when I was 4 yrs old my uncle had rapped me. back then I was only a child so I didnt understand and never told anyone about it and as i grew older i was scared to tell anyone. over the yrs it effected me alot, i would go through periods of time where i was compeltly depressed bt infront of ma family and friends i would act as if nothing was wrong, everything was fine. still act that way and i still havnt told them about it. when i was 15 yrs old, during my summer vications from school i had the wrost attack of my past, i would spend ma whole day and night sitting alone in ma room thinking bout every second of what had happened. As an afghan girl it is seen very bad if u lose ur virginety befor ur married and it brings really shame to the familys name and honer. nowing how much my dad loved his brother and how it would hurt him i thought it best if i found a way to get rid of ma self. one day whielst sitting in ma room ma friend called me saying to make a facebook account so that i could see the piituers of her from her holiday in thiland, so i agreed to it and i made a facebook account, 2 days later i got a request from syed asking me to add him as a friend. the name sounded familer, i was thinking i now dis name very well so i added him and started to chat to him. there i found out that he was one of my friends from ma childhood from back in afghanistan. he was living in pakistan now and studying his 1st yr of uni. we started chatting on msn. becouse we had been such gud firends when we were kids i trusted him alot. he would chatt to me all day long, keeping my mind of my past, slowly i started to feel strong emotions for him. one night when we were chatting he told me dat he had fallen inlove with a girl but was scared to tell her incase she didnt love him bakc and left him. his words cut right through ma heart. i felt angry at my self for thinking bout him in that way, it was obvious someone so sweet, so lovly and kind hearted could never be free. i asked him who the girl was but he wouldnt give me her name so then i asked him what is she like? he said she is so sweet, so inocent. her smile, her laughter is the prettiest sight, and her eyes are the most beutifulliest thing i have ever seen in this world, the say so much. thinking that it was someone else i said to him hun you should tell her how you feel befor it to late, whilest inside ma world was crumbling down. with every passing day that i chatted to him the stornger ma feeling for him got, i was scared that i would be even more cut up by this than i was by ma past. i thought bout not chatting to him but it drove me crazy so i left that idea. one day while i had ma cam on he asked me, do you love anyone and not wanting to spill ma secrite i lied and said no i dont love anyone, i dont belive in love and i hate the idea of it. but some time later, on 28th of agust at exactly 9:15 he said to me, u want to now who i love, well i the girl that i love is you. i was shocked, i didnt now wat to say or do. ma cheeks were balzing red. i could feel every worm emotion all at once. i just told him that i have to go and sighned out on him because i was affried that he was lieing to me. i didnt speak to himf or 2 days, but then i thought he couldnt possibly be lieing to me so i chatted to him and told him how much i luved him. about i month later i told him about ma past, i was scared that after hearing about it he would leave not wanting to have anything to do with a crazy broken up girl but instead he came close to me, he called me every day spoke to me, told me how much he loved me. he was like a bandage for all my wounds, slowly healing every one of them. ma friends say that i cant trust him, it on the net, you never know, but i now i can trust him becouse in ma heart i now how much he loves me. his sister is my mums siter-in-law ( brothers wife) and his dad is her step cousin. his mum and siblings are very close to my family but his dad and his siblings dont get alone with our family, there are big arguments between them, for that resone ma family and his familt dont get on that easily. our families dont now about us and we cant tell them untill i am ready to marry him. the fact that we come from tradional muslim families its making everything alot harder. i kept telling him this that they will never let us be together, that we are just a dream and can never work but he has hope for the futer. if the is one thing i now in this world then that is that i love ma sweetheart more than ma own life and i never want to lose him no matter what.
please pray that i get ma love.

(Screen) Name: lovebunny

First of all, I know this story is gonna be very long..but at least please try to read my story so you can get some ideas about soul mates and secret love. Enjoy reading!

I remember this guy back when we’re still in fourth grade let’s call him in the name of Mr.Genius (coz his very good in Math). So my story goes like this.

First day of school, I meet my old friends and some new classmates. Our class adviser decided to arrange our seats. He seats in front of me. We still don’t know each other that time.

