Hi, this is me Nirajan. I want to tell u a story from my side. And the story is between me and my one and only girl Gurung… Sorry i could write her name coz i think it shouldn’t like to. And i make a start of my life from beginnig. and it is……..
When i waz below 14, my life was so good and happy……… That time i had a lot of friend- boys and girls. I equally love them. I never discriminated my friends.I had some idea about two people falling in love with each other and their tragedy too. But i didn’t have any special one. At those time i was studying at the school nearby my village. But my father changed my school at 14 where i found many friends. But then i and my friends used to criticized girls a lot. The girls didn’t like my friends but i don’t know why they used to treat me like a good friends. I really love them all. They are my good friends.
When we were on nine class, i told my friends that, i would proposed any girl who join us for first i.e new comer…. That time no girl came.. But after 2/3 months, a girl came to our class. Now i got my work to do. My friends always made a very suitable conditions to propose her. But i never proposed her then becoz one of my senior playboy friend used to tell us that he had his girl friend who lives nearby his home and that waz her, new comer. I couldn’t make it then. But being on same school, she, my ex, knew his idea and behaviour. Then they split up.
But i never cared them at all coz i hate that boys always becoz i really don’t like him. And after one year, i proposed her coz some of my nearer friends told me that she liked me very much. And then i din’t know what happened but i really started to fall in love with her. She used to stay on hostel. So i too joined hostel but on hostel one sir who used to care her very much beats me for that reason. So i left hostel promising her that i would talk her after S.L.C. Then i never went school.
I used to see her most of the days but i never talked her then coz i had made promises already. So i waited the last day of my exam. But unfortunately i forgot to wait her that day. I went to visit with my friends and soon i remembered everything i went back there but there wasn’t she. I really felt sad. This way i got a deep pain in my heart. This is the way how we ended then.
I couldn’t talk with her after that day even if i met her. I felt so bad. But i always loved to see her. One day, i called her from my own cell phone but i couldn’t make a talk. Then i requested my college mate to make a call and asked him to tell me who is the girl that waz answring. He told me that it waz girl not a woman. So i soon called her. Then we started again. We went on date just for once. I don’t know why just for once. I daily used to bonk the classes to see her. I always used to see her. One day she didn’t came and i was so sad. I waited her till evening. But she din’t came. I then started to come back to home. There she was on the same bus. I was happy. And on the way home i made a call to her and her mom answered it and scold me. But i dind’t hear it as i threw my mobile very far. It happened for twice. Then again we kept out of touch.
The days went on so. After few months my friends used to make me a matter of joke telling me “Don’t have to give treat of the marriage?” I didn’t understand what they ‘re sayibg. But someday later i heard that she waz married. This time i really got mad. But i think to make a love success doesn’t mean that we should marry them whom we love. And that’s how i became alone once again.
Then i wanted to make a fresh started now. Then i wanted to forget her try next but my heart could help me out. So i tried a lot. In college i like one girl very much. I never told her my feelings. And one day i told her and she said nothing but trying to escape by saying she had a boy friend but i know she just wanted to take a time to know me and to answer. Few days after it, i wanted reply but she didn’t talked me and i couldn’t call her. So i was so sad and went back to home. But on my way to home, i saw my ral heart just walking in front of me. I really felt like my heart was going to break for sure. That day my heart cried and cried.

