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The Notebook (The Story of My Life)

Posted on : 23-09-2012 | By : Love Story Writer ... | In : Lost and Love, Romance Love Story

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So I just got done watching The Notebook, one of the happiest, saddest, realest love stories ever invented. The love Noah & Allie share is so genuine, and unconditional. I can’t help but wonder if there’s a love like that that out somewhere for me. I know I’ m young and shouldn’t be rushing into things like eternal love but I can’t help it. I can’t help the fact that every moment of every day I think about that kind of love, the love that I can only even remotely think about sharing with one person. He knows who he is, I think. It’s sad because there are only two men in this whole world that I think I could ever love unconditionally, but they’ve both failed me. One of them is my father. He died when I was eight. I wasn’t even fully aware of everything in life especially not love when he died. They say a fathers love is the strongest love, but what happens if you never experience that? Well I guess that’s why people find someone to love and spend the rest of their life with, as a spouse. The second failed love is, my, well everything. Or at least he used to be. We’ve known each other for about 5 years, but it feels like I’ve known him forever. When we started going out, I was the happiest I think I’ve ever been in my life. But somewhere along the road we lost our way, and my heart got broken. I don’t even know how it happened or how it went wrong but it did. I thought I could find my way back to him but it’s hard when the person isn’t trying to find their way back to you. Sometimes I just wonder if love even really exists. I mean of course it does but why is it so hard to come across? Why do people have to go through so much pain to get the love they want, need, and deserve? I know God is supposed to be our everything, and we are supposed to find everything in him, including love. But sometimes that’s not enough, it’s hard to feel the love when no one is right there standing beside you, touching you, talking to you, listening to you, if you can’t see them, how do you know they’re there? I believe in God and that he is omnipresent and is around me at all times but sometimes my flesh needs the earthly love of a man. So what are those of us with no love supposed to do? Do we just live life knowing there isn’t any love for us? Do we pretend to feel loved but deep inside all we feel is pain and abandonment? Or do we just keep fighting for the love we know is out there but may take a lifetime to find?

(Screen) Name: Jizzy Jay

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The Unresolved Examination of Love

Posted on : 21-07-2012 | By : Love Story Writer ... | In : Lost and Love, Romance Love Story

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It was a Birthday of his girlfriend and he planned a surprise visit to her crossing 2000 miles across the country.
A surprise by which the lovely couple spent long time hand in hand, as they were more than anything for each other.
The top majesty God watching the story smiled and decided to test their love.

As soon as the Boy returned to his orginal destination. There was a quarrel in his profession.
No salary for next 3 months, work or leave. The boy was in a bad mood, how to pay the EMI of education Loan,
how to pay the rent, what to eat and savings !!! Thoughts terrorising every moment. He was about to speak about
this to his girlfriend. with this conversation on phone ” Did you had ur Dinner ?”
The girl anxiously shouted… “what do you want, how do you care for me just by asking for dinner. I need a job, I have no time left tojust think about what to eat.
Parents forcing to return and I am unable to get anything.”

With two drops of tears the guy couldn’t speak anything and put the phone down.
Soon the girl realized what she did and she called back and said “Sorry”.
But this time, the guy yelled and there was a kiosk… God smiled again.
Things never got controlled after that, They were not speaking to each other since long time.
The girl decided to leave the guy, but the boy was not ready to accept this decision.

After few weeks, the clock was 10.30pm just a day before the boys birthday. The boy eagerly waiting that his girl will return to him as the best ever birthday gift of his life.
It was 11.45pm the Boys friends were ready to celebrate but his eyes were constantly checking the phone. At 11.59pm, the boy was still with phone, no reactions what so ever.
Clock struck 00.00 …….. No call
Tears trembled. Friends caught him before he fell on the ground.
No one aware of what exactly happened. But there was no call.
The guy looking at the photograph of his beauty in his laptop, crying, speechless, sleepless…
The other side, girl standing with the same situation in her balcony, crying wishing his moon “Happy Birthday Baby”… m sorry.

