I have always enjoyed bullying and playing pranks on the girl I truly like. But sometimes, i have a habit of going overboard. So it’s not surprising that I have lost many girls I truly cared for. Although my way of showing love is very erm.. sadistic, my feelings were true every time. So when I got dumped for the 3rd time, it left me with no hope in love ever again. I thought about changing myself to be caring and gentle, but I realized it would all be just an act. and I wouldn’t want to keep the girl I luv in an illusion.

So like a complete idiot, I took the role of a playboy and flirted around to my heart’s content. But, I was never truly happy.

Then came a girl. She was in desperate need of help. No one seemed to give a damn about her problems so they bluntly ignored her. I was going to ignore her too but I didn’t. At that time i thought she was pretty, and if I helped her, I could enjoy flirting with her in future.

But it didn’t go as planned. After I was done helping her, I saw her bright smile. “You are very kind you know,” she said. I was thrown back. I was feeling guilty. I tried to explain to her that I am not what she thinks at all. She denied me strongly. To validate her point she told me “When I needed help soooooo much, no body help me. Only you did. So you are kind”. She seemed like a very nice girl and so I decided to retreat myself from playing with her feelings. I guess a trace of humanity was still left in me. I told her “You know, I have many girl friends. One for morning, one for daytime and one for the precious night time.” Then I laughed. She didn’t say anything back, and we went our separate ways.

Thought that was the end of it. But somehow, we met again. I ignored her. Thought it was for the best since after what I said to her, she wouldn’t want to talk to me. That’s what most girls would do. But her “hello” with the same bright smile took me completely by surprise. We had a little conversation and then something amazing happened. My friend who was next to me started teasing us both saying we are in love with each other. While i denied it completely, she made a bold joke out of it. “Yes, we are going out with each other,” she stated and giggled. My friend went on to ask more questions like how far we went with our relationship. Again she made a joke. “We went really far, remember last night what we did together in the bed?” She looked like she was really having fun making those jokes. I was speechless. But, i went with the flow and we completely, out of the blue made up a story about our relationship to my friend. We became close… and I was suddenly happy.

Most definitely, I was falling for her. I made fun of her, teased her and even got her to call me master. I called her toy (lol). I was wishing hard that she wouldn’t break like the rest. I cursed myself for having such twisted personality, but causing her trouble and watching her cute troubled expressions was amazing.

My wishes were granted. She never got pissed at the things I did and kept on following me around. Though I got her into trouble in the first place, I always helped her out of it. It was going great between us until…

I found out she has a boy friend. How did I find out? She came to visit me WITH her boy friend. I watched them hug and cuddle up. I tried to play it cool. I tried really hard. But I was completely broken. “Seems like I’m interfering yo guys. You two should get a room,” I said and dashed out of their sight. I tried to find a calm spot to calm myself down. I ended up to my favorite place on a mountain edge. My mind went blank and I felt like I would burst in tears any moment now. How uncool.

But before I could do so, there she was standing behind me. I was baffled. With feelings of jealousy still lingering around, I said “What are you doing here, done having fun with your boy friend?” She only said “I’m sorry…” I had no idea what she meant by that.

Things got weird after the incident and we didn’t see each other as often as before. Then one day, she told me she broke up with her boy friend. Normally, I would act cool and make a comment like “Why? Did you fall for me? (lol)”. But I didn’t. I was surprised myself. My body acted on its own as I hugged her tightly. She told me “you are the best master ever!” and hugged me back. I told her “Little toy, you are my property so I wont let anyone else have you. And one more thing. If I can’t play with you toy, the whole world will be boring…” shortly, we kissed and I felt like I could die happy.

However that wasn’t the end. Reality is harsh. She had to move to a new place and she barely had time to come online. We were getting further and further apart. Eventually, she was gone from my life and it’s then I felt a massive, massive, maaasive loss.

She was someone who no one can replace, the best girl in the whole world.

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