I’m a 16 year old college student and I want to confess something.
We were in high school when I first met him. When we were in third year, I had a crush on him. Before the school year ended, he courted me and three days later, he became my first boyfriend. Weeks later, my friend told me that he had other girlfriends. I was hurt and so I broke up with him.
When another school year started, he courted me again. I was hesitant at first because I’m afraid that he will hurt me again. HE knew what I felt so he made ways to earn my trust again. And because I loved him, I received him back. After some time, I found out that he really, really love me. He never failed to make me feel special everyday. Even if he is put to shame, he doesn’t care as long as he could show to the world how much he loved me. He is so thoughtful, caring and responsible.
Recently, he started “dirty talking” to me. I was uncomfortable at first because I’m still innocent about what he is talking about. I kept on answering him and even ask him what he means whenever he say something I don’t understand. after sometime, sex came out of our topic.
Every time we talk, he always opens the topic. It was as if he is educating me, since I am not really oriented with it.
Now, here is the problem. While we were exchanging text messages weeks ago, he opened the topic about it again. and this time, he was asking me to have sex with him. He admitted to me that he was desiring to have me ever since he loved me. I already saw it coming but I was a little disappointed. He already know how conservative I was. I am a devout Catholic and he knows I won’t give in. I admit we have been kissing but I made it clear to him from the beginning that I won’t agree to have sex with him. But he told me that he really love me and assured me. His objective why he asked me is that he wanted to show me how much he love me. So now it made me really confused. does he really mean what he say? What if he just want to use me and then leave me? If that happens, it will really hurt me.
So if you were on my shoes, would you give in or not?
(Screen) Name: confused girl
