I just want to start out with saying this is not a romantic sappy love story you see on the big screen or read in books. This is real life.
Freshman year was a blur, but of the many things I’ve forgotten, one thing I couldn’t forget was a special boy. I was that sweet little girl that believed in true love more than anything and wanted to save my first kiss for someone I loved. He was always in love with me since day one, he’d tell me. He sat in front of me in my world history class and not a day went by that he didn’t get in trouble for flirting with me. I didn’t want to admit it, but I really liked him. I never told him because I was afraid of rejection and I was afraid of what my friends would think. My advice to anyone who is in this situation, if your friends are real they will accept who you choose to be with. So time went by and we grew apart. He had a few girlfriends and I was waiting, determined to let him know how I felt. But every time I had a perfect chance, I blew it bu putting him in the friend zone… again. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but I definitely have commitment issues. So I let time go by let my feelings slip away.
Sophomore year, everything changed. But most of all, I changed. The first night I hooked up with a random boy was the night when I realized that I was in love with someone else. I had thought these feelings were long gone, but here they came again when I was with someone that didn’t mean a thing to me. Right then I had the chance, and I blew it. I had the perfect opportunity to be with him, us both being single finally, and I didn’t take it. To this day I still don’t understand why I didn’t. After a while we grew closer again and I was prepared to not slip it up this time, and out of no where he had a new girlfriend. This one was not like the others. She actually meant something to him. He’d tell me that he finally thought he found the one, that he was so in love with her. I couldn’t bare it. And that just made me want him more. Everything changed when one night I hooked up with one of his close friends, an effort to make him jealous. Little did I know how well it would work. We were talking the next day after school about a lot of things. “Remember the girl I used to be? I miss her.” I told him and he answered with a simple “You’ll always be that girl for me. Nothing can change the way I see you.” He always knew what to say to make my heart stop. And at that moment, I didn’t care if I’d make a fool of myself, telling a guy with a girlfriend that I loved him. It didn’t matter anymore, I just needed to let it out. So I did. I told him that I was sorry for everything, sorry for taking so long to realize. I told him how I felt and started to walk away. He turned me around and brought me up to his lips and said that he never thought he’d hear those words come out of my mouth, and kissed me so passionately I couldn’t remember where I was afterwords. That was the first kiss that ever meant something to me in my entire life. Every single time he kissed me was like the first one, to this day. The moral of this story? Don’t waste time on other people when you know there is only one out there that will make you feel the way I felt. Good luck and I hope you find the love you’re looking for.

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