If you take a fish out of water, it won’t survive

If you take away air from a human, he/she won’t survive

If you don’t put gas in cars, they won’t work

If you take away sunlight from the world, then we’d all die

If you take away pages from a book, it won’t be a book

Just like those things, if you take away raj from mona, she won’t be mona….she’d die.

Life isn’t all that simple when you don’t have what you need… to survive.

When your loved one isn’t with you, you’re still alive but your dead at the same time.

Life and Death don’t go together so well huh?

Well everyday i live through that….my soul fights over life and death at the same time.

It doesn’t know where to go…i promised him i won’t do anything bad but why do i still try to think of ways to free myself from this life…from this pain.

Saying things and understanding them has a huge difference.

When you say, i love you- you think of care, and happy times together….

Yet you don’t know that it means much more than that. I love you means to spend your life with that one special person, to go throught the bad times and the good times together, to help each other out no matter what the situation is. But so many people don’t understand it, yet they say it all the time…..what kinda world to we live in???

My heart aches when i think about how far away he is from me.

I just talked to him about an hour ago….he was sleepy so i let him go….hes jus so cute.

I made him smile and told him to go to sleep…he layed in bed and fell asleep after i hung up…his voice seemed like he was tired…his voice calmly healed my heart…and slowly it began to feel like there was never a wound in it….as soon as i hung up it began again….the pain..the wounds in my heart started to come back… You know how u feel when u have butterflies caz you know you’re making a big step or doing something so amazing and your so nervous that u feel like you wana throw up…imagine feeling like that 24/7. Every second i keep opening up my yahoo messenger and check to see if he’s online…when i don’t see him there i feel as if hes just invisible and he’s joking with me so i hope to receive a msg from him…but i get nothing… it hurts when everyday you wake to expect something so precious to happen to you but then you end up crying all alone. Everyday i sit in my bed reading old emails on our account…..i laugh and then i cry. I read his emails that he sent me when i was in india for 6 months…and i ask myself how hard would that have been for him? In india, you have so many people to talk to…your whole family is there…you go to places and your mind if sort of distracted from what you really need….but here….u sit here and write stupid emails when you know that he’s not going to reply back anytime soon. Stupid love….if you have anybody who u love more than anything…go and spend your time with them…you don’t know how precious something is untill u loose it or untill your really far away from it. That person, doesn’t have to be your boyfriend….it cud be anybody and anything. Love is god…and God is love….nothing in this world is stronger than the power of love. Many people don’t even believe in god or love…and that’s totally against what i think but it’s who you are. One day, when those people find something so close to themselves…they’ll pray to god for that thing/person and that’s when they’ll realize that love is god…and god is love…..

I have many more things to learn in life….i have many things to understand….but for now all i kno is that i love you raj and i hope when u read this….you’ll understand what i was trying to say….i miss u pookie ji come home soon…my arms will always be open for u and my heart….is always with u ….gud night my superman muwhaaaaz i love you tons and i miss u like crazy….i’ll always be waiting for u….and it doesn’t matter how far we are…im always gona love u in fact i will have even more love for u…my love for u increases 1000000000000000000000X every and each second that i live….and every second that i breathe…i love u…and always will

