Me a sucker for love?!

IT ALL HAPPENED IN FALL 2008 right after the Beijing Olympics. I had started getting in shape that spring after years of needing to do so. As I was flipping channels during Beijing this person captures my eyes… this guy was breath taking in a way where it was his eyes that had me glued. I didn’t know who he was or anything. I remember just thinking to myself who are you? So anyways, a month later I was out with a friend for a bit. I wasn’t supposed to be out late because I had my first triathalon sprint to do the next morning. The first bar we wanted to go into was at capacity so I suggested we go around the corner. We start to dance and drink all of a sudden I imagined the guy I saw on tv had walked right passed me. I was certain that it was him but what the hell would he be doing in my town being that it wasn’t the average hot spot for out of towners. I kept dancing I notice him noticing me, we look at each other looking at each other. It was killing me to know if it was him?

I decided to go to the bathroom to do what I do best…google on my iphone images. As I am walking to bathroom someone puts there hands on my waist and introduces himself! It was him! The guy that I had been looking at. He says his name asks me to dance, I said I needed to go to the bathroom but, maybe later. Little did he know I was going to the bathroom to google. I start the google process my heart starts beating fast as I see the images pop, the very name that he introduced himself with showed! No way!!! At this point I didn’t know what to do? I wasn’t drunk, I was not sober. I left the bathroom to do what I thought was my best option. I figured if I got drunk I would make better decision at this point. I start to feel like I better go dance with him before my chance is over. But I needed fresh air to gather my thoughts. I was on my way out when he grabbed me and ask again, I said when I come back inside I will dance with you. So I did just that after a few minutes he greats me with a big hug and we danced all night! He never separated from me! I just could not believe any of it! we exchanged numbers, he wanted to see me before he left. Turns out he was there for a photo shoot. He lived in the east coast, great! Just great!

Anyways it has been 2 years with this Oct 2010. When we met I was not interested in anything serious because I was recouping from a broken heart, so he was perfect. But then I fell for the idea of that story that was real. I figured why not? I will keep in touch until I meet someone new. I felt like the fist year came and went and all I could think of was him and all our new ventures. At the same time I felt like If I didn’t let go maybe I wouldn’t be able to meet the one or atleast someone one in California “of substance” I even signed up online to see if I could get distracted with a pool of men. With my luck you wouldn’t believe what happened. Within a week with online dating crap someone sent me a picture with himself and none other than the guy from the tv that I was trying to forget about to begin with. It was a sick coincidence, as the person was trying to show off ?! That online idea went right out the window for me. I Gave up trying to forget him after he contacted me by text again that week. We started to keep in touch again and I just felt like I needed out because I had fallen for him, and I was not going to be that girl to tell him. Because when a guy falls for you he tells you. So I sent him an email and I said to him that he was an amazing thing that happened to me. Thanks for entering my life, bringing a smile to my face, but it was time to move on with my fantasy life into a real one. Actually the email I sent was rather awesome! It was a story in itself!

I have moved on in life, I am open to love that is open to me and available…I just cant forget all the times that we had shared. Well it doesn’t matter because I feel like I experienced a moment that will always be remembered! A moment in time where the unlikely was likely! The moment where hope was found and love was resurrected in me. If that was all it was, then I am a believer of love. That moment fueled my jets for ever. I feel like in any instant that I think about it, It brings both joy and questions. I have hopes that one day the romance and love that lives within my thoughts comes knocking on my door to find me. The question was am I a sucker for love? The answer is yes! I want to believe in love, I love the word love, the thought of it puts a smile on my face. The feeling of having it in my life , brings a warm feeling to me that nothing else could. Timing is everything, so was the space that separated us, the fears, the uncertainty of the unknown. What Is love… for me it was that very experience that will live In me forever.

(Screen) Name: rylove84