I want you to be mine, the same thing that i wanted to be yours. I wanna keep you in the pocket of my heart and won’t let you go anymore ‘coz your the most precious gold I kept in my life ever since our souls had been separated. It took me sixteen years to find you. and I don’t know how long it will take for you to realize that .. I am the missing part of your soul.

*Love is just a word then out of the blue .. someone from the unknown part of the world would just come to you and show you the meaning behind this word.

I am a good friend, I go out with my friends, I stay to their houses and even giggle with their families. There were days that I don’t even tend to go home and just sleep to their homes.

I was with my best friend, (let’s just call her “Cindy” ) We are studying in the same school and we were in our fourth year of High school at that time. We were at their house and I was having fun talking to her older sister. We were laughing and giggling all the time. This girl named “Ina” (who was studying in a certain College foundation School which is a li’l bit far from our residences) has to go to the C.R , I think … If my memory was that good. well .. anyway, I asked her to leave her cellphone so I could send some QUOTATION s ‘coz I was really a certified addict with these.

I don’t know what took her so long. I was bored, the T.V was not functioning and Cindy was asked by her mother to go to a small market All I have to keep myself busy .. were phones, And the hell ! NO ONE doesn’t even bother to text me! but hey!

I got Ina’s phone,why not look for a textmate? wehehe.

so I browse the phone book .. browse .. browse and browse. until I came up with this name ****. (let’s keep him with the name “JAKE”) 0915 … oh my! My heart is trebling and I think it was palpitating weirdly. What could this be?! How could this single name do this to me? I don’t even know this person for God sake! Oh anyway .. why not just text!

I was about to copy the number to my phone.. when someone grabbed it from me! Oh it was Ina! She asked me what I am doing and I said “getting some textmates” and you just don’t how she looked furious when she saw whose number I am copying and shouted “Oh not this man!”

I can’t dare her to give it to me no matter how I’ve pleased her. the heck!

*****FEW WEEKS LATER*****

I was again in my best friend’s house. It was just recently her sister’s graduation day so I asked her what had happened. She told me about this guy who was a good looking man, she told me he looks cute and etc.

I asked her the name … and to my shock, It was JAKE! Oh I got it! Jake was Ina’s classmate! Is he her boyfriend? What makes her so concern about him!? Oh there is something fishy going on! I more got curious, I felt excited and I’ve decided .. This is it! Ahaha. Why don’t I try to get that man’s number so I could have o peace of mind, There’s no harm in trying right?

I didn’t take so long. I got Jake’s number secretly that same day. I texted her but I was caught by Ina.. I ran for it! We kept on running around the house.. she’s trying to get the phone from me; and a few mins. later .. Jake replied asking “Who is me?” I was about to say “Your soulmate ehehe” but I hesitated. He might be annoyed. So I just said I was Ina’s friend.. MESSAGE SENT! Ina got the phone! She ran away, She deleted the number and gave back the phone. but I memorized the number! ehehe. And so I continued texting him .. but he’s not responding spontaneously maybe because he’s really busy like what Ina said. I don’t know what was that but there’s an eagerness in my heart to continue texting him and sending him some quotes day by day.. Sometimes he would reply and sometimes he wouldn’t.

but you know what was the most unbelievable, uncontrollable, undeniable feeling i had and continuously having while texting him? I actually don’t know but it’s as if .. I found the love of my life, though I haven’t seen him yet .. It’s as if I already found the one I’ve been waiting for.. the one whom I could share my whole world .. The one, the only one I want to spend the rest of my life with. WEIRD!

I knew I love him that time. I love him without even knowing who is he .. without even knowing where he came from. I don’t know .. but I know my heart recognized him. His sweetness. His every little bit. I know him. We met before .. more than just a dream .. lesser than the fantasy. We met before.. He was actually the half part of my soul. The half part of heart. I knew it …

Yes it’s true .. I liked him. even before I saw his face. I liked him by simply looking at his name. He’s nice, well-ethic person, aside from the fact that he is actually good looking, he is smart, funny and MATURE – I often dream of having someone who is mature enough to handle my immaturity. and out of this … I simply find no reason not LOVE him UNCONDITIONALLY.

