I have always wanted to tell my love story to someone, maybe you will take interest in it?
I was in the city BHUJ,Gujrat in India. I was in 7th class, and this would have been about ten years before my brother had taken admission into college and moved into the hostel. My father was posted to another state. I was alone at home with my mother. Things got a little bit more interesting when a beautiful girl had come as my neighbor, in front of my home. She took admission in my class but in different section. I remember she had an elder brother. I was shy with girls so i just kept normal friendship. I used to play most of the time. As she was my neighbor I used to play with her most of time. She would tease me so I would scold her in return. She would just bow her head down; and listen quietly to what I had to say, she would apologize to me afterwards; this would happen often. There were others children also but I like to play with her most.
In 2001, for me one of the most important events took place on the New Year. My brother had given me a diary as a gift, and from the 1st January I had started writing daily entries in it. I was so young at that time, so i just wrote everything exactly as it happened. On the 26th January of that year, an earthquake hit our city, it was a serious disaster and we were left with nothing; as all our homes were damaged. From here the story really begins for me. Her father had bought a tent, my mother and i had shifted in with her family. The real fun began between us. We were together for almost all of 24 hours, with no study. Our local school had been closed. We would just have fun frolicking around. I had written in detail about the earthquake very neatly in my diary. It was a life time memorable experiences I had written in my diary all things. For three months i just had a great time, having no study, you would find me just roaming around our area. We were together in one tent and for 24 hours. Our families were adjusted well and helpful to each other. She was getting very close to me at this stage, but at that time we were so young so I never took our friendship seriously.
It soon came the time for our separation. Two or three days before i had left, a fight had taken place between us. We went from spending hours together to suddenly not talking to each other anymore. My luggage was loading on the truck as I waited for her to say sorry, but I knew she was at home waiting for me to come to her but I couldn’t. The truck had started up and was on its way. We were separated just like that without a single conversation. Mobile phones were not in fashion at that time. So i had no contact of her. I continued to write in my diary for another month, though after that I decided to stop using it as I realized that without her, I felt that there was nothing important to write in it, the last pages of my diary i kept blank.
Many years went by. Sometimes i would read back to that part in my diary (separation), how I felt bad why i didn’t say sorry to her, or why i had left her like that. Maybe we were too young to have feelings, but I know that i was the one responsible for what had happened the day I left. She was always on my mind even after so many years. I still think about her. I think my dairy is responsible for that, but this does not mean that i was mad at her. Many girls came into my life after that and i was searching for her in every girl i met. No one was like her. I had joined college and connected to the world of internet. In India facebook nd orkut are famous social networking site and so i joined it in hopes of finding her. Sometimes seeing couples in colleges, I used to day dream about her being with her again. After so many years I had decided to search for her, however possible.
In October 2008 i had found her brother on Orkut. Now he is doing job. We chatted together and he was happy to meet me. He told me that i was too much special a guy for their family. I asked about her, but he showed no interest in telling me about her. So i did not force him. Six months had past and I had seen her account on her brother’s profile and sent friend’s request. But even better, she had called me – getting my number off her brother. Our first talk went for about three hours. It was my first time talking to a girl for that long and we were on our mobile phones. I told her about the diary, and she said she remembered me writing in it. She said she remembered only few things, but i remembered everything because of the diary that I had kept. She told me she cried much when i left her. She had decided not to become too friendly with guys again.
She told me it was the happiest moment her life to talk to me again, after such a long time. She couldn’t imagine that i could ever reach her again. I continued to talk to her on the phone for a month, we would talk almost daily on our mobiles. I felt i was in love with her, so i had proposed. But she began saying that she respects my love, but she did not love me like that and that she will marry to whom her parents tell her to. After hearing this I had asked her to not call me anymore. But she couldn’t help it, she continued to call me and she told me that she would get stressed when we didn’t talk together. So we continued to talk. I tried to tell her that its love, but she still said its friendship. The same situation was still going on. I just talk when she askd me to. But I had decided to not show my love for her and to be just her good friend. But it was my mistake. Talking her still made me thought about her too much and I was thinking its ok and I could continue like that. I was wrong. This was the story till September 2009.
My night becomes severe more I talked her. My mind becomes restless. Further she continued to say me that she doesn’t love me but could not stop calling me. I left sleeping. Instead of forgetting her, my mind got saturated, i got depressed. I was admitted in hospital for 1 month. My parents come to knew about my situation. Then i left studies for one year. During this one year i collected things which are appropriate for me. But I couldn’t stop thinking about her. And after one year i joined to college again. Things were changed a lot. People had changed their attitudes towards me. I came to know about this real world truth. But even after all this she is in my mind like always. Although she had left talking to me after listening about my condition, I came to know about a hidden truth to get success, that is “THE SECRET” .
And my life starts changing after that. I started enjoying life again. I never stop myself thing about her and started hoping that everything now happen for best now. One day the Gal called me asking to forget her. I talked her friendly. I got placement in company. Now I am waiting for her next call.
Tell me how do you feel like about my future?

(Screen) Name: praveen gupta

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