well, where do i begin? im 30 yrs old. i have 3 children, i have been married twice, my ex husband and i met when we were young and i guess i wanted to get out of my parents house, so that was the reason i married. anyways we have two children together, we divorced then i remarried my husband now, i married him because he is such a wonderful loving man and is so good with my children and i did not want to have many men in my childrens lives. i grew to love this man and respect him more than i can tell you. we have a daughter together whom is nearly 3 and we have been together for 6 yrs.. my husband is wonderful, everything you can ask for in a man, and gives me everything i ever dreamed of. heres the problem, i had a affair that went on for about one year. why did i do this?? why did i hurt him this way? i knew i never wanted to be with the man that i had the affair with, i just didnt know how to end it, i didnt want anyone to get hurt, and i didnt want to hurt anyone, though i know i end up hurting everyone. then after i broke up the affair, of course i cared for this man deeply and i was torn it was over, so what i do? go out and get drunk and end up in bed with an employee, though this didnt last but one night. wow, am i something or what? why did i do this to man i love so deeply and want to spend the rest of my life with? my husband knows about the affair but dosent know about the one night stand… how do i tell him without crushing him. i know i do not deserve his love. but i do have it, i accepted that he may leave me, and this is my fault. i just dont know why i continue to have such foolish behavior. i want to be the wife my husband deserves to have, and god knows i am trying everyday.
(Screen) Name: whats wrong w me.