The day began, boy with a whole night of frustration called his girl, standing on the roof top. “Final Question Are You Coming Back Or Not”
Girl said “No”. The Boy cut his wrist with a broken piece of axe. Guy Questioned again “Now are you coming, this time i will jump off”
The Girl put the phone down and within few minute her mother called the Boy. A great discussion went on.
Boy said sorry for everything on his own Birthday, cried more then ever in his life of 28 years. The girl was actually hiding her face of tears, pretending she is a different girl now.
Day past on. Girl not ready to return, Boy ready to die any second alone now. It was 11.45pm The day is gonna over. The boy crying still looking on to his mobile.
At 11.55pm, Boy was in the arms of his friend crying when the mobile ranged. Yes it was the Girl.
The Boy started all again, with apologies and all and the girl accepted when it was about to end the day.

Few days passed, life was not so easy for the both the love birds. Girl searching for Job, and always asking his love to be here with her so that we can be together and live happily,
Boy trying to cope up his life without penny. Both frustrated, Both wana meet, but no money with either to come.
Girl trying her hard luck, frustrated said to the boy one day
“See I am a different Girl now, You will be unable to accept me what I am today, I am jobless and just because of you I am unable to get any one, Its better for us to stay away”

Before continuing, a small question… Did we ever thought, why the Girl is reacting like this when she too cry for her love when she is alone and why the boy has become so possesive and violent ??
Its all together the frustration being developed in their individual lives. They need each other but bound to stay a apart. Both of them have some negative qualities.
“Boy with his Anger, Girl with her Frustration” and the almighty targeted their love with their negativities for Testing.

Boy after hearing this, as usual reacted… less of violent but more of control. He said, this is not justified to blame.
Having a great past memories of 3 years were blowing as the days were passing. Boy started accepting everything from her. Cried thoughout the nights but didn’t responded.
He was not being calm but he was wearing the sheet of calmness which was controling him. The talks were almost no no between them. The boy do message her but the girl didn’t replied any of those.

One fierce day, the Girl replied… “Got the Job joining on Monday”.
Boy after reading smiled and replied… “Congrats and Be Happy Now”. It was a day among the best Happy days for both of them. But still both were speechless.
What they actually want from each other. No one can ever know.
Girl expecting a good reaction from his love received another message.
“As I am out of your life, your dreams are coming true, Good luck and be Happy and bla bla….” the girl cried and replied “You will never ever change yourself and your negativities…” and started the flames of blames again.

The boy was silent but could not control himself on a point since she has the job now, everything can be resolved but still she is blaming.
A word war with all sort of words… bad, worse, worst etc all were in… a battle of tears for both of them faught.
The Boy then declared with anger in full swing, your job is not your job. Its a gift purchased, keep it with you. The girl was stunned.
The Boy then declared your salary package, your designation, your reporting authority… everything was known to him. The girl was quiet with no earth below her feet.
The girl put the phone down, doesn’t know how to react. It was no Love, it was now a battle to give reply or does she deserve a gifted job while she cannot get one by proving herself !!!
The girl with tears called the Boy, Tell me the truth frankly, if you have realy buyed the job I will leave it right now…
The boy was confused but full of thoughts.
….Its gonna be a year now for her without a job,
….if she leaves it the frustration will grow exponetially,
….professionally the market is gonna close the hiring soon,
….this company will not allow her to appear again,
….he will loose her forever.
The Boy replied “No”,”I was telling lies, its your effort, its your job. To get you back in life i said that but dont leave the job as it is yours, only yours.”
And the chapter of love was almost closed after this incidence. The Boy cried a lot and the girl joined the Job.