The second day, the teacher told us to get 10 sheets of pad paper for our penmanship folder, then the guy seating in front of me offered to give me ten sheets of pad paper, he was kinda friendly to me, but I said no thanks coz I have my own. The next few days, he was friendly to me and we talked to each other, get to know more about each other, and I noticed that when I arrive at school he was there talking with his guy friends and when he saw me arrive, he suddenly will go to his seat. These time I was thinking that this Mr. Genius guy likes me because I saw some obvious signs where in a guy is doing when he likes a girl. But, that time I wasn’t that into things like crushes or simply boyfriends thingy. That time I already knew that Mr.Genius likes me, so I was thinking of a way so he would not like me anymore, then I start to be rude to him, and I start to avoid him. One time when we were having our Chinese calligraphy class, he’s jacket was placed at the back of his chair. Then suddenly I accidentally brushed my Chinese brush onto his jacket, leaving a big black mark on his jacket. I’m so shocked and don’t know what to do, because I know if he found out he’ll be mad at me. So I decided to just sit quietly and continue writing. Later he found out, then he asked me if I was the one who did that, I said it wasn’t me, because I was afraid to tell him. Then he got mad at me and told his friends about it. The first quarter has ended and the teacher again decided to change our seat plan, this time it was me who was seating in front of him. It was like every time if the teacher is going to change our seat plan, he is always near me. That time when I accidentally put Chinese ink into his jacket, from then on don’t talk to each other anymore, few weeks past, we began to develop shyness between the two of us. Every time I’m gonna pass near him, I noticed that he is trying to avoid me.

When we were in fifth grade, I don’t know what was happening to me, but soon I just realized that I have feelings for him (It’s just really weird), so that time I don’t know what I was doing, I black texted him, and in one of our text he asked me if I was interested in him and I said I was..(I don’t know what I’m doing that time, right know I’m thinking back that time were I confessed to him that I like him, It makes me feel that I’m totally a foolish girl.) But soon he knew that it was me and I was so ashamed, don’t know what to do because he is telling his friends that I confessed to him that I like him.

By the way, his friend’s brother and my brother know each other and they were both friends, so it means Mr.Genius Guy knows my brother and my brother knew everything that I was doing, and I felt very ashamed. I just wish I didn’t do that anymore.

When we were in sixth grade, Mr.Genius guy has a crush on a girl. Just so you know, Mr.Genius guy is a playboy.

This Mr.Genius guy has a friend, and his friend has a crush on my friend. His friend knew that I like Mr.Genius. So his friend told me that if I would agree to spy on my friend and he to will spy on Mr.Genius and tell me more about him. Then I agreed. He asked Mr.Genius if he is still interested in me, and Mr.Genius guy said that he has liked me back when we were still in fourth grade until now (sixth grade) (that time he likes a girl, me and genius guy are not classmates anymore in sixth grade.)

When there is a batch program or when I’m walking at the hallways or at the corridors, sometimes we cross pass each other and I saw that he stares at me and suddenly look back, he is totally shy too. We haven’t talk for almost 2 and a half yrs. already because we were not classmates. And it’s almost our graduation so I decided to ask him if I could have his graduation pic, he was really shy, and I notice him blushing, and he said yes.
I’m just wondering why is that, if he likes someone at the school, he asks the girl if she can be his girlfriend, but he has a crush on me too, but why is that he is too shy and doesn’t do the same thing to me like what he does to the other girls he like.

Now, that I’m a freshmen, sometimes we cross pass each other and sometimes he look at my eyes so deeply, like he wants to say something, we try to act normal to each other. Sometimes I realize that my fate is testing me, because often we saw each other in the same places. And until now I still has a crush on him, even though he has hurt me a lot of times, I keep on telling myself that I’m not gonna like this person anymore and I’m gonna forget him already, but this feeling I have for him still does not fade away and keeps coming back. I still have this one question on my mind..Does he still like me?

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(Screen) Name: Hollywo0dPrinc3ss