I text him .. day by day .. night after night. Sometimes, when I was lucky enough .. he would reply “How do you do?” It’s as if I won the biggest prize in the sweepstakes, but when he wouldn’t .. maybe he’s tired or maybe he’s in the work. I try to look for a lot of excuses. I don’t just mind if it hurts a lot waiting for something you know will never happen .. It’s as if YOU ARE WAITING FOR A RAIN ON SUNNY DAYS. but I never gave in.

I do and I will always text him until he couldn’t get me out of his phone. I know I’m stupid for doing such things, though I am sometimes hurt .. though I am always neglected .. though I don’t value anything for him .. It’s okay.. I love him .. Who cares if he won’t love me back? It’s not them whom I live for anyway .. and the thing is .. I can’t live without him. That is the only thing I am actually sure of more than anything.

***MONTHS AFTER***

I was busy doing some chores when my phone rang. It’s a text. tututututttttttttutttttt. It’s Sunday so I know or more correctly. I am having an illusion that Jake would text me. but it wasn’t him … It’s Cindy saying “My ate asks me to text you .. she said stop texting Jake.” It was heartbreaking, you just don’t know how I tried to forget him .. but each time I think about him .. each time I remember how he was concern about me, how he care about me (if my sense is good and true) I fall for him even more. tuttttttttuuuuuuuut again! It’s him!!!! asking “How do you do?” I answered .. “I’m okay. You already texted me eh! how about you?” CHECK OPERATOR! Ohh maiiiiiii!

I can’t wait anymore dhude! I have to tell him how I feel, I have to gamble, I have to know his feelings about me. i don’t know but maybe .. just maybe if it was my time then .. He would say “Yes”. and if would answer me “no”? Kiber! (mapapasagot ko din ‘to! ahaha)

Apparently, I was able to tell him how I feel, I started the conversation by asking “ Do you court anybody now?” he answered .. “No, you want me to court you? ahahah” I don’t know if that’s a joke ohh stupid! I know that’s a joke. The exchange of texts went on for about 40 mins. to 1 hour. He said I was too young. that we have an eleven (I was 16 and he was 27) years gap, that I should prioritize my studies first .. Is he saying I was immature for him?

I couldn’t take it .. my heart cracked into millions of pieces. I can’t bare it anymore.. but hey! He didn’t say HE doesn’t love me right? the same way that he didn’t say HE love me. so then again .. there are still chances!

********AND SO THE FOOLISH LITTLE GIRL CONTINUED AND IS CONTINUOUSLY BEING STUPID********

I don’t know what’s happening with me .. I’m becoming more foolish .. I’m becoming someone I don’t know .. I hate him for doing this to me, for pushing me out of his life.. for the rejection, for not appreciating me .. but I hate myself more … for LOVING SOMEONE

I knew I could never have. I knew I couldn’t even hold .

I expected him to great me on Christmas day .. to text me on new year’s eve .. to date me on Valentines. but he didn’t .. and I know he doesn’t have the plan to. Ohh .. It’s my graduation! I know he will come if I ask him too .. so I texted him. He answered “I’ll try but I’m not sure.” Those were the answers that’s enough for me to own the world. enough for me to be the happiest GIRL in the world. But he didn’t come. I waited for him even for the last hour. Ohh there would still be another celebration, right? Ohh This is it! I texted him again and I got the same answer.

I waited for him .. 1 hour .. 2 hours .. I texted him .. called him .. no answer. 3 hours .. 4 hours .. 5 hours enough for me to give up. He’s not gonna come! how could I waited for him for this long when I knew from the start and he clarified it from the beginning that .. HE’S NOT INTERESTED TO PLAY WITH A LITTLE GIRL.

I’ve decided not to text him at all. Maybe I’m just reading a lot of romance novels. maybe I’m just imagining things. then he text .. “I’m sorry .. I just woke up ..” and the stupid girl replied ..”It’s okay.. I understand.” Damn! How could I do this to myself? How could I betray my own? How could a single text do this to me? “Can you promise me we’ll see each other soon?” I asked. “Yes.. I promise” he answered.