I had got her phone number several months ago from her friends and i tried to call her as i couldn’t forget her. But i never made a call because i din’t know any words to say to her. But i just wished her for her better life. I never wanted to hurt her back as i thought it wasn’t her idea to marry. And the life just going on and on. It waz first week of last chaitra, my brother had just returned home from abroad. That day my bro started to miss called her. And she called him back. I used to answer every girls calls in his mobile so i went to him and snatched his mobile and without seeing i told ‘kati phone gareko?” Then the call ended. I looked the number then and noticed that it was her number. Then soon i asked him to call her and asked her to recall at that very number. And he did so. Then we went to have dinner and after that we again started waiting her call. It waz 9:43 when she called and at first i asked her who r u but she didn’t answer it but asked me if i was Nirajan. At last i said yes, i waz Nirajan. Then we started talking. I asked her why she got married. she told me that it’s all her mother. And i asked her “do u love me still?” She said yes. I remember she telling “I love you” for more than 10 times. That time we were happy but also crying. The day after tomorrow was the exam of Nepali but we didn’t care it and we talked on phone till 2 am. That time she promised me that she will come to me after few years. We made many conversatinons that should be or should be talk. Telling true we made phone sex that time. I started to think then that she was changing little bit than the past. And i found her thirst of sex. But being the one loving her for true i never involved in her. Then for few weeks we kept in touch. And again we went on date on chaitra 15. I was so surprised to see her in new get up. She was looking so nice then, so cute and happy. Those time i felt like she was cheating me. There are numerous events to prove it. She din’t even show me her mobile. I can guess there was the things that could hurt me. From that they i started thinking and thinking and became sure that she loves me no more but she loves that stupid playboy. I wanted to hear from her this so i tried and tried. I never succeded. So i write a msg for break up and told that i waz such a fool to love a girl like her who hurts me not for once but for more times. One thing i really believe her waz her innocent behaviour and being the who loves her, i trully and blindly believed her. That time she replied me that not keeping in touch doesn’t mean that the love changes and i was her first and last feelings that ever had had to her. She told me that” me or u neither getting u ir me”. I really felt sad reading those. I thought i made a great mistake then. I thought i really hurt her. So i asked for apologize for several times but she never answerd me. I know her heart is not like human heart, her heart is made of a rock so hard and cruel. Time goes on and on. Today morning at 1 am i got her reply in facebook that she don’t like me and she love that stupid bastard and told me that they loved each other since their childhood. But it doesn’t matter me. My only question for her is the y she said she love me and how can i be her first and last feeling that ever lasted within her as she wrote me in the very msg? I thought she is a liar and liar………….
I promised to god not to stop wanting her, liking her, loving her………………. She is the one whom my heart beats for. I may like a girl but i can’t share her place to my heart coz my ex can’t be replaced from my heart. My love to her is not such a cheaper one………… I really love her…………………

I wish her for her happy life and be happy……………forever…….. Do ur best…………..Best of luck………………

(Screen) Name: Nirajan

everyone believe’s in LOve,True Love,Love at 1st sight.girls start to get happy when they meet the one for them.. they get started to be excited as if there was no tomorrow, a Feeling that felt like seeing a blossom flower when your love one is in your front… lolz I always started to smile when I remember that kind of scene..it always see on a anime…but the way enough of that..
all of this I experience it… but the question is Why? Why is it in 19yrs of my existence I don’t have A BF, or let me say I do not experience to have a boyfriend even thus I want to…My friends relative don’t believe on me every-time they ask me too. but I think I know the answer deep in my heart…to be frank “I’m Scared”Scared to get hurt,leave me of my love.. I’m was idiot, always lie to myself saying it gonna be all right. I had a friend or I call it my Childhood friend we were schoolm8 since 4th grade up until we reach 4th yr high school we always bonding,he always come to my house eat lunch,dinner together with my family… and he doesn’t even get shy…he was funny,good on photography,kind person,a joker? but honestly all of her joke was not that funny.. but I like it when he do that.. I dont know maybe because I secretly deeply fallen in love with my childhood friend.but he didn’t notice it..we can call it one sided love..sometimes I’m starting to get hurt because he was so “manhid” don’t even realise what I felt for him..yrs was past we graduate in high school.. study in different school at place and time.. we didn’t see each other often and for me it’s so sad…

to be continued……^.~

(Screen) Name: ceres

hi everybody,,magic is real,just believed that some weeks ago i guess,and the funny thing is i learnt it the hard way..i had been married for four years with two kids and thought everything in my marriage was perfect and extraordinary,my husband was the most loving and my whole family was happy until everything changed..don’t know how or what happened but i guess i didn’t believe it was my fault.he started hitting me and my kids,cheating and we started having dept cos he was gambling quite much and he had lost his job..A friend introduced me to some counselors and therapist but it didn’t get well,it was getting worse so i decided to go the spiritual angle..After several attempts with different spell casters and magicians nothing happened.i met some people online who claimed to know someone who claimed to be able to help but it was all false,i lost a lot of money,was scammed several times and cheated on…i guess i was too desperate for a quick solution,but it all changed when i was introduced to a spell caster online,i thought he was going to be fake,maybe try to scam me again so i was prepared this time,i thought at least i could get him caught or something..but he wasn’t what it thought he was,he did some spell which i used playing along,but he was right,he was true..everything stated to turn around,my husband came home,he was changing and everything was going back to normal..and now after three weeks,everything is perfect and much more..my family is back,he has a new job,i do too..and we are happy as ever..i guess magic truly exist but in the right people with the right heart..magic is real and out there so is the person who saved my marriage,my family and i…

