’s eve. All I wanted to say is that I miss you and now I realize. Keep Smiling”. There was only one name I could think of, only one name I missed so much all these years. A rise in expectations, I rather not. But how can I explain my heart? She did remember me finally, and that should be enough to comfort me, but it is never enough.

I hope to see her once again and apologize, for anything and everything I have done. But do I get to share my feelings with her I carried and carry with me? I don’t know and will I ever know?

(Screen) Name: Silence

I am going to tell a secret love story of mine..I call this a secret because I have not told anyone in my home about this.
My life is really very complicated, because many guys came in my whomed I met n they were not my love but ya they were my crush..
I remember it was 19th july 2010 when I met my first love..His name was Shivam..Illoved him very dearly..he was most important part of my life.. We were in same school, bt not same class unfortunately..on 19th July I told him about my feelings for him.
I told him ” shivam i wanna tell you ane thing..” he replied doubtedly “what??”..I told him “I LOVE YOU..”..He was shocked and surprisinly askedwheter he heard something wrong..but later I asked again “do you love me??” he thought for a while and then replied “yes”..
His answer took me in 17th sky..I was like flying and ruling the whole world..
Many days passed..We spend most of the time together…We were known as the most happiest couple in our tution..everyone knew that how much dearly we loved each other..
But as days passed, my love for him grew but not his love for me..One day he went tution but I didnt, but I went market with my friend and she told me to call up my love..and I did so..
That day was most unlucky for me..i called him..he answerd..
me:hello
shivam:hi
me: me,varsha is this shivam??
shivam: yes.
me: do you have girlfriend??
shivam: no.
me: but I heard that you have and her name is Bishakha??
shivam: no,she is gud friend of mine..we not in a realationship..
I started crying..
me: ok..will you be my boyfriend?
shivam: sure..
me: ok then now bye..have to go home..
shivam: bye..
that day I went to meet him and broke up our reationship..
After few years I started forget him n i was succesfull..
NOw, a new day full of surprise..I remember,it was 5th november..that day was most important day of my life..that day I went out of my home to roam..That day I met one boy.His name is Vivek…he proposed me…i agreed to be in a realtionship with him..And now we are happy couple..
I just hope that we will be in a relationship forever…Just want everyone’s blessings for our relationship..

