i'm in love and i don't know what he feels about me

[stefanie]

this just happened last year, i fall in love with may crush best friend but he always make fun of me even when we chat he always make me cry and feel bad. but this year i kept on avoiding him but inside me when i hear those hurtful words from his friend he laughs at me not knowing I'm hurting inside. when I'm not looking he's looking at me. i sometimes got confused if are eyes met he's the first one to look away. does he love me too? i keep on hiding that i like him but still he knew that is was him who i like just this day our eyes met and there was something in his eyes that makes me wonder he look so sad and not angry,but when i passed by he always make fun of me. There something to him that i want to know but i can never ask something because I'm too shy to talk to him. i keep on hiding my feelings but in the end he still knows it i don't care if he love someone else all i want to know if he cares about me. i sometimes got jealous of other girls even my friend let's call her Jenny she like Toddie too not his real name they talk so comfortable and sometimes i thinks they are lovers i don't let my feeling out easily because I'm afraid that maybe they will just laugh at me.but i love him so much that i don't want to lost him. i need advice from you, what do i need to do for him to like me too?