(Screen) Name: monaxoxo831

After I had a relationship with my last boyfriend who was my long time crush and my ideal guy; i never have time to commit again. I got many crushes but loving another guy was not yet in my mind. My bestfriend and me applied at SM Supermarket as a bagger. There I met many guys who’s very charming but none get stuck with my heart. Until new baggers was hired then, after 2 weeks when we were hired. He was so silent and I used to make fun out of him.He is Christian. Day had passed, another baggers was hired because many were got ended their contracts. His named is Juvelie. He really likes me and got a stolen kiss to me. At first, I really hate what he was doing. Our costumer service personnel noticed what he had done with me. When we had our three days workshop, we got a chance to meet and get closed with some of our batches and the other next to us. We were then very closed. Juvelie always wants to get closed with me. We always stayed in one of our co-employees bording house. Our workshop started at 8am but its not consecutive three days. When we got to work about few minutes before 1pm. I had planned to make him dissapointed with me. I told my friends about it and agreed with me. We saw Christian was just beside us. I asked him to do but I wasn’t really sure if he can make it because he is a shy person. Then, after the plan we started to do anything just to make Juvelie get away from me. Our first plan was not successfull. The more we pretend that we are lovers, the more he likes me. Then, the next thing we do is we stop and let it be. We were so tired to do everything but it seemed nothing to him. There was one night, my last night before my suspension startes due to my lates. Christian and me was sitting on the jeepney. Juvelie was just in front of us. Almost the employees had seen us very closed and sweet. But it was my intention to hold his arms because Juvelie was there staring us. I didn’t know whats on the mind of Christian why he did it. I only noticed it after. He talks like his lips brushes to mine. Of course, i didn’t mind it because we’re just making him jealous.When my suspension starts, i realized that i missed Christian and I dont even think of that. Maybe of what happened. When i came back for work I found out that it was successful. He didn’t want to talk to me like he hates me after what he had seen.He never wants to talk to me. And just gave me a fake smile when i told him i missed him. When Christian and I met our break time, we laughed and I was shocked because he hugged me tight and he told me he missed me. So I told him i misses him more. I just want to be honest with him and with myself. Then i started a huge feeling that i was thinking if i like him. He had a girlfriend and I knew it. Months passed, we became closed and people noticed our sweetness. Ofcourse we allowed them to see us because we’re not a real lovers. They always asked us if we were. We answered them were not. Were just friends but we knew deep inside of us we like each other. When we had to go out, we holds our hands and he always offers his shirst when it rains. He waited outside so we could walk together. People were so confused about us. Then, i told them that I have a feeling for him but im quite sure I dont love him. But Christian denied always that he didn’t like me. He keeps telling them though i was always there that it would never happened that he would court me, love me or be his mistress. He never want to cheat with his girlfriend but I dont know. I was really hurt when I heard him saying it. I told some of my friends to stop asking him about us. Months passed by,we’re more sweeter and he can’t denied his feeling for me. He had shown to us how he felt for me. He got jealous and me too. He didn’t want me to get jealous. It’s like we were a true lovers. I didn’t get him. Then, he admit to my some friends that he likes me too.
When we ended our contract there, we still communicate through cellphone but he’s not replying always. I know he just want to keep texting with his girlfriend only. I was hurt but its okay. I never let him know about it. I just smile and smile to pretend it. One day, I went to supermarket alone. We talked and asked me going out to watch movie. I was not able to answer him. He said,deal or no deal. I keep shut up and smile. I didn’t imagine it. After his work by almost 8pm, we walked through our friends bording house. I had to get one thing there. We missed watching movie because the cinema is until 9pm only. We walked and he kissed me. When we got to her bording house, there outside we were staring. We bid goodbye but we still want each other. I told him i want to hug him because it would be our last met. We hugged so tight but he faces me and kissed me like he didn’t want me to go. Then, he left me. When I got home already,I can’t forget his kiss. I feel like I wanted him more. Few days later he texted me that they split up. I saw his wounds on his hands because he hits the wall. I was pity on him that I realized how much he loves his girlfriend.I gave him advices and he agreed with me. I never hurt anymore and I asked him to share me about his ex. He told me everything. When he is alone, he always wanted me to be with him because he wanted someone to talk too. I wanted so but I just can’t go. He did everything to make his ex back to him but she has another boyfriend. Then, he accept it. He can’t forced his girlfriend because she dont love him anymore. And i was there for him,still give him advices. But what happened is we kissed and he asked me to be his girlfriend. I never answered him. I just told him that he is still hurt and I dont want to commit because he just want me,not love me. He understand me but we keep doing it. He explained to me and what we are to be when i answered him. I just smiled and looked him in the eyes. I feel like he was so sincered by what he is saying.Days passed and he ended up his contract too. The day of their exit interview came, he asked me if we can meet. I told him I wasn’t sure because my mom wont let me. He told me he wants to give me a teddy bear. He keeps waiting me on that day and tommorow he had to go home in his place. It took 2 hours or more,it is far. I would missed him if im not going to met him. Then,i met him with my friends. She left us alone in the bench to talk. He gave me a teddy bear and a big chocolates. He kissed me always in my hands and my forehead. He stoled me a kiss too though many people saw it. He wants me to smile before he got to go. When he has to go,i was really crying and he told me that he would come back as soon as possible. He didn’t want to leave me but he has too. He would be home late. That night, we texted and he told me that he loves me but he just can’t tell me personally. I want to say it personally so he decided that we keep friends only. He send me a message that it made me cry. Then, i told him i love him too. He said that he didn’t want me to be confused. Then we stopped texting. The next day,I text him to ask if where is my boyfriend? He was shocked and keep asking me if I was really his girlfriend already. He was very happy and I was happy too. Finally, i can call him my own. We are both happry right now and misses each other. He would make a way to come back here as soon as possible so we wil have time for each other. I love him so much.

