My specil Angel
Posted on : 05-09-2010 | By : Love Story Writer ... | In : Long Distance Love, Romance Love Story
Tags: care, destiny, kismat, Soul Mates, true love, wormth
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when I was 4 yrs old my uncle had rapped me. back then I was only a child so I didnt understand and never told anyone about it and as i grew older i was scared to tell anyone. over the yrs it effected me alot, i would go through periods of time where i was compeltly depressed bt infront of ma family and friends i would act as if nothing was wrong, everything was fine. still act that way and i still havnt told them about it. when i was 15 yrs old, during my summer vications from school i had the wrost attack of my past, i would spend ma whole day and night sitting alone in ma room thinking bout every second of what had happened. As an afghan girl it is seen very bad if u lose ur virginety befor ur married and it brings really shame to the familys name and honer. nowing how much my dad loved his brother and how it would hurt him i thought it best if i found a way to get rid of ma self. one day whielst sitting in ma room ma friend called me saying to make a facebook account so that i could see the piituers of her from her holiday in thiland, so i agreed to it and i made a facebook account, 2 days later i got a request from syed asking me to add him as a friend. the name sounded familer, i was thinking i now dis name very well so i added him and started to chat to him. there i found out that he was one of my friends from ma childhood from back in afghanistan. he was living in pakistan now and studying his 1st yr of uni. we started chatting on msn. becouse we had been such gud firends when we were kids i trusted him alot. he would chatt to me all day long, keeping my mind of my past, slowly i started to feel strong emotions for him. one night when we were chatting he told me dat he had fallen inlove with a girl but was scared to tell her incase she didnt love him bakc and left him. his words cut right through ma heart. i felt angry at my self for thinking bout him in that way, it was obvious someone so sweet, so lovly and kind hearted could never be free. i asked him who the girl was but he wouldnt give me her name so then i asked him what is she like? he said she is so sweet, so inocent. her smile, her laughter is the prettiest sight, and her eyes are the most beutifulliest thing i have ever seen in this world, the say so much. thinking that it was someone else i said to him hun you should tell her how you feel befor it to late, whilest inside ma world was crumbling down. with every passing day that i chatted to him the stornger ma feeling for him got, i was scared that i would be even more cut up by this than i was by ma past. i thought bout not chatting to him but it drove me crazy so i left that idea. one day while i had ma cam on he asked me, do you love anyone and not wanting to spill ma secrite i lied and said no i dont love anyone, i dont belive in love and i hate the idea of it. but some time later, on 28th of agust at exactly 9:15 he said to me, u want to now who i love, well i the girl that i love is you. i was shocked, i didnt now wat to say or do. ma cheeks were balzing red. i could feel every worm emotion all at once. i just told him that i have to go and sighned out on him because i was affried that he was lieing to me. i didnt speak to himf or 2 days, but then i thought he couldnt possibly be lieing to me so i chatted to him and told him how much i luved him. about i month later i told him about ma past, i was scared that after hearing about it he would leave not wanting to have anything to do with a crazy broken up girl but instead he came close to me, he called me every day spoke to me, told me how much he loved me. he was like a bandage for all my wounds, slowly healing every one of them. ma friends say that i cant trust him, it on the net, you never know, but i now i can trust him becouse in ma heart i now how much he loves me. his sister is my mums siter-in-law ( brothers wife) and his dad is her step cousin. his mum and siblings are very close to my family but his dad and his siblings dont get alone with our family, there are big arguments between them, for that resone ma family and his familt dont get on that easily. our families dont now about us and we cant tell them untill i am ready to marry him. the fact that we come from tradional muslim families its making everything alot harder. i kept telling him this that they will never let us be together, that we are just a dream and can never work but he has hope for the futer. if the is one thing i now in this world then that is that i love ma sweetheart more than ma own life and i never want to lose him no matter what.
please pray that i get ma love.
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