I’ve spent the last 5 years living in a ski town thats way too small.. When I was 16 I though I found the man of my dreams, with these eyes that could make you melt and do anything he wanted.. Things ended eventually, and a week or so later I found out I was pregnant.. 3 weeks later I lost that child to a miscarriage.. We ended because i found out he was still with his ex of four years, and i refused to be the other woman… He went on to marry that woman and im pretty sure they have been married for atleast 4 years.. Here is where things get tricky, after 5 years I off running into this person on and off again, I started seeing him more often (im pretty positive it was intentional on his part) at my work. I work in a grocery store and its hard not seeing people. He started talking to me again and apologizing for the past. Granted he didnt know i was pregnant or anything until after I lost the child. The conversation came up, and while im stuck in a pretty horrible living situation I though I could handle being a mistress.. We’ve hooked up a couple times, and now Im lost. The feelings never went away, and I harbor a hatred for his wife, for taking something from me even though i realize he was never truly mine. Im lost in the fact that my actions make me sick to my stomach, but im always anxious for the next call or meeting.. I dont know how to end things, or that i really want to.. I just know i have never been the type of person whos okay with cheating, let alone once your married.. But to this day I look into his eyes and I cant help but melt all over again.. Please someone tell me something.. I have no one i can tell or talk to, so here i am online posting a confession to the world.. A world that doesnt know me, and hopefully will understand me and not judge me too harshly…
(Screen) Name: shortybshort