(Screen) Name: Jesse

Me and Angela never wanted to get married to each other but we have no choice. My Dad would fire me from my job if I don’t marry her and its goodbye to her glamorous life if she won’t. We hated each other, I’m serious and I concentrate about business while she’s childish and stubborn.

A month after, things between us finally cooled down, we started to understand and became comfortable with each other and not long after we fell in love.
When we heard from the doctor that she was pregnant, it changed our life, we became closer and happier, we wanted the baby so badly. I would come home early so we can have dinner together and call every 2 hours just to check up on her.

One day, I was called for a meeting on my day off, I left my cell phone on the car and when I checked it, there were 5 missed calls from Angela, before I can call her back, my mother-in-law called and informed me that Angela was rushed in the hospital, the doctors tried their best to save the baby but it was too late– she miscarried. I was in the bed side caressing Angela , waiting for her to wake up and when she did, she started crying about losing the baby, my heart went out to her I’m sad about losing the baby but I’m grateful that my wife is alive and that’s what matters most.

I thought everything is going to be alright again but day by day she seemed more miserable, she would hold her tummy as if the baby is still there and starts crying, I tried everything to cheer her up by proposing to have another baby but she’s not ready to have one because she’s scared of losing it again. Angela changed so much; she became bitter and unhappy.

I was called for a meeting one time on my day off and she didn’t want me to attend it, I explained to her how important the meeting was but she wasn’t listening, She got angry and blamed me for her miscarriage, I looked at her with disbelief and slammed the door and went to the meeting. I came home late and drunk and when I entered the room she pushed me out and threw a pillow at my face – “I’m sleeping in the couch”.
The next day, I apologized to her but she doesn’t seem to care about my apology, she told me that were going to have separate rooms. I tried my best to fix things between us but it was no use, I finally gave up on her.

Months later, I met Sandy she’s far different from Angela she has a five year old daughter named Megan. They made my life colorful again; I fell in love with them. Sandy promised herself not to trust another man again but I proved her wrong, I didn’t give up on pursuing her, she was everything Angela could never be, I fell deeply in love with her.

Even though she’s not my daughter Megan and I bonded like a real father and daughter, she had never seen her father and Sandy worked very hard to raise her alone — I’m happy I filled the missing pieces. One of the best things that happened to me was when I attended her school’s Parents day and was called “daddy” for the first time, I was overwhelmed with joy. With them by my side, there’s nothing I could ever ask for, I was ready to divorce Angela and accept whatever consequences from my father.

I thought Angela would agree but she cried when I discussed it to her, she told me that she still loves me and she wants to start all over again — “You killed us a long time ago Angela, it’s too late” I said it harshly and left. My father was enraged when he learned about my plan for a divorce, at that moment I wasn’t scared of him. Angela didn’t sign for the divorce but she didn’t bother us, it was clear in her mind that there’s nothing she can do to make me come back.

I continued my life with the people I care about the most. I bought a house for Me, Sandy and Megan and we lived there like a normal family. Sandy was very understanding to everything that was happening in my life and never pressured me. I fought everything that tried to come between me and Sandy, even my own father, I thought I can win over everything that would separate us but there’s one enemy that I could not defeat and it’s Cancer – Sandy is sick with Cancer, she knew about it but never told me and Megan. My world crumbled down when I heard it from the doctor and to make matters worse, they told me that there’s nothing more they can do to save Sandy, all there’s left is to make most of the time she had left. Even though Sandy knew she was dying, she managed to smile and never showed a sign of suffering, she taught me how to accept the changes that I must face soon and learn to love again.

Sandy left with peace and contentment in her heart, I felt lonely but not hopeless, I still have Megan and I promised Sandy that I would take good care of her. Angela was supportive and became my friend; I noticed that there was a big change in her. She was kind and caring to Megan. I remember what Sandy taught me – It was to love again and I did, but it took a while for me to learn to love Angela again. We got back together and she treated Megan like her own daughter. She gave birth to our baby girl and she didn’t mind calling the baby “Cassandra”, Sandy’s name.

(Screen) Name: Story Teller 777