(Screen) Name: love

Looking Within
Love looks within to see what it can give to the desire, yet is wise to indentify the safety of the desire. Wise people step forward carefully with their mind, foolish people step forward quickly with their feet.
For God, also known as love did make us in his image and in his likeness. He is love. In ourselves, we find this likeness; we do not know how to explain it, yet we give it a name. We call it love. From the beginning of time, humans have been trying to explain and describe their inner feelings. Is it like, approval or love? Is it dislike, detest or hate? We all have likes and dislikes. We show our feeling through expressions and gestures as we did before we learned speech. If we dislike something, we push it away rather than draw it close. These choices go on daily in our lives. Simple example, it is too hot or it is too cold? These are choices made of our likes and dislikes.
Have you heard, “I like it,” “I like it a whole lot,” “I really, really like it,” “I like it so much I cannot tell you”. And then, I think I miss it, or I’m missing it” and now trying to describe the feelings, “I’m confused.” Is it love or just a feeling of super like? What does it give? What does it cost? Did it give first or take first? After measuring its quality, we discard it or keep it. If we keep it, then it is a desire. If we discard it, we have found no value or it may pose the slightest danger. If it is love now, then what is it later if it is discarded dislike, hate?
Going from love to hate may look like this, affection, adoration, friendship, tenderness, feeling, fondness, like, devotion, passion, ardor, amity, Darling, dear, dearest, sweetheart, honey, abhorrence, detestation, odium, [the middle] revulsion, disgust, dislike, animosity, aversion, distaste, loathing, abhor, detest, loathe, dislike, despise then hatred. If it is love, then goes back to hate, where did the measures of the other feelings go?
We do not recognize that we are making choices of love and hate. Like and dislike are smaller measurements of love and hate. Because choices of like and dislike do not seem important we tend to over look theses small feelings. Yet every choice that we make can grow to become love or hate, or the smallest choice of like or dislike can grow to feel like love or hate, but are strong feelings of like or dislike. Like and dislike grows to the portions of what can be mistaken for love or hate. If love and hate is strongest verbal expressions in our vocabulary. How can one say love, and then say hate? Is there an on/off switch one can be switch to cause an auto reverse of previous said feelings? Something happened to love that caused it to go into protect mode. We do not realize we are love and we are deciding what is safe for us.
What does love want? Love wants all good things that makes love comfortable and safe, in return gives back equal of the same or more to keep the attracted desire. Love will protect its desires and repel or eliminate the dangers to love. Love makes decisions through feelings controlled by decisions of like or dislike which lead to patterns of emotions. Theses emotions start at birth and build though out our lives. Repetitive inner agreements of likes or dislikes make our displayed emotions. Emotions come into play while making a solid decision of giving or receiving. In control of emotions, love makes a choice to draw near or repel. Likewise, loves desires as well are making a choice to draw near or repel. We are love who has control of all situations, good or bad.
When we show affection, adoration, friendship, tenderness, feeling, fondness, like, devotion, passion, ardor, amity, darling, dear, dearest, sweetheart, we are love because love is defined as such. How can one say for example, affection is not love? Affection is a part of the definition of love. If you show affection alone, then you are showing a product of love, therefore you are love because it is you affection comes from.
A mirror shows us the temple [body] of the human. Is it wise for the outside to be beautified and the inside not? True beauty shines from within. The product of one’s love shows the true self. Go to the mirror, look at the human temple, say to it, I am love, and then go see the products of your love with your eyes, ears, and feelings. Are they all happy?
What are the products of true love, they are, affection, adoration, friendship, tenderness, feeling, fondness, like, devotion, passion, ardor, amity, darling, dear, dearest, sweetheart, and honey. Love is the greatest of all appreciations. Definition for love @ [http://www.wordhippo.com/what-is/another-word-for/love.html]

(Screen) Name: “G”

I wonder if you think of me half as much as I think about you.

I’d like to apologize for writing you this note..
I just really wanted you to know
That I’m so damn serious with regards of what I felt for you..
I’m a man, but no matter how tough I act and how ominous I look,
My heart seems to explode in bliss whenever I take a glimpse of your picture.

Your eyes are chinky and beautiful whenever you smile
Specially your long blonde hair and when you lips locked
I know this for a fact because it’s my habit to stare at you
I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel
I was too interested, in keeping it real
I know it’s weird, and you might not getting what I’m trying to say
But I just want to let you know that you’re the type of girl
I’d sit and contemplate marriage with

I’m blessed just to see you everyday or I’ll say everynight
I know for sure that you’re not even interested in me
Sometimes I wonder what you think of me or if you do at all.
You don’t know what you mean to me,
You don’t have a clue, you can’t tell by looking at me what I feel for you.
It’s not telling you how I feel that scares me it’s what you’ll say back
That is why I have decided just to write a note.

My heart is exploding and hoping for a future
To the point wherein both of us feel the love and joy,
cuddling and snuggling close… I adore you.

“The worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside you and yet you know you can never have them.”

