I am a woman of principles.When I was young,I told myself that whoever will be my first boyfriend will be my husband. During my college days,I never entertained suiters, a lot of boys failed, eventhough I do have crushes on them, because I wanna stick to my principles. Right after college we had experienced financial difficulty, by that time I met a man whom I thought could be the answer. We get along very well. He is really a fine man.I can’t say any bad things. He loves me so much. To prove that he left his country and ignore the warn of his family just to be with me. He became my first boyfriend. He asked to marry me and I said yes, even my parents object because he is a Muslim and we are Catholics. We get married in Muslim civil way. I love him and we had one baby boy. But since he is a foreigner to my country he can’t get job yet unless given a permanent visa. I was the one working for a living. It became hard so I decided to go abroad. He stayed in my country to wait for his visa. During my work abroad, i met this guy(single) who instantly got attracted to me. He started flirting, but since I’m married, I did not show interest. He wanted to meet me but was not pursued. We lost communication for four months. Then one day he called me. We started to become friends (before I was hesitant, but had given him a chance this time). We meet and became close. I started to see his personality and views in life. He courted me again. He said he likes me so much and he was like addicted to me. He admitted that of all the ladies he met I am among the three he felt so inlove (first was to his first girlfriend, second to his wife). It was then I knew that during those few months we lost contacts He went back to our country to get married to his 8 years girlfriend. I got hurt,I don’t know why, but I felt jealous. It was then that I realized that I was inlove with him. He was kind of my soulmate, we shared a lot of things in common. I have seen a lot of attributes in him that I really liked. I told him that we can only be friends because we are already married. But deep inside,I love him more than my husband. He kept on telling me, that if I only had given him a chance when we first knew each other he would have not decided to get married and If I was also single and not married, He would have chosen me to be his wife. Now things had crushed on me, coz if I hadn’t decided to get married earlier, I would have been with this guy, whom I felt is my soulmate. I was once told by a fortune teller that my husband isn’t my soulmate. It is someone from the northern part of my country and is of the same nationality. Right now, we remained to be friends. And it is only time who can tell if in the future we can be together as lover (husband and wife). I really wish. It is my ultimate dream.

As of the moment, my husband is planning to go back to his country because it had taken a very long time for his permanent visa. He is only waiting for me to come back so we can formally arrange everything.

And with regards to my man (soulmate), he last told me that they had difficulties now with his wife. He had given me a hint that they might be parting ways too.

I am only praying that if God would give me a chance to be with my soulmate, in due time, He will do it his way. I will not make any extreme things that would lead to hurting his family and my family. For now all I can do is love him from distant.

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