It’s been 23 days. I met him on March 29th, the day before the biggest event at my school. Red & white night was the biggest physical competition at my school & has been for many years. A-K was Red & L-Z was White. The day before, everyone got together & we painted posters, decorated the gym, & just hung out. I was painting with my friends Jacob, Tommy, Marisa, Steph, Nick, & this one kid I didn’t know. Later on in the evening, Jacob had left because he was a captain, Tommy had been long gone, & the other three as well. It just so happened that this kid was named Connor. We were sharing tape to tape the posters up since there were not a lot of rolls left. He would continuously rip me tape & hand it to me. He took my phone & I wasn’t paying attention so he put his number in it. We were able to just sit there for hours & talk as if we had known each other for our entire lives. Like we were long lost friends that were catching up. His best friend was Tommy & he liked me, but honestly, he didn’t have a chance. After another maybe hour, we were sitting around taping & I met his sister & his aunt. She’s 7 & comes to red & white night every year. I took his phone & put my number in it but I told him I was doing it & he said, ‘don’t worry, I already put mine in yours.’ I smiled. About an hour later, it was about 11, I had left because I had been there for about 6 hours now. I texted him & we stayed up ’til about 1 a.m. texting. Then the next day came around & I saw him plenty of times in school at another girl’s locker. I got kind of nervous. I gave him a hug each time I saw him though. His height about 5′ 9″ with the warmest brown eyes there could be. His dark hair & the way he walked was perfect. Then red & white night came around. We were going to sit together but since he was in events, he had to go sit with the event. He said to me, “hold on to these for me,” handing me his keys, his phone, & his necklace. After having the time of my life at Red & White night, he met up with me & I gave him a hug & his phone & keys, completely forgetting about the necklace. He kissed me on the cheek & I made my move, completely forgetting he had told me he had a girlfriend. I quickly apologized & walked away, only to meet up with my best friend. I told her, ‘shit, i just kissed the guy i like who has a girlfriend. shit.’ i texted him after red & white night apologizing & saying i forgot his necklace in my bag & i’d give it to him monday. & he said, ‘no, you have no idea how badly i wanted to kiss you back & just hold on to that for me alright?’ i said, ‘really?’ & he said, ‘there was so much running through my mind when you went to kiss me, i kept saying to myself, you may never get this chance again & i may fuck it up, but wait no Connor you have a girlfriend.’ i was shocked. Saturday & Sunday went by & all we did was talk. On sunday we made plans to hang on monday & work on ‘science.’ on our way home on the bus, he kissed me for real this time. behind his girlfriend’s back. we kissed a lot & my mom actually caught us. she was disappointed that i didn’t tell her i liked him. the next day, his girlfriend found out & she thought it was someone else. i owned up to it & sat in guidance for 2 hours trying to figure out what to do. i was so lost yet confused. he seemed mad at me, & i questioned it. On Wednesday, he said to me, ‘can i see that necklace before first block & i’ll give it back, i promise.’ i gave it to him & he put a ring on the necklace, i asked him about the resemblance of it. he said, ‘its a thing in my family where we give rings to girls we really like.’ then eventually the Thursday before spring break came around & he got his phone ‘taken.’ he lied to me. I texted him & he said it was his aunt & that he needed to make some decisions. i knew it was him though. i could just tell. the next day, i got a text in the morning saying he wasn’t happy & he needed to figure some stuff out. i was devastated & needed to figure out what to believe from him & what not to believe, because i believed everything. A couple days went by & the following Thursday was spring break & i was sitting by my ping pong table with Shelbie & Brandon. i had seen earlier in the day that him & his girlfriend had gotten back together. i took the necklace off & gave up. i was so upset. i had received a text message from Connor & i didn’t understand why he wanted to talk to me. Shelbie had told me that they had broken up earlier in the day right after getting back together. We worked things out & as if nothing had happened, gone back to normal. We talked all day every day & on Saturday, i was walking by the park in Hainesport with some friends on our way to the diner for dinner. He asked me to be his girlfriend at exactly 6:11 p.m. I lit up & immediately Skylar & Shelbie could tell something had happened. i told them but i was told to keep it down low because he had just broken up with his ex girlfriend. We spend every moment we can with each other. & i see him before first block, all of fourth, & before fifth & after school. He promises me that he will get me out of here some day & that he will love me more than he did the day before, that every kiss will be better than the one before. that our relationship is more than just liking a person, that it’s true love & i’ll be the girl he takes to the altar, that i will go to ‘Brazil’ with him. A week later, at that exact time, i was sitting at dinner right next to that boy. & we took the cutest picture together, & later at that night he was pushing me on the swings at that park. he kissed me upside down at the lake earlier in the day & isn’t afraid to be himself around me. & a week & a day later, i am sitting here telling you this story while texting him. he deserves to know he means everything to me & that he should be happy & that i’d to everything to make sure he is. he’s so sweet & honestly, is the best influence possible on me. i have never felt more strongly about a person before in my life. my friends that ask about him see how much i like him. my mom said to me today that she sees the way we look at each other & that we have what is called ‘young love.’ he deserves to know that i love him, & honestly there are no words possible to explain how i really feel about him because the feeling is so strong. i love you, Connor Lewis Openshaw, forever. i promise.
4.14.12 6:11p.m.

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