Seeing all this, the almighty thought, this was actually not planned, why is this happening. The examination of love should have ended by the episode of job and they both should be happy now.
Need to look into this
The Boy started loosing his health, he became a patient of unconsciouness, low haemoglobin but he kept it with him. When the reactions of his health were seen by his friends… They asked “Whats Going On ??
He replied with a smile… I am in Love…
While driving a bike with tearfull eyes, the boy met with an accident and was taken to hospital, just a muscular strech nothing else.
A good friend visited his home after hearing the accident and forced him to get the things out of his mind. The boy explained
“No explanations required, I am a patient of love and no other disease i have, doctor says I have very low immunity of Blood Clot in my body, a single cut and the blood will flow like an unstopable tap”
The friend immediately went to the doctor and asked, What is the reason of his illnes of disimmunity ?
Doctor replied, Your dear friend gave 2 units of blood in 48 hours to a patient of kidney dilasys who require fresh blood. He did so because he was in urgent need of money.
We recommended him Not to do because of Low BP issue but he never listened and said it is to save his own life.”
The friend returned to the boy’s home where he saw a man taking some money in his pocket and boy bidding him thanks and hugs.
The friend with his anger asked “Who the man was whom you have given the money ? Can you explain me in detail, for what money is required ?”
Boy said “No explanations required from love, it is just a small amount to get a gift for my life and I am happy to present it. No matter the result is, am happy i took some amount from this person and i have returned it to him”
Friend said “Do not hide anything for the sake of ur love, tell me”
Boy explained ” Yes I got her gift by paying the amount which was out of my limitations. I had a saving collected since last six months to meet her, got some amount from the money lender on interest, the rest by selling my blood and i have no regrets to this
and I am ready to stay away as she want because if i’ll be with her, i wont accept the changes in her as she is not the one whome i loved but the sole remains the same and she is there in my dreams, I commited many mistakes in my life, gave her tears with no reasons. Its a curse on me to stay away from her
and I will stay away to let her life happily. Time will move and I will move with my dreams and if any how God feels that my curses are over I will surely get my Love back.

Time moved on, the boy onto his profession, now an all time thiest praying to god daily for an hour, no salary yet since six months now. Cannot pay the EMI of his loan, didn’t attend the calls from Bank and one day has to attend one when the bank called in office landline.
He was warned for the Police FIR and case registered for non payment of EMI’s and need to clear all the EMI’s within a week. Boy head’s down and discussed the issue with one of his Teacher, remembering his love and praying god for his love may come back and keep her hand on his hand to generate some power to face all this, but all in vain.
Days passed, Nothing can be done, Boy was just waiting for the blast from Bank and sooner the day came. Police and bank officials in office, the manager called him, not to be in office as they are in no mood of talks and will take you to cell.
Helplessly, Boy just cried, waiting for the people to come in and take him to cell as he droped all his hopes, but they didn’t appeared at his home. Next day morning the Police came in and called the Boy downstairs. They yelled like any damn cop style in the chamber of 3rd degree only didn’t used the physical haressment.
Gave the warning of next 24 hours and left. Collecting the pieces of himself the boy entered his room and saw his roomate on phone and make out that it is his Girl Friend taking the feedback what is going on with him. He could not control again.
He slapped his roomate, took the phone and shouted like hell out, what do you want now. Aren’t you happy now with your life. You are responsible for my situations, stay away and watch the music playing, in case more blood required from my body, Come and take it.
She replied I called up because the roomate messaged that you are in such a situation, but you and your anger will never change. you will not accept that I am happy with my friends, was planning to give you some time and by 3-4 months I will be back to your life, But You need money you will get it. Now dont even feel of any chances of us getting together.

Things were silent, tears blowing everywhere. What to do and what not… no one know. Boy need his life, Girl need changes in him when she has changed her way of thinking. Gift and circumstances of Boy were meaningless.
The Boy with only his moment of legs went to a temple near by and sat there. Asking the reason to god of this Examination of Life which Started from Love and now after his life, He kept on praying for his love, praying for his situations, praying for his mistakes, praying to get the evil out of his life so that he can live with his love if possible any more else, take his life now.
All mighty watching everything happening send his teacher. Boy “Go to Bank and take this amount to pay the pendings right away and clear it”
The Boy couldn’t speak anything but after 3 hours sitting in temple praying and crying, the Boy was with a different mind of acceptance and hope. He came to the temple after deciding to gave up his life but now the time has changed.
He went back to his home. Next morning paid the amount to bank and left for his Job. With a new spirit of life, keeping the heart full of tears behind went for his job after facing the crucial police drama and after yet another blast fight with his love which is now over.

The Boy enetered the office and with in 15 minutes, the manager called him, he went to speak to the manager and the manager declared… You need to get yourself relieve from your job Today. I am sorry for this decision, but company is unable to give you any salary and dont want to be responsible for your crisis.

The Boy speechless and smile with tears came out of office. Still couldn’t decide but now feeling like flowing into a wind of vibrations. Couldn’t hear anything, but still the voice of love passing by his ears. Eyes watching surroundings but can look his parents, sister and his Love calling him towards them.
His imagination power was disrupting the feeling of psychatric patient. He was more of smiling then bearing the pain and tears. It is now a usual fact of curse running right behind him. Some super natural evil which is spoiling every bit of his life but the other side god helping him to come out of it.
This Story yet requires an end and the game of almighty yet requires a completion to this love story full of Hates and Dislikes.

