hi friends im akku my best friend call me akku actuly best friend se badh kar hi tha woh mere liye hum dosti bhi kafi unique ti hum chatzone pe mile aaj se 4saal pehle ek chatzone pe mene hi use friend use friend request bheji ti 3rd nov.2009 or uska reply dusre din aaya ta.phir yaha se hamari dosti start hui sab kuch tik ta uski ek or chatzone friend ti dhire dhire time guzarta raha. phir ek din usne muzse kaha ki uski jo chatzone friend hai usne use prapose kiya hai yeh sunke pata ni kyu muze bhoot bura laga or rona bhi aara tha par us time mene usse kuch nahi kaha…. par reh reh ke muze bhi lag raha ta ki me usse pyar karti hu phir jese tese mene use bol hi diya,and use bhi muzse pyar tha usne khud bola tha muze ki’mi tujhyawar khare prem karto’. or yeh sab ek saal ke andar hi ho chuka tha me bhoot khush thi pehle to woh muze bhoot boaring sa lagta har baar muze correct karta tha ki esa nahi esa karo ya muze free advice deta tab muze bilkul bhi accha nahi lagta tha par dhire dhire uski har ek baat acchi lagne lagi thi.phir pata ni kyu woh muzse dur hota gaya usne muzse baat karna tak band kar diya muzse contact bhi break kar diya or jab me usko messeage karti ya call karti to bolta ki please leave me forgive me. or me yaha uske pyar me roti jaa rahi thi ki woh muzse dur kyu hua me uske bina kese jiyungi, itna sab kuch ho chuka tha par humne ek dusre ko dekha tak ni tha hum jante bhi nahi te ki samne wala banda dikhta kesa hai…main to use dil se pyar karti ti to mene woh har ek chij ki jo pyar me pagal ek insaan karta hai mene uske liye sirf use dobara pane ke liye fast rakhe,taki kese bhi karke woh muze wapas mil jaye…par woh wapas nahi aya phir tik ek saal baad 8may 2012 ko me sai baba ke mandir gai thi or hamesha ki tarah wahi wish kiya muze mera pyar wapas mil jaye or jese hi me ghar gai uska messeage aya ‘hi’ me bata nahi sakti me kitni khush thi pehle to muze believe hi nahi ho raha tha ki uska messeage aya hai. mene bhi use reply kiya or meri wish puri ho gai hum ek baar phir contact me aagaye the. phir humne itni baate ki itni baate ki jo saal bhar se hum dur the na woh puri kasar puri kar di, par ab woh muzse pyar nahi karta tha par me to wahi do saal pehle wali hi ti or usse bhooot bhoot pyar karti thi ek baar phir mene use prapose kiya par usne mana kar diya mene wajah puchi to usne kaha ki hum bhoot alag hai me maharashtra me rehta hu or tum madhya pradesh me hum kese ek dusre ke soul mate ban sakte hai mene kaha tum bas haan keh do phir sab bhagwan pe chod denge jese unhone hume es baar milwaya hai aage bhi wohi hume milwayenge par woh nahi mana phir kuch din bad muze pata chala ki uski jo chat zone friend thi woh uske sath relationship me tha me bhoot roi bhoot tut si gayi me mene socha ki esse hamesha ke liye dur ho jaungi par jab yeh baat usko pata chali ki me usse dur ho rahi hu to usne muzse kaha ki akku i need you i miss you very much yaar please don’t go please stay with me, your my life, mene pucha jab muze apni life kehte ho to pyar se kyun dur bhaag rahe ho usne kaha ki pyaar me main de paau esa kuch nahi hai mere paas i am lower middle class person…muze uski yeh baad samz nahi aai kya pyaar me yeh sab dekhna ki kon middle class hai kon upper class zaruri hota hai??? mene use 6 times dur jaane ki baat kahi or haar baar woh muze mana leta tha or me khud bhi kaha usse dur hona chahti ti par me khud samz nahi paa rahi thi ki kya karu? 5sep2012 teacher day ke din mene usse kaha tumhari maa teution padhati hai to woh bhi teacher hui na to unhe bhi teachers day wish karo usne kaha tum hi kardo wish mene uski maa ke mo. no. pe happy teachers day ka messeage kiya usne maa ke mo. se reply kiya ki ‘bahu rani tum studies me safal hui’ mene reply kiya’ studies nahi aai only tujha aashirwad paaije’ woh yeh reply padh ke bhoot khush hua usne kaha ae bai galti se bhi maa ke samne mat aana warna mera baal vivah karwa dengi woh mene kaha tik hai kabhi nahi aaungi usne kha kabhi kyu nahi aage jake meri life me aane me koi problem hai kya…me uski baate kabhi samz hi nahi pati thi kabhi bolta hum itne dur rehtehai or kabhi ki future me nahi aa sakti me bhoot zyada confuse thi…,aaj es baat ko ek saal ho gaya hai 5 sep. 2013. phir dhire dhire waqt beet ta gaya or humare bich jhagde hone lage usne muzse kahaki me us ladki ke sath relationship me nahi hu yaar usne bhoot force kiya tha eslye mene use haan kaha tha warna pyaar jesa me kuch feel nahi karta hu uske liye or tumhare liye haan me kuch feel to karta hu par nahi janta woh pyaar hai ya nahi…me use haar baar ‘contact break kar rahi hu’2 yahi kehti thi or phir dhire2 shayad jo woh mere liye feel karta tha use bhi mene khud hi khatam kar diya or ajj ek baar phir hum contact me nahi hai haan par ab mene uski or usne meri photo zarur dekhli hai accha dikhta hai woh and woh jo shayriya karta hai woh to esi ki side dil ko touch karti hai usne muzse kaha tha ki yeh jo shayri wgera karta hu na tumhare liye hi karta hu tum ho eslye shayri karta hu warna to me ek line bhi nahi likh sakta…usi ne kaha tha ki ‘tum mere liye khaas,me tumhare liye khaas,ekdusre ke bina hum adhure hai.’ par phir pata nahi hum aaj ek dusre ke sath kyun nahi hai hamare alag hone ki wajah bhi nahi pata muze to hum contact me the daily baate bhi karte the phir ek din usne muze bataya ki woh mama ban gaya hai usne muze us angel ki photo bhi bheji bhoot cute hai woh phir usne muzse kaha me buzy hu baat kam hogi mene kaha no problem 5 din beet gaye uska messeage nahi aya to mene uski chat zone friend se pucha to wh kaha hai to usne kaha mere se baat kar raha hai abhi muze bhoot gussa aaya mene use messeage kar ke bhoot chillaya,phir kuch din baad ek messeage ki muze jaundice ho gaya hai use chala gaya phir uska reply aya kesi ho? phir hamari baate shuru hui par shayad sab kuch badal chuka tha use meri zarurat nahi hai shayad last time baat mei 24 aug. 2013 ko hui usse mene usse pucha ki baat karna chahte ho muzse ki nahi usne koi reply na dete hue muzse baat karna hi band kar diya.yeh mera secret love hi to hai.i wish aagli baar jab woh aaye to mere liye dher sara pyaar leke aaye or kabhi na wapas jaane ke liye aaye…i am waiting from him…me aaj tak usse face to face nahi mili bas photo dekhi hai uski, next month me shirdi jaa rahi hu i wish sai baba or shiv ji kuch esa chamatkar kare ki me ps se meeting karwa de ek baar me usse face to face mil lu or face to face woh khud muze prapose kare ki’ akku i love you will you marry me’ and i say ‘yes’…. bas bhagwan se itni hi wish hai ki mene usko leke jo bhi wish mangi hai na woh sab puri ho bas…om namah shivay

