It was the summer before my freshman year in high school and all my friends and I could think about was parties and boys. We spend most of the summer out dancing and having fun, meeting tons of new people. I was in the middle of an on and off relationship that was mostly build up on drama. I knew I had to get away but I never knew how. That was until the ending of July, when I met him. Mike(let’s call him that) was a part of my brother’s soccer league and a close friend to my brother as well. To this day I dont remember seeing him much around the house though later he admitted he’d always sneak a peek at me when he came over.
One day, my brother’s soccer coach has a pool party at his house out in the country to celebrate the team’s season. At first, I was in the worst mood ever since I wanted to be with my friend’s, not at my brother’s party. At the party though, I found myself with one of my brother’s teammates, let’s call him Joe, that my close friend had wanted me to date. We flirted here and there and he asked me then if I wanted to go swim. I agreed and cam right back outside after changing into my bathing suit. That’s the first time I really noticed him. Mike was my height, built with nice, toned muscles and when he smiled, wow did it take make my heart skip beats! He was very handsome and through the whole party we never stopped talking.
Over the weeks, we talked online and soon started texting. He was the kind of person I could easily open up to and trusted instantly. We talked almost every day, but when school began we grew kind of distant. However, he one day surprised me out of the blue by walking me home. He ended up staying over at my house for hours talking with me and my grandparents which where over to visit during that time. We then spent almost every second together, including a memorable Halloween. We became best friends and were practically joined at the hip. He knew my deepest secrets and our bond only grew stronger when he finally opened up to me. My boyfriend though, wasn’t to happy about our frienship.
I never knew when we broke up or where together. My boyfriend, lets call him Ryan, woul break up with me for the dumbest reasons including for not calling him or not being able to see him even though he knew I wasnt allowed to date. By the end of November, we began to fight almost every day. I no longer felt the same feelings for him and I caught myself wishing I was with Mike more than with him. I’d lie to hangout with my friends just because all he ever wanted to do was fool around. The breaking point was when he lost his temper and almost hit me at school during our lunch period. He was angry for me not going along with what he wanted to do when all I wanted was to talk. I felt so much anger inside of me, so I grabbed my bag and left. I was done, but only for some time.
As with Mike, I began to realize that I had developed strong feelings for him. I cared about him deeply and I admitted that I was attracted to him. But was he to me? A girl’s instinct always knows and even though I knew he liked me, we never said a word about it. Ryan was still trying to contact me, pleading to get back together but something inside of me said not to. But no matter what I told myself, I ended up going back to him for reasons unknown. I knew I didn’t have feelings for him as I used to and all i could think about was Mike. Days later, through the wonders of technology I found out that Mike confessed to one of his friends that he liked me. The encouragement I needed. We ended up confessing to each other how we felt but it didn’t change that I was still with Ryan.
I remember we were walking back from Carols, a burger joint by the highway, with my sister skating in the front of us. Mike has his arm around me and I had one arm around his waist. It was dark, and we walked quietly. A feeling in me somehow made me look up and I found myself kissing Mike. I instantly melted into him, but like any other bratty sister would do, my younger sister interrupted us. However, that small moment helped me realize that I needed to get out of the relationship I was in and broke up with Ryan days later. Mike knew I needed time before I could date again and he waited paitently. Ryan though, wouldn’t have that. One day after school, I found myself looking back as Ryan pushed Mike, trying to start a fight. Mike’s friends flooded in, holding Mike back while Mike and Ryan cursed at each other. I stayed in shock for a while but afterwards, Mike calmed down and took me into his arms as I cried and repedeatley apologized to him, even though it wasn’t my fault. After the incident however, things went back to normal and Ryan seldomley bugged me. By February, Mike had asked me out and everything was great. He was a sweetheart and a complete gentleman in every way. I don’t know what it was though, that drove me back to Ryan.
Maybe it was the fact that he didn’t seem to care anymore. I mean, I had given him a year of my life and he didnt care? For no real reason, I left Mike after only a month of being together to go back with Ryan. At first, I though we had a chance again but after a while I noticed how I just didn’t feel the same. I realized that what I had needed was closure from Ryam and quickly ended things with him. That didn’t mean however, that I went crawling back into Mike’s arms.
Even his friends told me that I had hurt him badly. They told me to stop playing games with him but they would never understand that that wasn’t my purpose at all. After a couple of days, we went back to being best friends and just that. Mike seemed fine but I knew he wasn’t. I don’t know how it happened and later learned where it came from but on a day in late March, as Mike was leaving my house, he grabbed me into his arms, kissed me gently and asked me to go back with him again. The words couldnt come out fast enough to say yes and after talking things out, we decided to not count the break up and continue on like nothing had ever happened. As charming as he was, he was also forgiving.
Now, we barley celebrated our one year anniversary. He took me out to dinner and we remeniced on our relationship. We’ve had our ups and downs through it all but we’ve made it through. We’ve both stayed faithful, have holded off hacing sex until marriage, and I can truly say I’m in love with him. As juniors in high school, many people say that we wont make it, eventually will break up and that we dont know what true love is. But the feelings I have can’t even be explained through words. When you know it’s right, it’s right and I know that the search for my prince charming is finally over. After all, he wouldn’t have proposed to me if he didn’t think so either(;
(Screen) Name: Alma A.
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