(Screen) Name: akki

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The Unresolved Examination of Love

Posted on : 21-07-2012 | By : Love Story Writer ... | In : Lost and Love, Romance Love Story

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It was a Birthday of his girlfriend and he planned a surprise visit to her crossing 2000 miles across the country.
A surprise by which the lovely couple spent long time hand in hand, as they were more than anything for each other.
The top majesty God watching the story smiled and decided to test their love.

As soon as the Boy returned to his orginal destination. There was a quarrel in his profession.
No salary for next 3 months, work or leave. The boy was in a bad mood, how to pay the EMI of education Loan,
how to pay the rent, what to eat and savings !!! Thoughts terrorising every moment. He was about to speak about
this to his girlfriend. with this conversation on phone ” Did you had ur Dinner ?”
The girl anxiously shouted… “what do you want, how do you care for me just by asking for dinner. I need a job, I have no time left tojust think about what to eat.
Parents forcing to return and I am unable to get anything.”

With two drops of tears the guy couldn’t speak anything and put the phone down.
Soon the girl realized what she did and she called back and said “Sorry”.
But this time, the guy yelled and there was a kiosk… God smiled again.
Things never got controlled after that, They were not speaking to each other since long time.
The girl decided to leave the guy, but the boy was not ready to accept this decision.

After few weeks, the clock was 10.30pm just a day before the boys birthday. The boy eagerly waiting that his girl will return to him as the best ever birthday gift of his life.
It was 11.45pm the Boys friends were ready to celebrate but his eyes were constantly checking the phone. At 11.59pm, the boy was still with phone, no reactions what so ever.
Clock struck 00.00 …….. No call
Tears trembled. Friends caught him before he fell on the ground.
No one aware of what exactly happened. But there was no call.
The guy looking at the photograph of his beauty in his laptop, crying, speechless, sleepless…
The other side, girl standing with the same situation in her balcony, crying wishing his moon “Happy Birthday Baby”… m sorry.

The day began, boy with a whole night of frustration called his girl, standing on the roof top. “Final Question Are You Coming Back Or Not”
Girl said “No”. The Boy cut his wrist with a broken piece of axe. Guy Questioned again “Now are you coming, this time i will jump off”
The Girl put the phone down and within few minute her mother called the Boy. A great discussion went on.
Boy said sorry for everything on his own Birthday, cried more then ever in his life of 28 years. The girl was actually hiding her face of tears, pretending she is a different girl now.
Day past on. Girl not ready to return, Boy ready to die any second alone now. It was 11.45pm The day is gonna over. The boy crying still looking on to his mobile.
At 11.55pm, Boy was in the arms of his friend crying when the mobile ranged. Yes it was the Girl.
The Boy started all again, with apologies and all and the girl accepted when it was about to end the day.

Few days passed, life was not so easy for the both the love birds. Girl searching for Job, and always asking his love to be here with her so that we can be together and live happily,
Boy trying to cope up his life without penny. Both frustrated, Both wana meet, but no money with either to come.
Girl trying her hard luck, frustrated said to the boy one day
“See I am a different Girl now, You will be unable to accept me what I am today, I am jobless and just because of you I am unable to get any one, Its better for us to stay away”

Before continuing, a small question… Did we ever thought, why the Girl is reacting like this when she too cry for her love when she is alone and why the boy has become so possesive and violent ??
Its all together the frustration being developed in their individual lives. They need each other but bound to stay a apart. Both of them have some negative qualities.
“Boy with his Anger, Girl with her Frustration” and the almighty targeted their love with their negativities for Testing.

Boy after hearing this, as usual reacted… less of violent but more of control. He said, this is not justified to blame.
Having a great past memories of 3 years were blowing as the days were passing. Boy started accepting everything from her. Cried thoughout the nights but didn’t responded.
He was not being calm but he was wearing the sheet of calmness which was controling him. The talks were almost no no between them. The boy do message her but the girl didn’t replied any of those.

One fierce day, the Girl replied… “Got the Job joining on Monday”.
Boy after reading smiled and replied… “Congrats and Be Happy Now”. It was a day among the best Happy days for both of them. But still both were speechless.
What they actually want from each other. No one can ever know.
Girl expecting a good reaction from his love received another message.
“As I am out of your life, your dreams are coming true, Good luck and be Happy and bla bla….” the girl cried and replied “You will never ever change yourself and your negativities…” and started the flames of blames again.

