First crushes are always special, and because it is the time that we feel something new and beautiful, it stays with us forever. Even my first crush is special, there are two reasons for this. First and that obvious one is that it was the first time I ever felt anything like this, this feeling was so new and different that it scared me but at the same time I never wanted this feeling to go away. I could think about him for hours and the thought instantly brought a smile to my face, but whenever he came in front of me I got so scared that he would be able to tell that I have feelings for him that I immediately left the place where he was present. Needless to say, we never spoke. But he still holds a special place in my heart, which brings me to my second reason. when I was young a guy tried to misbehave with me. That incident frightened me to the core. I completely ignored boys from that point, I thought that all guys want girls only for one reason and they really didn’t care for us. This gave rise to my hurt and anger. Foimr years I thought that all guys are bad and I maintained a distance. whenever I met a guy I unconsciously searched for ways to hate them. But when I saw HIM for the first time, it was like I was under a spell. I couldn’t take my eyes off him. Something about him just made me want to keep looking at him. He was nice and simple, didn’t try to act over smart and different from every guy I had seen. This guy made me realize that not all guys are same. Some guys are sweet and wonderful and will always respect you. He made me see guys from a different perspective. Without even saying a word he showed me a completely different side of boys. Even today I don’t know if he felt the same about me or even knew about my feelings but that doesn’t matter. Because he may not be my soulmate, but he was definitely my savior. I will be able to love again because of him, he made me believe in love and for that, I will be forever greatful to him. I wish I could tell him how I feel or at least what he did for me just by being himself but I just don’t have that courage. But I will always wish the best for him and hope that he find someone good enough for him.

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