In love with 2 men....

[nicnacker]

God...where do I start???
I am hoping that there is a woman out there that has been in the same situation. I just need someone to identify with me...
I'm with the most wonderful man ever. We've been together 9 years. I've known him all my life. We have a best friend. His best friend mostly. We've all known each other all our lives. We do everything together (or used to). I'm good friends with his ex girlfriend...seen them go through thier 6 year relationship....we've all been like family. My child loves him like an uncle...etc.

So, yes the unthinkable happened and we just started having feelings for each other. I shrugged mine off, and I had been feeling like this towards him for awhile, but I truly put all that behind me and just kept it inside. Of course till one night we disscussed it...yadda yadda...long story short, and fast forward to now...it's been a year and a half since we talked about it.
That can of worms should never have opened up. We've never slept together, but we've held each other, kissed, just declared our love for each other. We've talked about how we are not suppose to be feeling like this, we've both agreed to not pursue and to let each other go. He has a new girlfreind now, but he still has told me he loves me...and I know I love him too. But I honestly in my heart know that nothing good can come out of something not so good, and I dont wanna lose what I have, which is an awesome life with an awesome man!!
So how in the hell can I be feeling this way? It consumes my mind. I can't sleep at night, every minute of every fricken day he is on my mind when I try to push it out....it's just there! We've ruined our friendship, as we try to stay away from each other now, which has confused my man and my child...
I want things to be normal again...but they never will be.
Am I ever gonna get over this? I know he is not the guy for me...maybe I'm confused about my feelings of love? But it's gotta be love it's been a fricken year and a half.
I miss him when he's not around...and I cannot stop contact, which I know is what were spose to do, cuz he lives right near us, and he's still my man's best friend. We just play the avoidance game alot. But then my guy invites him over....and he can't say no cuz that is too wierd...and GOD.
I seriously believe we can be in love with 2 people. I hope I can get over this without hurting anyone but myself.....
Does anyone have any stories to relate to this? What can I do....argghh??

[fransisca]

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[fransisca]

Hi,Greetings from fransisca,
My name is Miss fransisca makazu, l saw your profile today at(www.stormfront.org ) and after going through it then l made up my mind to contact you as my friend.
so l want you to write back to me through my email address ( fransisca_makazu@yahoo.com) so that l will give
you my picture and for you to know more about me. l hope to see your mail
soon.lt is from me, miss fransisca.