The boy was silent but could not control himself on a point since she has the job now, everything can be resolved but still she is blaming.
A word war with all sort of words… bad, worse, worst etc all were in… a battle of tears for both of them faught.
The Boy then declared with anger in full swing, your job is not your job. Its a gift purchased, keep it with you. The girl was stunned.
The Boy then declared your salary package, your designation, your reporting authority… everything was known to him. The girl was quiet with no earth below her feet.
The girl put the phone down, doesn’t know how to react. It was no Love, it was now a battle to give reply or does she deserve a gifted job while she cannot get one by proving herself !!!
The girl with tears called the Boy, Tell me the truth frankly, if you have realy buyed the job I will leave it right now…
The boy was confused but full of thoughts.
….Its gonna be a year now for her without a job,
….if she leaves it the frustration will grow exponetially,
….professionally the market is gonna close the hiring soon,
….this company will not allow her to appear again,
….he will loose her forever.
The Boy replied “No”,”I was telling lies, its your effort, its your job. To get you back in life i said that but dont leave the job as it is yours, only yours.”
And the chapter of love was almost closed after this incidence. The Boy cried a lot and the girl joined the Job.

Seeing all this, the almighty thought, this was actually not planned, why is this happening. The examination of love should have ended by the episode of job and they both should be happy now.
Need to look into this
The Boy started loosing his health, he became a patient of unconsciouness, low haemoglobin but he kept it with him. When the reactions of his health were seen by his friends… They asked “Whats Going On ??
He replied with a smile… I am in Love…
While driving a bike with tearfull eyes, the boy met with an accident and was taken to hospital, just a muscular strech nothing else.
A good friend visited his home after hearing the accident and forced him to get the things out of his mind. The boy explained
“No explanations required, I am a patient of love and no other disease i have, doctor says I have very low immunity of Blood Clot in my body, a single cut and the blood will flow like an unstopable tap”
The friend immediately went to the doctor and asked, What is the reason of his illnes of disimmunity ?
Doctor replied, Your dear friend gave 2 units of blood in 48 hours to a patient of kidney dilasys who require fresh blood. He did so because he was in urgent need of money.
We recommended him Not to do because of Low BP issue but he never listened and said it is to save his own life.”
The friend returned to the boy’s home where he saw a man taking some money in his pocket and boy bidding him thanks and hugs.
The friend with his anger asked “Who the man was whom you have given the money ? Can you explain me in detail, for what money is required ?”
Boy said “No explanations required from love, it is just a small amount to get a gift for my life and I am happy to present it. No matter the result is, am happy i took some amount from this person and i have returned it to him”
Friend said “Do not hide anything for the sake of ur love, tell me”
Boy explained ” Yes I got her gift by paying the amount which was out of my limitations. I had a saving collected since last six months to meet her, got some amount from the money lender on interest, the rest by selling my blood and i have no regrets to this
and I am ready to stay away as she want because if i’ll be with her, i wont accept the changes in her as she is not the one whome i loved but the sole remains the same and she is there in my dreams, I commited many mistakes in my life, gave her tears with no reasons. Its a curse on me to stay away from her
and I will stay away to let her life happily. Time will move and I will move with my dreams and if any how God feels that my curses are over I will surely get my Love back.

Time moved on, the boy onto his profession, now an all time thiest praying to god daily for an hour, no salary yet since six months now. Cannot pay the EMI of his loan, didn’t attend the calls from Bank and one day has to attend one when the bank called in office landline.
He was warned for the Police FIR and case registered for non payment of EMI’s and need to clear all the EMI’s within a week. Boy head’s down and discussed the issue with one of his Teacher, remembering his love and praying god for his love may come back and keep her hand on his hand to generate some power to face all this, but all in vain.
Days passed, Nothing can be done, Boy was just waiting for the blast from Bank and sooner the day came. Police and bank officials in office, the manager called him, not to be in office as they are in no mood of talks and will take you to cell.
Helplessly, Boy just cried, waiting for the people to come in and take him to cell as he droped all his hopes, but they didn’t appeared at his home. Next day morning the Police came in and called the Boy downstairs. They yelled like any damn cop style in the chamber of 3rd degree only didn’t used the physical haressment.
Gave the warning of next 24 hours and left. Collecting the pieces of himself the boy entered his room and saw his roomate on phone and make out that it is his Girl Friend taking the feedback what is going on with him. He could not control again.
He slapped his roomate, took the phone and shouted like hell out, what do you want now. Aren’t you happy now with your life. You are responsible for my situations, stay away and watch the music playing, in case more blood required from my body, Come and take it.
She replied I called up because the roomate messaged that you are in such a situation, but you and your anger will never change. you will not accept that I am happy with my friends, was planning to give you some time and by 3-4 months I will be back to your life, But You need money you will get it. Now dont even feel of any chances of us getting together.