———THERE ARE STILL CHANCES———

or Am I just so dumb to think that there are? God!

then he continued .. “Can you forget your feelings for me? You are still so young”. My gosh! When will the moment of bliss come to me?! How many times do I have to tell to him that I’m no longer a baby?! I know how to take care of myself and if he would just give me a chance .. I will show him that I could already take care of him .. of his heart.

***Is this the real time to give up? How would you do so .. if your heart can’t let go and your soul was stuck to his? Tell me .. would you torture yourself following your brain .. or would you hurt your brain following your soul and your heart? Which is which?

*Why do life have to be like this?

*Why didn’t he give me a chance to prove him I’m no longer a girl?

*Why can’t he love me the same way I do for him?

–or does he and he’s just trying to hide it?

*Are we the first people in the world to have that age gap?

*I don’t look that good but is my love not that enough for him to love me back?

*How I wish I have that magic spell .. that love potion ..

When will the fictional meet the reality and turn out to be so gooooooood. ???

I know in my heart that he was my SOULMATE. Maybe my heart has it’s own memory that my brain was not able to remember. I was totally devastated. It was unbelievable i know but I do have this FAITH that keeps me going on .. that keeps me holding on for my love for him no matter how he tries to push me out of his world. His world where everything seems to be so complicated, where there is actually no way to enter, A world where there are only filed papers, chalks, injections .. yet .. I find it so nice to enter in his world even if I wouldn’t have the chance to escape after that. I”m more than willing to stay in the darkness and in the coldness of his world because with him .. I won’t wish for any other thing. He is my necessity, he is whats keeping me alive everyday of my life. A hug, a kiss and a smile from him is enough for me to live, enough for me to endure the pain, and to face the unendless tomorrow of my fear .. for when I am with him, I fear nothing.

He is not the God of my Spirit, but he is the God of my soul and my heart. A certain God that could rule my world. A world of mine that I am more than willing to give up .. to stop .. just for HIM.

How can I bare to live without this man? I knew I lived before without him .. but can you think how uncolorful my world was then? And when he came .. He brought me Rainbows. HE gave me the joy that human beings won’t feel, only me has given this free will. he make me feel the pleasure of loving him .. They cannot take this away from me. This is my right .. A right to be happy in his arms against the coldness. So what,if I die? Heaven won’t give me this happiness because heaven without him .. is nothing.

The beauty of the world won’t be complete without the paintings of his face. The poems of the poet won’t be complete without his words.

The green fields won’t sustain life without his power. He is my everything, He is my every little things, he is all the things for me.

I am nobody but when I started being inspired by him .. I became somebody .. Somebody who don’t fear anything anymore rather than God, Somebody whose not afraid to try, Somebody who never stop to love. Somebody who never give up.

I may just be so young for him, Why would I care? If love don’t grow old. would it be forbidden to be felt by the young? no. It won’t be love if it has conditions, right? I know I’m mature enough to face the reality of love.. of life. I’m ready for the pain just to be with him. I’m willing not to be recognized sometimes, It’s my pleasure to be his slave. it’s nothing. I won’t plant hatred in my heart, All I want is to sow his love after all the hurts and sacrifices.

I want you to be mine, the same thing that i wanted to be yours. I wanna keep you in the pocket of my heart and won’t let you go anymore ‘coz your the most precious gold I kept in my life ever since our souls had been separated. It took me sixteen years to find you. and I don’t know how long it will take for you to realize that .. I am the missing part of your soul.

THE GOOD PART:

WE”VE SEEN EACH OTHER.

HE’S NTO SO GOOD LOOKING.

BUT i KNOW, IN MY HEART AND IN MY SOUL, HE IS THE ONLY ONE. FOREVER.