(Screen) Name: mishthi

Teenage Love, Crush, School, Not always a happy ending, mixed feelings.

(Screen) Name: JustANormalGirl8

I was in my first year in high school by that time, first day of school. I woke up late so I rushed and went off to shool, but still there were no more seats for me, I was standing at the back by that time waiting for my seats when a boy named Vince came into my class catching his breath. I smiled and stared at him without knowing. I felt that he’s so attractive. A few weeks later, I forgot that he exist, then a close friend of mine told me that he likes him. I know that I dont like him but there’s an ache inside me. Then, the seats were changed ang I was put next besides him. From that day, we became the best of friends and were never seperated. Until 3rd quarted came and the seats were again changed. I was so far from him and we were too busy that we forgot our friendship. Atlast 4th quarter came, we had a project and we were in the same group. Then, we end up teasing each other and created these “fights” to know who is smarter, but it was just for fun until I eventually started to fall for him, unknowingly that he has a girlfriend which crushed my heart and made me hate him during summer. It was in my second year life that he started to tease me again. But this time, I made my self not to fall for him. One day, he teased me unknowingly that it made me embarrassed. So in great anger, I told him that I hate him and I dont want him in my life anymore. He said sorry but because of my pride, I didnt accept it. The next day, he told me that he likes me, which made me hate him most, coz this such as “If he loves me, why would he embarrasse me?” keep running into my mind. From that day we regret seeing each other. Everytime we see each other, its as if we were staring at a stranger. At our recollection, I said sorry and he replied “K.” and made me like “K.? Thats all? I swallowed my pride to revive our friendship and all I get is a K.?!” . Until now, we still dont talk and I miss him so much. Got some advise? :’>

(Screen) Name: ms. idiot

First of all, I know this story is gonna be very long..but at least please try to read my story so you can get some ideas about soul mates and secret love. Enjoy reading!