Things were silent, tears blowing everywhere. What to do and what not… no one know. Boy need his life, Girl need changes in him when she has changed her way of thinking. Gift and circumstances of Boy were meaningless.
The Boy with only his moment of legs went to a temple near by and sat there. Asking the reason to god of this Examination of Life which Started from Love and now after his life, He kept on praying for his love, praying for his situations, praying for his mistakes, praying to get the evil out of his life so that he can live with his love if possible any more else, take his life now.
All mighty watching everything happening send his teacher. Boy “Go to Bank and take this amount to pay the pendings right away and clear it”
The Boy couldn’t speak anything but after 3 hours sitting in temple praying and crying, the Boy was with a different mind of acceptance and hope. He came to the temple after deciding to gave up his life but now the time has changed.
He went back to his home. Next morning paid the amount to bank and left for his Job. With a new spirit of life, keeping the heart full of tears behind went for his job after facing the crucial police drama and after yet another blast fight with his love which is now over.

The Boy enetered the office and with in 15 minutes, the manager called him, he went to speak to the manager and the manager declared… You need to get yourself relieve from your job Today. I am sorry for this decision, but company is unable to give you any salary and dont want to be responsible for your crisis.

The Boy speechless and smile with tears came out of office. Still couldn’t decide but now feeling like flowing into a wind of vibrations. Couldn’t hear anything, but still the voice of love passing by his ears. Eyes watching surroundings but can look his parents, sister and his Love calling him towards them.
His imagination power was disrupting the feeling of psychatric patient. He was more of smiling then bearing the pain and tears. It is now a usual fact of curse running right behind him. Some super natural evil which is spoiling every bit of his life but the other side god helping him to come out of it.
This Story yet requires an end and the game of almighty yet requires a completion to this love story full of Hates and Dislikes.

(Screen) Name: akki

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Do you know what love is?

Posted on : 19-04-2012 | By : Love Story Writer ... | In : Lost and Love, Romance Love Story