(Screen) Name: NINIOTIC

This story happened 3 years ago. I am the type of guy who chases summer; I enjoy surfing and partying with my college buddies, Chuck, Eve, Christine and Henry. Eve was my first love we share the same interest and we seldom quarrel, that made us last for 2 years. We never really broke up, I never heard from her again the time she went to London with her parents. I waited for her for three months, hoping that she’ll come back or at least call me but a news came that she married a guy that her parents wanted for her. I couldn’t believe what I heard, I don’t know how to continue my life without her — I even thought of committing suicide but Christine came to the rescue. She was there for me when I felt helpless and miserable, she helped me get back up on my feet again and most of all she taught me how to love again. At first, I wasn’t really in love with her, I just felt sorry for her because she hadn’t given up on me for 5 long months but the time she told me how long she waited for me, I was greatly moved — I hugged her for a long2x time and promised to repay her with my newly fixed heart. I learned to love her and cherish each moment that we’re together. We’ve been dating for a year and I thought that I should take our relationship to the next level so i proposed to her, she was so dramatic and made her look even more beautiful. 2 months after the engagement I received a call from Henry and Chuck — my college buddies. They suggested that it would be nice if we have a reunion before the wedding, Christine agreed to the idea. The reunion was in Hawaii — a total beach paradise it reminded me of my surfing and partying days. The second day, my life was turned upside down — Eve arrived. I didn’t know what to think, I was speechless. Chuck and Henry looked at each other and I can even read their mind they’re saying — Uh oh, this is bad!. Eve smiled at me and greeted me, before I can even say anything (or not) Christine held on me and told her about our engagement , Christine was trying to act cool and friendly but I can feel her fear. The next day, I finally came back to my senses. Eve and I got a chance to talk. She asked me how my life was and my relationship with Christine, I answered her boastfully bragging about Christine and she said that she was happy for me — her response hurt me in a way I can’t understand, maybe I want to hear her beg me to take her again. It was my time to ask, I asked her how her married life was, then she looked at me with confusion seen on her face. “Married?! I was never married!” — Her reply shocked me. I told her everything I knew how she married the guy and how her parents approved of it, she laughed upon hearing about it. She told me that her parents did arrange someone for her but she objected and ran away because she loves me — she started to cry when she uttered the words “I love you” to me, then I held her tight and tears fell down my cheeks, I felt the scent and the warmth again that I longed for so long. “Are we really going our separate ways?” she asked in a low voice, that question pierced through me and I remained silent. We head back to the resort, Christine hugged me and Eve walked away. Even though I’m wrapped in Christine’s arms my eyes were following Eve. Christine is not dumb she knows what’s going on but she acts like nothing is going on — I know she’s hurt and I couldn’t bear see her like that, I asked her if something’s bothering her and she replied that she’s fine and forced a smile, I smile back and faced the other side of the bed — then she held me tightly and started to cry, she told me that’s she’s scared of loosing me. I faced her and held her until she fell asleep, she looked pale and sad, I asked myself if I really love her or am I still in love with Eve. All of us partied the next night, I asked Christine to dance with me but she had to pick up a phone call, Eve showed up and we danced. Eve looked so beautiful and memories of us flooded my mind — we kissed. The time I opened my eyes I saw Christine, she was staring at us with tears in her eyes, I attempted to go over to her but she ran away. Eve, apologized and walked away leaving me alone and confuse, I slept on chucks room that night I don’t have the guts to show my face to Christine. Chuck woke me up at 6:30 in the morning, he told me that I had to make a choice — if I choose Christine, Eve will be gone for good and if i choose Eve, Christine’s gone. It horrified me, honestly, my first choice was Eve as i was running to see her on the beach, I thought of Christine and i felt a big lost in my heart, I stopped halfway on where I’m suppose to go. I turned back and ran as fast I could — I realized that I love Christine more. I went back to chuck, he gave me Christine’s engagement ring she asked him to give it back to me , Christine left. I arrived at the airport just in time her flight number was called. “How long are you going to keep running away from me?” I asked her. She turned back and I hugged her tightly. She asked so many questions about Eve but I silenced her the time I knelt and proposed to her again. Now we are happily married and we have a son named Cody.

Name (use screen name if you don’t want your real name published): Story Teller777