I remember this guy back when we’re still in fourth grade let’s call him in the name of Mr.Genius (coz his very good in Math). So my story goes like this.

First day of school, I meet my old friends and some new classmates. Our class adviser decided to arrange our seats. He seats in front of me. We still don’t know each other that time.

The second day, the teacher told us to get 10 sheets of pad paper for our penmanship folder, then the guy seating in front of me offered to give me ten sheets of pad paper, he was kinda friendly to me, but I said no thanks coz I have my own. The next few days, he was friendly to me and we talked to each other, get to know more about each other, and I noticed that when I arrive at school he was there talking with his guy friends and when he saw me arrive, he suddenly will go to his seat. These time I was thinking that this Mr. Genius guy likes me because I saw some obvious signs where in a guy is doing when he likes a girl. But, that time I wasn’t that into things like crushes or simply boyfriends thingy. That time I already knew that Mr.Genius likes me, so I was thinking of a way so he would not like me anymore, then I start to be rude to him, and I start to avoid him. One time when we were having our Chinese calligraphy class, he’s jacket was placed at the back of his chair. Then suddenly I accidentally brushed my Chinese brush onto his jacket, leaving a big black mark on his jacket. I’m so shocked and don’t know what to do, because I know if he found out he’ll be mad at me. So I decided to just sit quietly and continue writing. Later he found out, then he asked me if I was the one who did that, I said it wasn’t me, because I was afraid to tell him. Then he got mad at me and told his friends about it. The first quarter has ended and the teacher again decided to change our seat plan, this time it was me who was seating in front of him. It was like every time if the teacher is going to change our seat plan, he is always near me. That time when I accidentally put Chinese ink into his jacket, from then on don’t talk to each other anymore, few weeks past, we began to develop shyness between the two of us. Every time I’m gonna pass near him, I noticed that he is trying to avoid me.

When we were in fifth grade, I don’t know what was happening to me, but soon I just realized that I have feelings for him (It’s just really weird), so that time I don’t know what I was doing, I black texted him, and in one of our text he asked me if I was interested in him and I said I was..(I don’t know what I’m doing that time, right know I’m thinking back that time were I confessed to him that I like him, It makes me feel that I’m totally a foolish girl.) But soon he knew that it was me and I was so ashamed, don’t know what to do because he is telling his friends that I confessed to him that I like him.

By the way, his friend’s brother and my brother know each other and they were both friends, so it means Mr.Genius Guy knows my brother and my brother knew everything that I was doing, and I felt very ashamed. I just wish I didn’t do that anymore.

When we were in sixth grade, Mr.Genius guy has a crush on a girl. Just so you know, Mr.Genius guy is a playboy.

This Mr.Genius guy has a friend, and his friend has a crush on my friend. His friend knew that I like Mr.Genius. So his friend told me that if I would agree to spy on my friend and he to will spy on Mr.Genius and tell me more about him. Then I agreed. He asked Mr.Genius if he is still interested in me, and Mr.Genius guy said that he has liked me back when we were still in fourth grade until now (sixth grade) (that time he likes a girl, me and genius guy are not classmates anymore in sixth grade.)

When there is a batch program or when I’m walking at the hallways or at the corridors, sometimes we cross pass each other and I saw that he stares at me and suddenly look back, he is totally shy too. We haven’t talk for almost 2 and a half yrs. already because we were not classmates. And it’s almost our graduation so I decided to ask him if I could have his graduation pic, he was really shy, and I notice him blushing, and he said yes.
I’m just wondering why is that, if he likes someone at the school, he asks the girl if she can be his girlfriend, but he has a crush on me too, but why is that he is too shy and doesn’t do the same thing to me like what he does to the other girls he like.