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Do you know what love is? True, pure selfless love?
May I please share my experience with you? I would like to say I love you and ask for a brief moment of your existence. A few years back I was truly, selflessly in love but was unable to tell her. Boyfriends came and went and all the while i waited patiently. Over time my love for her grew and I realised that I loved her so, so much, that I didn’t want to be just another boyfriend after others had gone from sight. So I decided to truly be her friend because just being in her presence was enough for me. A short intimate relationship then nothing was unacceptable. So It became my mission, each day, to help light up her lovely face, if I could make her smile each time I saw her, that was enough for me (almost).
She was about to leave forever, so it was now or never. I was crushed to find she was with another. Now maybe I should have kept quiet, but could not. So finally I let it out, “I love you Tania and have for some time, but don’t worry, I love you enough to let you go, I truly hope you love him and hope he knows how lucky he is”. I started saying goodbye then she asked “when did you know you loved me?”. Well! Would this be an appropriate conversation while she was with someone? Who cares! I was dying to tell her. I reminded her of a time we didn’t see one another for weeks and explained to her that I had left in an attempt to forget about her, to ‘move on’, but 8 weeks later it was clear to me, that was never going to happen and ‘absence makes the heart grow fonder’ and I missed her so much that if friends is all we can be then so be it, its all I really wanted anyway. Except now she was leaving. “Why didn’t you tell me?” she asked, When I first asked you out, those 2 or so years ago you said you don’t date clients, so if I was to ask again I felt that would be going against your wishes and I couldn’t start our future like that and as far as I know you haven’t changed your policy regarding clients. I probably shouldn’t have but… I have been waiting… and now your leaving and soon I won’t be a client and could hardly wait until after you left and you have no idea how much I love you Tan… (Tears)… “How much Mark?”. Whoa! “you’re with someone, so it doesn’t feel appropriate to say…with every fibre of my being Tan.” but now the flood gates were open, I couldn’t stop telling her of all the signs pointing me in her direction (if I listed them all here it’s unlikely you would believe me), things from before I even met her (no shit!) that I only realized after I had fallen in love with her, but the most profound moment was about 6 months prior to her departure…
That day, I was positively radiating with love, even without her, life seemed grand. All morning, while working in the factory, I was being watched by a pidgin, It wouldn’t go away, it just kept scrutinizing me and no one else. Finally after lunch I asked it “what do you want?” and it immediately turned its head in the direction of Tania’s work. “Is this about her? Fly if this is about her.” And it FLEW! After working a little longer I looked to the bird and (in my mind) said “Fly like my heart does for Tan.” and I don’t care if you believe me or not but it did a huge loop to loop, far more than I ever expected, wow…5 minutes later again “Fly like my heart does for Tan”. and another loop. I couldn’t believe it 3 out of 3. For a short time I wasn’t willing to try again out of fear it wouldn’t fly and ruin my perfect run, but then I said to myself ‘NO! Is this happening or not?’ so once again “Fly like my heart does for Tan” and yes ‘It was happening!”… Shortly afterwards David, a friend at work, came over to help on the machine, I saw him looking up at the bird and I wondered…”Hey Dave, I can make it fly you know” he gave me an inquisitive look “Watch”, I looked to the bird to realize it was half asleep (squatting, eyes half shut). Oh well, here goes nothing, ‘Fly like my heart does for Tan’…And it wiggled itself up and swooped over us, “See!” I said to Dave and went back to work in the hopes he would say something, but didn’t. I don’t know if Dave saw again or not but I requested and the pidgin flew 3 more times till afternoon break, 8 in a row, it never denied me once and I never asked for a 9th, and of cause I had to go see her, and as I walked down the street I ‘commanded’ (for lack of a better word) 2 more birds to fly like my heart does and they did, wow! When I got to her work she had someone with her so I couldn’t say too much, and was still confined by the No client rule…So I waited.
Tania seemed to believe me as I told her about the bird plus many other similar signs leading me to her and she wanted to hear them all, but she was still with another. “Why didn’t you tell me mark?” “You said you don’t date clients so I couldn’t…until now”. She now, for the first time, seemed interested in me but I was too late…”I hope you truly love one another Tan, there’s nothing more beautiful than Selfless Love” “What’s Selfless Love Mark?”.” Other than me wishing you well with another?” I said “I could cite example” and proceeded to make reference to a number of songs and movies which in my opinion express selfless love, then asked “Would you still love your boyfriend if he wanted to leave you?”, she seemed baffled by the question, “Do you love him enough to let him leave even to the point of wishing him well with another, like I do you? Oh no Tan, you need to be able to love him no matter what, not just when he’s with you, otherwise you don’t truly love him at all.” At this point I started to worry, the idea of selfless love seemed lost to her so I went back to telling her how I felt for her and how I hope she too can experience the beauty of selfless love if not for me then for another… I believe I touched her heart that last day but was too late… “…and if you don’t truly love him, and know you never will, you need to find someone you can and you don’t have the right to lead him on until you find better, that would be selfish, not selfless. and he, like everyone, has the God given right to experience Selfless love, and Tania I pray you find true love, you who have given others this experience deserve to experience it too…” I let her know she can always call me… She never did…
A few months later (while driving) I saw her walking along lovingly with a different man than before and I smiled and wished them all the very best. Then slowly at first, then faster my life fell apart…I didn’t want to continue without her…I lost everything… Unfairly dismissed after 8 years of very hard work, I couldn’t even get a reference even though the boss (Tim D******) said he Would send me one (nor did he send me a separation certificate nor a group certificate come tax time). I had no luck finding another job, I couldn’t pay the mortgage, lost my home, my car died, my cat was run over by a hoon, sold everything, lost everything else. I stored all my files, diaries, photos, clothes, food etc. in a couple of lockers at my old work which they found and now its all gone… I, for the first time in my life, have lost EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. and when I needed it I couldn’t bring myself to ask anyone for 5 cents… and have been homeless now for well over a year, just wandering the earth, almost waiting to die, alone…wondering what am I to do ?…But then late last year (2011), as I was able to find better sources of food, shelter and a few dollars here and there (thanks to hard rubbish and returning supermarket trolleys.). I started having renewed hope and the desire to return to society. Then around mid January I started thinking of her again and realized I could feel that way for another. In fact I should be able to love anyone also displaying selfless love, nothing else matters… Now I don’t know how to explain this but I will try.
A few days later (a couple of weeks ago now) I had trouble remembering the conversation we had on her last day, It was like a dream. To the point I went to bed that night saddened in the belief the conversation never happened…that I had imagined the whole thing… that I never told Tania I loved her and basically cried myself to sleep…. When I woke up the entire conversation had been given back to me crystal clear, like it had been re-loaded into my brain, like it was yesterday! I did tell her…It wasn’t a dream… (even a few days later It felt like we just had the conversation a few days before not a few years earlier…that day is still foggy…WTF!…) But wait there’s more…
Now I was never raised to believe in god but what happened next could be nothing less…I started to buzz with love, more and more…I thought I was nearly about to float…for a short time I could see my life up till now and how everything HAS happened for a reason…The failed relationships…changing jobs…I couldn’t believe it…THIS IS GOD…Of that there can be no doubt…It was way greater than me…To the point (I’m disappointed to say) it frightened me…not scared but overwhelmed…and I pulled away… Now I know that was a mistake…I panicked….But I think God is ok with that, he knows he can have that effect…and I believe he will return to give me another chance now that I am aware of his existence…But for now I think he wants me to share my selfless love for her and him with the world…and that pidgin was god letting me know I was ready for a loving relationship with her…and I made the mistake of rejecting god because things didn’t work out with her…by jumping to the conclusion that a relationship was going to happen…I was ready…She was not…May God forgive me…I know better now…and once you know, you can never forget…

