{"id":2107,"date":"2012-04-15T18:54:53","date_gmt":"2012-04-15T16:54:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.love-sessions.com\/confessions\/?p=2107"},"modified":"2012-04-15T18:54:53","modified_gmt":"2012-04-15T16:54:53","slug":"it-was-over-before-it-even-started","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.love-sessions.com\/confessions\/2012\/04\/it-was-over-before-it-even-started\/","title":{"rendered":"It Was Over Before It Even Started"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Hey, i&#8217;m going to tell you my story. It all started about a month ago. A guy in my Tech class has caught my attention before by his good looks. I do believe the first thing he ever said to me was &#8220;Like my wood ;)?&#8221; because he was holding a piece of wood haha.. Anyways, He was a major flirt twards me for at least a month and it was slowly progressing. Of course at first I didn&#8217;t really think about all the attention that he was giving me but then I relised and I joined in on the flirting. He got touchy; at first thing he did was over the top which was smacking my butt so hard that it hurt to sit. After, it cooled down. He&#8217;d say really sweet things to me over Facebook and through texting also during class. He would give me nice big warm long hugs, and when I&#8217;d be laying on my desk with my arms out he&#8217;d put his head right next to mine. He&#8217;d even take my hands and kinda play with them in a cute little way. Everything was slowly working up and I finally relised that I liked him ALOT. I would be so shy around him and always blush and be awkward.We&#8217;d also always text everyday, and he admited that he liked me alot.<\/p>\n<p> On the first day of Easter break my mom ruined it all for my by telling me that were 6th cousins.. Turns out that our grandmas are related somehow but it&#8217;s not by blood so it wasn&#8217;t a big deal. Being half freaked out and not thinking much of it, I texted him about it we kinda joked around, despite the fact that we were both freaked out, and it got kinda awkward. Before bed at 11:30pm I texted him basically saying &#8220;Sorry about earlier, I hope you still like me&#8221;. He replied with a message that made my heart sink. The message said this: &#8220;I do like you, but I have to tell you something because I can&#8217;t keep leading you on. I like you a lot but I can&#8217;t date girls, I find myself to be strapped down and to feel like I&#8217;m controlled. I&#8217;m telling you because I&#8217;ll end up just    hurting you more and I can&#8217;t do that.I know this sounds so harsh and yes I know, I&#8217;m an ass hole but it&#8217;s better if you stay away from liking me because you  will just get hurt&#8221;. I read it and was like WTF. I tried to make sense of it all and that just made me cry. I had no idea what to do. I texted back basically saying that I understand what he&#8217;s trying to say, and it&#8217;s to late because I fell for him. I thanked him for kind of giving me a &#8220;heads up&#8221; I said that we could still like each other without having to date, and that we could just have a &#8220;thing&#8221;. I also offered that if he wants to talk more that I would be there for him. I tried texting him twice on Easter, and he didn&#8217;t reply.<\/p>\n<p> On Tuesday when school started up again we didn&#8217;t even talk. He probably though I was mad at him because my body language suggested that I was bitchy, so he didn&#8217;t even bother talking to me. My friends said he kept eyeballing me. I tried to avoid his gaze, and I was successful at doing so. Today, my group was gone, so I was the only one sitting at my table. I was terribly lonely so I moved to his, which also had 2 other people at it. He actually talked to me first, and we had mini conversations. He kept cracking jokes and I kept laughing at them. We caught each others gaze a few times and each gave each other a little smile. Other then that, I was extremely quiet and the whole thing just felt awkward because I&#8217;m used to us talking all the time and acting different twards each other.<\/p>\n<p> I still really like him and I think he still likes me also. If you like someone long enough to chase them, you can&#8217;t just drop them right away. I&#8217;ve been kinda depressed about the whole thing. I want to fix things, but I don&#8217;t no if I should or how. For now I&#8217;m going to go with the flow, but I&#8217;m still holding on and I don&#8217;t want to lose him this soon. Thanks for reading all of this and if you have any questions or advice then please let me know.  <\/p>\n<p><b>(Screen) Name<\/b>: Molly<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hey, i&#8217;m going to tell you my story. It all started about a month ago. A guy in my Tech class has caught my attention before by his good looks. I do believe the first thing he ever said to me was &#8220;Like my wood ;)?&#8221; because he was holding a piece of wood haha.. 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