(Screen) Name: Jeffrey Sarmiento

This is actually far from over. In Fact, It has only has just begun. I’ve been best friends with this girl since freshman year in high school. Actually, i hated her in the beginning because so was so damn annoying. shes still annoying but thats later. Now we’re freshman in college and shes off at mMizzou in Columbia, Missouri. And me,well, I’m stuck back home in Saint Peters going to the community college. I didn’t do too well in high school. Anyway, over the summer we became distant. she was busy with her boyfriend but mostly i was too busy getting drunk or stoned. she got sick of being around it all the time. and at the time it didn’t bother me because again, i was caught up in things that shouldn’t of mattered. And it came close to the end of the summer and i had a lot of friends leaving town for college so i decided to throw a going away party. that night she broke up with her boyfriend before coming over and we ended up getting pretty drunk. we start flirting. And kissing each others necks.
then next thing i know shes talking to my friend jordan saying she wants to have sex with him. and i get mad. well not just mad, i was furious. and i didn’t know why. I tried justifying it by telling myself i was just drunk. Or that i was just being the brother figure i usually am. but somehow at the end of the night me and her ended up laying in my bed together. we started talking, and she was apologizing for upsetting me. i told her it was ok but joked around, giving her crap for leading me on. and for some odd reason i tell her its probably best we didn’t hook up( not a guy thing to do), and that its better we wait til it means something. then we joke around getting married if we can’t find anyone better. well the joke lasted briefly. it started becoming a reality in my head. i got used to the idea of it. the next morning i woke up to her in my arms. and it was the greatest feeling in the world. it was then i realized i was in trouble. With the alcohol out of my system i knew that this was just more then a drunken sex escapade. that night another friend was having a graduation party. she was there of course. we chatted for a bit. she was getting ready to leave by the time i got there and i told her i needed to tell her something later. so she just me to stop by her house when i was leaving the party. the journey there had obstacles of its own. i stopped by my house to grab a pack of cigarettes, and when i try the start my car it dies. i wait thirty minutes trying to start my car and it finally starts. and then i set my phone in the cup holder where for some reason has a puddle of water. so my phones freaking out and turning on and off. I had to get a hold of her when i got there because her parents were sleeping and she didn’t want to wake them up. so I prayed to god for a miracle. what else was i supposed to do. I don’t know if it was god or just luck but my phone turned on long enough to contact her. and then never came back on. so i end up at her house outside in the fron talking. I’m apologizing to her for not being the friend i should of been. and for getting so mad the other night. and told her she needed to promise me we’ll never loose touch. I did come close to telling her i love her, but it just wouldn’t come out. so i go my separate way for the night. And now for the Third night she comes over after i get back from a family birthday. and once again we lay in my bed together watching movies, intertwining fingers. are bodies were so close at one point we had to take the blanket off. she ended up leaving around two in the morning. and as i watched her drive i realized this girl had stolen my mind. she had opened up my eyes and my life would never be the same again. the following week she went off to college and things calmed down a bit. i just tried to focus on school and work as much as possible. and she’d come home every weekend and things we intensify each time she came back. now its been about a month since this whole conundrum started. Its sunday, September 11th at 2:16 am and two nights ago she came back for Chads birthday and i’m not sure but i think she had sex with jordan the guy from the beginning of this bullshit. now i have no idea what to do. these i don’t feel like a sane man. my mind is tearing itself apart. and i feel like my whole body is giving up on me. i can’t eat. i can’t sleep without dreaming about her so I’ve suppressed myself from falling asleep. my chest aches constantly longing for the brush of her tender,soft hands. I’m in big trouble. but this story does have a happy ending. like i said earlier i barely made it out of high school. college was not on my mind. but now, i’m going to school to be a highschool history teacher. possibly a college professor. and i’ll be heading down to mizzou in the next two years. so maybe its too early in the day to close the chapter on her. all though as of right now shes sleeping with frat guys she doesn’t even know. i don’t think i can stop being in love with her, no matter what she or i does. so we’ll see. we’ve got twelve years to figure it out. thats when we’re getting married.

(Screen) Name: cmanlive

I met this guy about thirteen years ago,he was a friend of the guy I was dating at the time, I remember that day like it was yesterday, he was the kinda guy who loved to hug a female, the real ladies man bad guy you see on romance thrillers, and when he hugged me I took in a deep breath and his cologne smelled so yummy on him, I was instantly in love with this guy. Well over the next 5 years I was hooked on that cologne he wore, aspen, I bought a bottle of it once and just smelled it once in a while an every time it would bring that one moment back, in short I NEVER forgot bout him. And now that I really think about it I was kinda obsessed with this guy.oh well.

I was pregnant the next time I saw him. I was leaving the movie store as he was leaving the auto store and he saw me an called out my name, I melted inside my heart felt like it had stopped beating all because he had remembered me even after all those years, he of coursed gave me a hug and sure enough he was still wearing aspen. He asked how I had been an he seen I was pregnant but he didn’t turn and run like most guys would have. he told me it was his baby and he was my man, he was joking of course at least I thought he was. We talked for maybe five minutes and went our own way. I had falling in love with him even more after that. I knew where he lived and every time I was going that way I would look over to his house just to see if he was around I never had the guts to go up there an ask for him, But now I wish I would have maybe it would be different, well ill never know.