The Meaning and Message I Received
Now I’m no preacher but I know God does exists, however a religion he did not indicate. It is my belief that religion is mans ‘best guess’ as to what God wants, that we all have pieces of the puzzle, we just need to bring them together, to broaden our understanding. May be …its time to update the bible to include more modern examples of God, a bible that better suits our times and current experiences, because right now, it seems, most religions assume that all other religions are going to hell, when I believe they are all following (slightly different versions of) the same thing, and that it is only mans interpretation thats getting in the way. Not God. For now I’m focusing on love because that was the biggest of all my experiences.
Love shouldn’t be a secret. To keep it would be selfish. Your love is for others; share it with all whom need it. If you love them, set them free. If you are rejected, move on, it wasn’t meant to be, your true love awaits, and you deserve better. Patience is a virtue. Love takes time. But don’t wait too long. I shouldn’t of passed up other opportunities. If you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with.
At first I thought the bird could see my love for her radiating like an aura and was captivated by its beauty I believe it was God letting me know I was emotionally ready for a truly loving relationship.
The fact that it worked in front of another proves the message wasn’t only meant for me. I believe I should have asked her out that day, God had given me permission to ask her again and maybe her friend was there to help, so Tan couldn’t just say no.
A public confession of love perhaps…
The truth is always better than not knowing. Take a chance, choice gives us true freedom.
Love is not; Jealous, rude, disrespectful, hate, lust, greed, hurt, pride, sexual etc.
If you are having difficulty expressing selfless love, try loosing hate first, because without hate love can prevail. From a position of pure love, anyone else displaying it is beautiful…Looks and money don’t mean a thing.
Love is; respect, compassion, understanding, generous etc. Without asking anything in return – selfless… If you give your love selflessly, your soul is saved. If you show another how to express true love, so is theirs. If you show them how to show others…Everybody wins. It’s the Domino effect. Who’s next…
I lost more important things than material possessions, Love, faith, hope, even the will to live, and never had to. No one but you can take those beautiful gifts away. Hateful people will try to bring the good down, while Good people try to lift everyone up. (Including the bad). Most people seem to think if they do no harm they are a good person (e.g. Thou shall not steal etc.) WRONG ! That only makes you nutral… In order to be a good person you must do good, otherwise the bad will prevail if the ‘good’ do nothing. The same with love and hate. Haters like to share their hate (misery likes company), So if you know love, you must share it, so that hate can never prevail…

(Screen) Name: Mark Love

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