Story starts in the year 1995, when I was six years old. I am one of the lucky girls from our middle class hindu family who was sent to a boarding I.C.S.E. school. The same year a Christian boy with his younger brother came to study in the same school.He was Vivek (Changed name).Luckily we stayed in the same hostel for five years but we never talked with each other just admired each other.
In 2003 I discovered my feelings for him.I was then in class 9th and he was in 10th.He was someone who used to talk very less to girls, was very popular student as he always stood first in his class. I was not so studious like him but used to get good marks.Maybe that was infatuation I thought, but I used to follow him everywhere with my friend during recess hours.Though I was too crazy about him I never even talked to him.I joined various clubs in our school just to stay closer to him. During this period I noticed that he too looks at me as I was really good looking during my school days.Year was over, he completed his 10th and left the school. But his memories were still on my mind. I thought if my love was true he will surly come to me,if not it was just an infatuation.
After six years, I was in my first year MBA, I met him in Orkut. I sent him a friend request and asked him if he knows me? He replied and showed too much interest in me.He told me that he admired me in schooldays and wanted to talk to me but didn’t because of some situations. After few weeks I confessed to him in chats that I used to like him in my schooldays. He replied that this is not new to him as he is aware of my feelings and he said why I hid this from him for so long.Once he came to visit me from Mumbai.He was then studying in Mumbai.After seven years when I met him, I was too much confused. I felt that this is not the one whom I liked, he was too much changed. Then I decided not to talk with him anymore. I disconnected his calls for many days, even did not replied to his messages.But after some days I felt very bad for him and thought I should not go on appearance as he is the same guy whom I have been liking for years.Then we were in contact in facebook and continued with our long night chats.Till now he has not proposed me nor did I but our talks were very similiar to GF/BF talks.He shared all his problems and his secrets with me.In 2011 I was about to complete my MBA. My parents were looking for a guy for my marriage. I thought I should clear with vivek about our relationship, since we even had kiss in our chats and still we are not into any relationship. I thought of proposing him and did so….THE TIME WAS WRONG OF COURSE…He was too tensed regarding his placements and started ignoring me…He told we are from different community and this is not possible..don’t know why but I didn’t felt bad..not even 1%…After that we had some formal chats for few days..I got a good job but he is still struggling…He told to some of his friends who are my friends too that he just treated me like a normal friend….but still I’m behind him ( acc. To him).….We are still friends in facebook but rarely chat…Though I pray for him but don’t feel bad that he rejected me…But I have one question If he does,nt love me why he asked for kisses..which like a fool I accepted….If I was in love then I should feel bad,or am I strong enough not to feel bad for a guy who just used me as his timepass????Was it Love?

(Screen) Name: Anisha

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