Six years later I was dating a guy who was pretty much nothing but a bum, well before I knew he was like that I had tried getting up with him…1st clue to him being a bum.I had sent a text to the last number he had called me from asking if they knew where he was ..the person text back saying no I don’t this is not his phone. I text and said ok well if you do see him tell him to get up with me cause I wanna see him.they text back with I’m only like ten minutes away come see me. I text back saying who are you.and sure enough by some kinda faith out there in this world it was him the guy who wore aspen. I was in shock he had finally come back in my life and this time he was not getting away that easy. I told him who I was and he still remembered me.He came over that weekend.

We started dating a week later and I was so in love and yet for some reason I was scared out of my mind of this guy maybe because he did mean so much to me. I worried about all the usual stuff like lying and cheating because every guy I had been with before lied or cheated or something just as hurtful. I started drifting away from him after about three weeks because I got so scared I would be hurt by him. I was going to the country club and dancing with this other guy, until one night he decided he was going to show up at that club to find me, I was standing there with the guys arm around my waist when I felt someone tap on my right shoulder I turned around thinking maybe it was my aunt whom I was there with but to my surprise it was my aspen man and I instantly felt pain in my heart for what I had been doing to him. I fell in to his arms and I remember his exact words ” You’r still my girl right?” and never went back to that place or seen that guy I was with…I never cheated on him in a sexual way but to this day I regret those dances. But I never doubted him again.

I was hurt by someone I was living with about 2 months after that night and I was scared to tell him because I did not know what he would do to this person an I did not want to see him taken away from me over someone who means nothing, but that next day he knew something was not right and he just stayed silent most of the day. That night he called me and he told me he knew something was bothering me and he wanted to know. so I told him and I told him why I did not want to tell him. He was upset that I did not tell him but he understood why. The next day when he came to get me to ride around with him, witch is mostly what we ever did at that time just to be alone, the person that had hurt me was out side in the yard and my man never once looked at the guy. I moved out of that place that following weekend…but the twist is I moved in with my ex and his girl friend and mine an my exes son. Needless to say he did not like that very much but I told him that me an my ex are over and that he was all I wanted. He finally got to know my ex and he was not 100% ok with it but he tolerated it only because he knew I was safe, I was safe because he was with me all the time the only time we where apart was when he was working.I remember when he was working and I was home I was sad I missed him like crazy sometimes I would cry.I worried about him all the time unless I was with him he was all I had and that’s the truth.me an my family did not talk ,my ex had moved out of state an took my son with him all because he knew I was having a hard time getting on my feet he really screwed me when he took my son from me , but anyways this story has nothing to do with that.but yes he was all I had and I needed him more than anything when my ex did leave my man moved in completely.

We grew stronger than ever i mean we did have two arguments over small stuff. I started to realize how much he loved me when I would look in his eyes I saw the love he had for me I can honestly say we had a fairy tale love and I always worried about waking up from the dream I was having because it felt so unreal but it was the best feeling to have. I remember going to his moms one day when he was working on her car for her and he walked away for a few and his mom looked at me and said ” he must really love you. He never brought one of his girlfriends home before, and he talks about you all the time.” and when she told me that i did not think it was possible but I fell even more in love with this man.

When he would take me to meet his friends an hang out he always would introduce me as his girl but the way he would say it was so sweet it did not matter who was around who we where talking to he always said ” this is my girl ____.. Isn’t she beautiful?” or it would be isn’t she great or sexy or something like that all the time. He knew how to make me melt. Also when we would go hang out if I wanted anything or needed anything he was right there no matter what him and his friends where up to. When he was driving he always had one hand on my leg or holding my hand. He was the greatest man I had ever known. we had developed a routine everyday, wake up spend about an hour together in bed or more, take a shower, he would get ready for work or what ever we where doing that day, but as he would back out the drive he would blow me a kiss and before he got to the end of the road he would look back wave an blow a kiss every time he had to leave me home. and when it would get close to the time for him to come home I was sitting on the couch waiting an watching out the window for him and when he pulled in the drive I felt relived,you see I did not have a phone with me during the times he was gone so I worried a lot about him. I never wanted to loose him.