Now, that I’m a freshmen, sometimes we cross pass each other and sometimes he look at my eyes so deeply, like he wants to say something, we try to act normal to each other. Sometimes I realize that my fate is testing me, because often we saw each other in the same places. And until now I still has a crush on him, even though he has hurt me a lot of times, I keep on telling myself that I’m not gonna like this person anymore and I’m gonna forget him already, but this feeling I have for him still does not fade away and keeps coming back. I still have this one question on my mind..Does he still like me?

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(Screen) Name: Hollywo0dPrinc3ss

We’ve known each other since we were young. We were said to be family friends. We see each other during family gatherings and other parties. Years passed, we grew up as teens and we became lovers. I was in junior high school then and he just entered college. He lives miles away from where I am. He used to drive 9 hours from his hometown just to see me for a day or two.

Nobody knew about us except his relatives and my sisters. I used to deny our relationship because my parents doesn’t want him to be my boyfriend even though we’re said to have this “family connection” since their family was known to be boastful and arrogant.

Everything started with just a joke — with some sort of teasing; a few sweet messages, a few calls and a few “getting-to-know-each-other” sessions. We even never had a serious date with just the two of us unless we celebrated our second year anniversary as boyfriend-girlfriend. Despite all the rumors and the walls between us, we still find ways to see each other even just for a night. He often visit me once a month. He rides a bus during the day just to see me that night, and goes home at sunrise. We used to sneak out just to ease the feeling of missing each other so much.

After four years of having a serious and intimate relationship at a very young age, I became pregnant. My parents and his parents never knew about it not until I was carrying the baby for four months already. We couldn’t hide it for too long because my tummy is growing bigger and bigger and I could not continue my studies. And so, we decided to let them know as soon as possible.

I rode a bus from my place to where he works. His parents met us there. We talked and decided to let my parents know with their presence. But everything turned out very different. His aunt called my father and told him about it. My father told my mom and together, they went to the place where we stayed. His parents went home and left us. When my parents arrived, I was so scared. I didn’t know what to do. I heard my father’s footsteps and I was surprised that my mom came rushing and hit me with her fist. That was hard that I thought I was gonna lose my child. She hit my tummy and my father held her hands telling her to stop for they can do nothing but to accept what happened. I really can’t understand how I felt that time. I was looking for my partner but he wasn’t there. He left me. He didn’t even go out of his room to check me out and protect me. I was looking for someone to be my side, and nobody’s there. I really wished I’d die that day. I cried so hard until the sun’s up.

I lived with my partner away from our parents during my pregnancy. I should be happy but it was totally the opposite of what I hoped to be. I caught him cheating on me. I felt so down to the point that I always call my best friends just to have an outlet.

A few months after, I gave birth to a healthy baby boy. I thought it would be the start of our “happy ever after” but it turned out to be the start of our “bitter days.” I was sent home — very far away from him. He only touched his son for two weeks. We weren’t able to spend our Christmas together, and New Year and Valentine’s Day. We saw each other again during our son’s baptism. That was the first time he saw his child after birth.

Without me knowing, he was very hurt and became very ill. He became too thin and he diverted his attention to lots of work and a few dolls (girls). I asked myself, ‘How could I survive this kind of relationship?’ I decided not to ask him about it but I let him feel that I know something. Months passed and everything went out right. But it didn’t stayed that long. Maybe because of my trauma of him having third party, I want our communication to be very constant. I call at least twice a week and i send him SMS very often. It seems like he doesn’t want what I’m doing. I can’t understand. Our bond starts to loosen and time came that I’ve heard a lot of issues about him. It even came to the point that he denied what I saw.

I felt betrayed. It’s like I was the only one loving.

I found a way to ease the pain. My best friends and my son were my only outlets. I go out frequently with them and I hang out with my classmates everywhere. Time came that I felt numb for everything. I get used of hearing negative things. I was tired of all the issues. I don’t listen to his lame excuses. I didn’t isolate myself. We broke up. I was deeply hurt yet I have moved on.

Two years after, I found someone. I like him and I love him. He’s married with three kids and on his annulment process. He promised me to wait for three years and within that, we’ll be legally together and we’ll build a family of our own.

We’re together for almost a year now and I feel so lucky that still, I found someone like him. Though he has kids on his first marriage, he was like the answers to my prayers. I prayed for someone who can understand me — someone who knows what I’m going through; someone who can relate and someone who can love me like I wanted to.

Now, we were still waiting for his annulment and has planned to settle with my child and his children after his legal separation with his wife, in God’s time.

(Screen) Name: mustNOTbeNAMED