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(Screen) Name: sussy

Before i start making this blog i just want anybody to be aware about the word “third sex” and yes I am one of them.
My friend called me mike carlo as the initial of my fem name michelle caroline im 25 years old and I’m from the Philippines, my love story goes so confusing and started like this.
Sometime in June 2000 in one of the hospital in quezon city,i meet someone named lean at first shes just an ordinary girl for me whom I seen every day in front of my bed, yes in front of bed because we are living in the same staff house. One day when I was playing with the kids outside the staff house someone cautioned me and called my name when I look around i saw her smiling at me and said “I was just kidding” then I smiled back and said “it’s ok, how did you know my name when I didn’t know what’s yours?” then she smiled again and her friend look like they are teasing me. These were the story started.
Then the next day early in the morning she smiled at me when she passes through my area and said “good morning michelle” I just nod and smiled…as the day passes we became friends and even close friends we talk a lot, having fun together and we are both so happy just by being together..then I found myself having a strange feeling toward her a kind of feeling that I never thought I can have for her, but I tried to stop it just to keep the friendship going and I’m also afraid that if she will notice she will avoided me and forsake our friendship which I don’t want to happen.
One day she and her friends need to leave the staff house and move in at makati, I felt so sad that day but when I received a text from her that she will going to visit me I was so happy then I’ve waited for her the whole day but she didn’t come I was so disappointed and sad and never expect anything from her again, weeks has passed but still I can’t forget her and the feeling of emptiness get worst just then I realized that I really love her, one day when I was so busy doing on something someone pushed me I get mad and about to fight back but when I was about to look back and try to pushed back the person who pushes me I stopped! And I saw lean so beautiful and smiling at me then she started to hug me but I’m still standing and got nothing to say I just keep on staring at her..

(Screen) Name: mike carlo

Hi I saw her in my 9th at my school she was not my section i felt love with her.But I didn’t tell her about my love how she know about me I don’t know but didn’t love me at all days passed next year she changed school luckily near to my school only I used to go there daily one day I known that she is loving one fellow you know who is he my friend . I got shocked but then also I didn’t left her I belived in one thing “Give and it will be given to u”.Tenth exams completed I was joined in one college i don’t know she also joined in the same college one I got one book it belongs to her I wrote a letter in that book and gave to her friend to give it to her.I thought that she’ll give complaint on me but she took my phone number and call me. i felt very happy i felt that I was in the heaven from that day on words we both became good friends but I said that I cant feel u as a friend you are my lover and I said how much truly i’m loving her she understood my pain and she told that she will think and tell I said OK next day she called me and said I love you…no words to me to express my feelings now we are a great lovers…..
HI I said a little about my love story I don’t know you all will like it if you liked it and you want to listen whole story you can ask me i hope you all like it but it is not whole story it is a small drop in the ocean bye…..

(Screen) Name: BUNNY

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though.

We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together. I would tell him all my secrets. He was quite very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school.

One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He
just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.

All through high school and even through graduation we were always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurting because I didn’t tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt.

All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with
him. After graduation he got a job in New York I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn’t tell him how I felt. But I couldn’t let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn’t tell him what I had inside my heart.

Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer
analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter
with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn’t spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness and tears inside of me.

I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life.

As the years went on we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn’t written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things.

I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn’t breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn’t written for a long time. He cried until he couldn’t cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this I couldn’t tell him how I felt about him.

In the days that followed he had fun and forgot about all his problems and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn’t wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.

One day he didn’t show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it.

Then I got a call one day from a Lawyer in New York. The Lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn’t come that day. Again, I was broken hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?

I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn’t get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding.

When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a dairy that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn’t know what to think. Why was this given to me?

I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.

The diary was started the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said “today I will tell her I love her”. It was the day he was killed.

The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

(Screen) Name: jason