We dated close to four months not long at all but it was the greatest four months of my life he was my king he meant the world to me I believe I could have killed for him if I had to but there was always that fear in the back of my mind of loosing him not to someone else but to the world. One day we got up had a great morning he left to go to work and when it got time for him to come home he never showed, at first I figured he worked late some times he did, but when night time rolled around and he never showed I got scared I cried all night my room mate tried to help but all she did was drive me nuts I needed my man where was he is he dead did he just not want to come back what was going on? I had no car no phone no money he had all that with him when he left. I finally fell asleep about five a.m. the next morning and got woke up at six a.m someone was at the door i jumped up to get it an it was his friend there to tell me he had gotten locked up.I wont say why he got locked up.

But my biggest fear was now real I knew I had lost him he was not coming back for a long time from what every one was telling me.I started talking to my family finally so when he was taken from me I went to my moms I could not be in that house with out him I cried every night my thanksgiving was horrible I wanted to die plain an simple.

I had not heard from him or anything about what was going on all I knew was he was locked up and was in a lot of trouble. I contacted on of his friends I thought might would know more about what was going on but he knew nothing. after two weeks of not having him I was not myself, I guess you could say, yeah I had my family back but my other half was gone and I was lost..but any ways his friend started talking to me feeding me lines knowing I was not in my right mind, we talked for a few weeks and had me convinced I did not need the guy I was with that he could do more for me and he liked me and I hate to say it but I fell for it and the day he came to see me I thought I had feelings for him I thought maybe just maybe he was the one to make me happy again. as we sat on the couch at my moms house talking, the phone rang, I answered and it was my roommate. she said “Guess who I’m standing here with?’ then I hear “you’r still my girl right?”…I did not know what to do, here I am in my moms living room, with not just any other guy but my guys friend and my guy who was now out of jail some how on the phone.

I did something I regret after that.on December 1st I left the man of my dreams for a fake liar who dose nothing but hurt me, not physically but emotionally. everyday is hard my life sucks and I hate it but I cant change it just yet. I do care a little about the friend and I know he cares about me its just he is spoiled and thinks its all about him all the time.I have been with him for almost nine months now but I don’t do it for me I don’t do it for him I do it for my son because right now he needs a stable home.

And every morning I wake up, I think about my love and what we had and how much I miss him and I wounder what he is up to as I read the text message he sends me every morning.I love you sweetheart always an forever and I promise one day we will be together again you are the only one I need YOU ARE MY GIRL.

(Screen) Name: worley

It was my Third Term in College, Or Last term as a freshmen in my school and because of an unfortunate chain of events plus my slothfulness my schedule for that term was all night classes. My classes everyday started at 6pm and ends at 9pm. Being the optimistic me i just said to myself that it might be fun and a new experience in college. I was so nervous since i was 100% sure there would be no familiar faces for me to see since all my classmates last two terms were all Morning or Afternoon Classes. Than I entered my first class of the first day of the term.It was World Literature and i was right. there was nobody that i knew. I sat at the last row where there was only two of us, His name was Danny and we became good friends.

The next meeting i was late for class and when i entered i saw that Danny was absent and that another person was seated in the last row. He was seated next to my spot. When i sat down there was a slight aura of awkwardness since i’m not really a social person so i don’t know how to easily interact with strangers. He broke our silence by asking me if there was anything that he missed since he was absent on the first meeting. I told him that there was some hand-outs that was given. He asked for mine so that he could photocopy it to have his own copy. After that we talked and by the end of the Class he asked for my name and he gave his but i wasnt able to hear it clearly. I did hear our professor calling him mateo and so that was what i called him.

Days passed and Me, Mateo and Danny became close especially since it was only the three of us who were seated at the last row. Mateo than told us that Mateo wasn’t really his name. We were shocked. The only reason he was being called Mateo by our professor was that because he looked like a TV actor named Mateo. We all laughed when he learned this. He than gave his real name. “It’s Roy” he said.

