I had never ever imagined that I would meet someone over the internet and fall so deeply in love with him.

It was some twelve years ago when I first met him via online chatting website. I think he was cool in his approach and he never ever gave me a chance to think that he would ever leave me if he was to be my love. This is what and I would say thousand other qualities which attracted me towards him.

I wanted to meet him, know him and marry him. I could not express my feelings to him openly but knew in my heart of hearts that one day I will express and will get him. I don’t know what he thought about me but I know he liked me and wanted me to be his wife.

In a years time, we became good friends and would share everyday lives with each other via chat. I think I trusted him more than anything else in the world. Few days passed and misfortune befell us and we had to be separated. I dont know how and when we lost contact with each other but I think it was one of those days when I felt he was not as caring and I spoke rudely with him.It was first of our arguments and then I dont think we ever spoke again. An offline message left by me never found a reply back which showed there’s hardly anything left between us.

This was not that left something barren in my heart. I still always thought of him and wished I found him back. This for a person whom I never met in reality or even spoke on phone. Online chatting was the only means of contact between us. Oh my

God he was one of the bestest human beings I ever met.

Days went by and I got involved in my studies. All that happened prevented me from developing interest back in chat world.

I started believing chatting was for people who wanted to be cheated and being heart broken after getting involved in romantic relationships by unmet strangers. This became my view and I visited but very rarely those chatting web pages. And

what else could we find in those web pages but all that could not be digested by virgin minds like me.

Now when I look back I feel no, there was something about him which I failed to understand. He was not the person he was portraying to be. Otherwise, why would he end the relationship so abruptly. Why did he never mention that we could speak on phone or why didnt he ever sent me his pictures. This is what happens. We take it too long to understand a persons behaviour. Had I known he was going to do this, I dont think I would have allowed myself to be involved in this
relationship.

Then one day, I meet someone online and I speak with him and I feel its him. So was he trying to speak with me through other people’s IDs? I could and I do remember the words a person speaks and then I can compare with others writing to know
its the same person. May be it was a myth. May be he never came back. May be just because I couldnt forget him, I thought
the other people were also him. But if this was not the case, then why is he trying to speak with me through other peoples
IDs. Why doesn’t he come upfront to speak with me and tell me what’s on his mind. And why do others are always ready to
lend him their ids. These are the questions which perplex me and I still need answers to…

(Screen) Name: Shirin Khan

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