Hi,
I’m stuck in a real complicated situation and need some genuine advice.im 29 years old female from india.in 2008 I met a man who approached me and I fell in love with him.he was my first boyfriend ever and I truly loved him at that point beyond any explanation.i thought life without him would be worth not living and couldn’t imagine myself living with out him at that point.anyway I was his 3rd gf and he had had other flings besides those 3 relationships also but for me he was my first boyfriend i never even had a fling before tht.anyway my parents and my siblings knew his family and the guy as we live In s small town in India and everyone knows off each other they warned me against him and his family tht I shouldn’t get involved with him and tht his family doesn’t have a good reputation.i ignored everyone cuz I was. In love.later ths guys own first cousin who also knew my best friend told my best friend to tell me tht ths guys family is sper strange and this guy is also really weird and tell ur find to get out of ths mess.i ignored all tht too .eventually him and I had a fall out cuz he kinda cheated on me by proposing to my sister s best friend while still with me but ths happened when we were still gettin to low each other and had just been together for 2 months I fought with him over tht stopped trusting him but it was hard for me to get over him as I loved him too much so I still stayed with him.eventually now we had been together for 2 yrs had some falls outs but despite everything were still together.then I started figuring out tht he has lied to me lot about random money stuff in this relation.like he’d lie to me tht he’s traveling all over Ther world when was wasn’t just so I think tht he’s doing well in life and has money to travel like he was portraying me the image.i come from a well off family and my parents have given me a good life tht I didn’t see him providing me which is why I would tell him at times tht u have to work hard snuff to support me or else my parents won’t let me marry someone who can’t support my lifestyle.instead of being honest and tellin me he started lying to me about the money he earned and faked travels and shopping so he cold impress me.anyway around tht time officially to the world we had broken up but we would still talk on the pone all the time but never met even thu we lived 5 min away from each other.i didn’t want the world to thnk I was still with him despite everything he had done to me ,I was embarrassed to face the world about him cuz he hadnt been so honest to me aout things like money also and somehow trapped me in but saying I’m bitchyand materialistic and rude so I felt bad and would end up being with him but I told him clearly tht to the world we have broken up so he can’t tell anyone we still talk.i guess I knew he’s. It good for my future but I was soo attached to him tht it was hard Leaving him so I secretly kept talking to him.now the deal is tht for my future marriage wise I know I don’t want to marry him cuz he is not good for my future and the past we’ve had I can’t trust him but I still talk to him day in day out and we still meet secretly and make out also we haven’t had sex but thts about it we’ve made out every way possible than full sex.my friends and family don’t even know we talk and they think I’m single which I am cuz I don’t see myself marrying him but I find it hard not talking to him cuz he’s been such a big part of my life for 4 yrs now.i keep telling myself when I find another guy I’ll leave him but them one part of me feels like a slut tht if I know I won’t marry him why do I make out with him.im very very confused as of wht to do?plz help.also very recently like 2 weeks back I told my friends tht him and I are just friends and we never had a bad breakup so if I see him somewhere I’ll meet him nicely where the fact is that I talk to him all the time as if he’s my boyfriend and we make out secretly but I know I will not end up marrying him.does ths make me a slut?ive never had a boyfriend besides him and I m not the kinda girl to make out with any guy,ths is the by guy I’ve ever made out with and the fact tht I know I won’t marry him and I’ve told the world and my friends we are just friends where in real we talk on the phone alll the time and make out.i don’t know wht to do now????im 29 yrs old and he’s 35 .its not like we r teenagers.plz help
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