Roy is a very sweet, Nice and Smart Guy. A Gentleman you might say. although a little kid at heart when it comes to hobbies and past time but than it still adds to his charms. He somebody you can totally count on or a shoulder to cry on. Whenever we’re both online he would show me links to funny videos in youtube or would ask me what i’m doing. It never really bothered me. I was never irritated with him. Sometimes i just don’t feel like talking to him. I know it sounds awful of me but i guess that’s just who i am. When there’s something important i’m doing everything and everybody seems so irrelevant to me.

The term ended and we didn’t see each other anymore since our course was different and that we were now in different campuses. I was in the Art and Design Campus of the school while he was in our Main Campus. After two months it was raining really hard and i don’t know if classes were suspended so i thought of texting one of my schoolmates. A funny thing happened i remembered Roy and then started to miss him. I texted him asking if classes were suspended. He replied “Yes. Btw how are you? its been so long.” I dont know why but my heart pumped fast and my face became red. I never really had a crush on him since he was never my type so now i was confused why i was blushing on him. We texted for a while and after that he never left my mind.

A week has passed and i still couldn’t get him off my head. I wanted to see him badly and so i texted him on a Thursday night and asked if he wanted to go out and watch a movie on Friday. He said sure. I felt like i was on top of a rainbow when he said yes. Just like any girl i wanted to dress my best especially since i was about to go out with a man that i now have a crush on. Friday came and we met. I was the one all dressed up yet i was the one stunned when i saw you. You became more Good looking. Handsome. I felt like it wasn’t Roy that i was gonna go out with but a Prince Charming.

We went on our way to the mall. On the cinema floor we were deciding what to watch. In the end we chose Cowboys and Aliens but i never told you that i already watched that movie. For me the Important thing was that i get to spend some time with you. Before the movie we ate at Burger King and again i didn’t told you that i already ate burgers and fries on before our date. It’s funny how i have to go though those things again and yet i didn’t complained and actually enjoyed it. The Movie ended and we were about to go to a bar to drink before we go home. We were already outside the mall waiting for a cab when you asked if it was okay if we cancel the drink since your mother is looking for you and wanted to discuss something. I said okay. It depressed me a little though since i really wanted to spend the whole night with you. You called your driver and drove me home. “It was fun. Let’s do it again sometime.” is the last thing you said and it made my night complete.

Now we chat again see each other from time to time and go to parties together. It really has been the best during this past month. I’m falling for you more and more each day but the sad part is i know you don’t feel the same way. I know that you’re just really really nice and friendly that’s why you’re doing these things for me. That’s why my feelings for you is the biggest secret you will never know. I just want to enjoy every moment we spend together and hopefully this feeling that i have for you will move on.I know i’ll regret never telling Roy my feelings but would it be better to be always be friends with constant communication than take a chance on love that might just end up in tears and heart breaks especially since i consider you truly as one of the most precious friends i have.

(Screen) Name: Just Friends

The end of grade 8 was coming. I was excited yet sad. It has been one of the most stressfree years ever for me. No drama! Woot to that. I’ve never been in a relationship before so I don’t know much about love but I have had crushes. I always questioned love. How would you know you were in love? Well there’s this guy I’ve known for 4 years and I’ve always, I mean ALWAYS bullied and hated on him. I mean we’ve been in the same class until grade 8 and I never felt any change. All the girls, I mean ALL the girls loved him. He was super athletic, soo atheletic that he thought it was bad when he got a bronze medal! I mean he was the only guy from our grade who got a medal. He was smart. I study all the time but only make it into the 80s. He never studies and he gets a mark higher then me. He’s good-looking. Sooo many girls fell for him because of his looks. He’s popular. His girlfriend is almost 20 though he just turned 14! I am NOT joking, I’m utterly serious. Maybe this is why I’ve always hated him. He’s got it all. Or maybe it’s because he’s cheated on my best friend and then after cheated on my other friend. But recently I’ve been growing feelings for him. I don’t even know why. I mean I’ve hated this guy for almost 4 years. How can I sprout feelings from hate? My mind, heart and soul don’t agree with it. I mean I’m always telling myself, who cares about him? He’s an idiot, cheater and liar who only has a huge ego. But then I start loving those parts of him. Maybe it’s God? I mean I only started looking at him after I had this dream about him. It’s weird. I dream of a romance created by God. I want complete destiny. Anything can be destiny though that’s the problem. I changed after I started looking at him. I’ve been wanting to be prettier just so he can look at me. I’ve been acting cuter so I can talk to him. I’ve been going against my will so I can fit in with him. I know I will NEVER tell him I like him so that’s why all the little things I change about myself is so he’ll notice just a little. And maybe the last day of next year, he’ll finally notice but maybe it’ll be too late.

