I fell in love with the guy my best friend fell for… It wasn’t my fault. I bet, if you knew who i was, you’d look at me like, *YOU HYPOCRITE, WE SHOULD THROW STONES AT YOU!!*
But it wasn’t my fault, you should know that.
The people I knew, made me fall in love with him, with their dreamy talks and love-struck faces.. Jeez. Who knew? I never thought, shy, athletic built guys were my type… Especially those that dont go near girls with a 12 foot pole. Yet dont worry, I’m not that bad… I didn’t tell anyone.. That left me to deal with the pain of heartbreak and jealousy and hurt alone.. And you know what’s worse.. The beautiful moments we’d share.. the times, he’d look, stare, and even smile and talk to me, I could never tell anybody. Thats really hard for a girl, trust me.
I was left with deep deep emotions, which i bottled up inside myself… I was ready to explode!
Well, long story short, I fell in love.. And school ended.. I never saw or will see him again. And have I moved on? No. Why? Because I still keep seeing him in my dreams, think of him, every moment of my days, wonder what he may be doing at that time, and if he’d ever miss me like i missed him.. I’d look at pictures of how he hangs out with his friends, and cry, knowing I’d never see that smile again, those dark, deep, mysterious eyes, that I loved so much.
I’m alone now, I should probably move on. It’s been 5 years of torture.. But how, when all i saw in other guys were, how much his hair looked like his, or how much his smile reminded me of him.. Or how his walk looked a bit like his. Heck, I’d even see hallucinations.. Imagine him walking around, when actually its some stranger I don’t know.
You know, what the funny thing is? I’ve never even talked to him, ever! Just a couple of moments on projects for school.. but yet, i feel as if i know him, as if we’d met long ago.. But destiny didn’t intend for me though, huh?
Life’s cruel like that.. but I don’t think of it that way, I think people come into your life, just so long as to teach you a lesson, once you’ve learned it, they leave… And he did teach me a lesson… How there is always something beautiful in every horrible day, how though things seem to be going really bad… at least we’re ok.
I still cry now and then.. thinking of him… try to avoid it, yes, but it still comes now and then… He was a star in my dark sky. Im so happy I fell for such an amazing person.
So I better end this, find some love quotes to put on FB that describes how I feel… Maybe change my picture too.. Or read a novel, though that’d make me feel worse..
I still do miss you

(Screen) Name: romaine lettuce

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