(Screen) Name: Hahafunny

This is my friends love story. Ravi first in the class since 2years in intermediate.he loved a girl Priya who is not very good looking but she is silent calm and has a cute smile. She never talked with others on her own she gives replies when any asks her. Everybody respects her in the class. Ravi never told about his love with his friends also.He talked with her only ten to twelve times but he likes her very much.In the end of school days he wanted to propose to her but he cant as he was afraid that if she rejects his proposal he could not tolerate it. So he hide his love.As it is customary to write slam books at the time of partition he also have his slam book to her she wrote in that he is good friend to her and she likes his jovial nature.On the last day when everybody was leaving he asked her when she was leaving she told him that she dont have anybody except her uncle she was going to join in orphans school on listening to it he felt very much depressed about her condition she asked him ‘U too are leaving today’? Meaning not to leave today. He waited till morning when he was leaving the school she came to give off to him her face become so small with no smile and a gloomy face. RAVI was not able to hide his feelings.she told him be in contact with her but she dont have any phone number or any address.in that sorrow he forget to give his phone number to her.Now he could not able to find where she was but still have a hope that he would meet her in future.He wanted to settle in good position and find her propose to her.

(Screen) Name: Ravi

I fell in love with the guy my best friend fell for… It wasn’t my fault. I bet, if you knew who i was, you’d look at me like, *YOU HYPOCRITE, WE SHOULD THROW STONES AT YOU!!*
But it wasn’t my fault, you should know that.
The people I knew, made me fall in love with him, with their dreamy talks and love-struck faces.. Jeez. Who knew? I never thought, shy, athletic built guys were my type… Especially those that dont go near girls with a 12 foot pole. Yet dont worry, I’m not that bad… I didn’t tell anyone.. That left me to deal with the pain of heartbreak and jealousy and hurt alone.. And you know what’s worse.. The beautiful moments we’d share.. the times, he’d look, stare, and even smile and talk to me, I could never tell anybody. Thats really hard for a girl, trust me.
I was left with deep deep emotions, which i bottled up inside myself… I was ready to explode!
Well, long story short, I fell in love.. And school ended.. I never saw or will see him again. And have I moved on? No. Why? Because I still keep seeing him in my dreams, think of him, every moment of my days, wonder what he may be doing at that time, and if he’d ever miss me like i missed him.. I’d look at pictures of how he hangs out with his friends, and cry, knowing I’d never see that smile again, those dark, deep, mysterious eyes, that I loved so much.
I’m alone now, I should probably move on. It’s been 5 years of torture.. But how, when all i saw in other guys were, how much his hair looked like his, or how much his smile reminded me of him.. Or how his walk looked a bit like his. Heck, I’d even see hallucinations.. Imagine him walking around, when actually its some stranger I don’t know.
You know, what the funny thing is? I’ve never even talked to him, ever! Just a couple of moments on projects for school.. but yet, i feel as if i know him, as if we’d met long ago.. But destiny didn’t intend for me though, huh?
Life’s cruel like that.. but I don’t think of it that way, I think people come into your life, just so long as to teach you a lesson, once you’ve learned it, they leave… And he did teach me a lesson… How there is always something beautiful in every horrible day, how though things seem to be going really bad… at least we’re ok.
I still cry now and then.. thinking of him… try to avoid it, yes, but it still comes now and then… He was a star in my dark sky. Im so happy I fell for such an amazing person.
So I better end this, find some love quotes to put on FB that describes how I feel… Maybe change my picture too.. Or read a novel, though that’d make me feel worse..
I still do miss you

(Screen) Name: romaine lettuce