I’ve heard people with experience say you can’t fall in love at such a young age. Maybe its true but love can hit you at any place, any time in any type of situation. That’s what happened, I fell in love just when I was ten years old. I remember having to switch schools and I’m glad that my parents did that. When I moved to my new school I walked into class hoping that I would fit right in, the moment I walked our eyes met. I never felt anything like it, I thought I was sick because the feeling was so unreal. I remember how he looked with blondish and brownish hair , hazel eyes to match. Unlike me, black hair and brown eyes, we didn’t match but our hearts connected. His first words were his name, he introduced himself before anyone else did. He was my first friend I’ve made at my new school and later became my best friend. He hanged out with me so I wouldn’t feel left out, those were the memories I treasured the most. How he wanted to know about me, how he made me feel special. In an instant he knew how to make me laugh how to make me smile, but I promise that his smile shined more brighter than mine. We hanged out until he was sure I made good friends and for that Im grateful towards him. Even when he had friends to hang out with, he wanted to make sure the new girl had friends as well. But I knew one thing after a single day of hanging out with him, I loved him and in his eyes I knew, my heart knew he felt the same way. But we never ended up together. I’ve always had love rivals for him. A girl named Alejandra and a girl named Brenda. Alejandra was jealous because I took a special part in the heart of the boy I loved. I cant write his name for his own privacy. But his love rivals weren’t the reasons why we couldn’t be together it was because he changed. He always had problems with his family. I never wanted to realize the way he has changed because of the feelings that I’ve had towards him. An event that opened my eyes was how he would bully the boys he would call his friends, the way he gave the people the most hated glare that I’ve ever seen. My question was how could a child begin displaying such hatred towards people and how blind was I? It might of been of the problems with his mom telling him he was not the son of his father or it might of been because he still treated me with the same love and tender I’ve had towards him. The moments I’ve shared with him, the way he defended me, made me laugh or smile. The way he would sleep on my lap, when he let me borrow his sweater, when I sang for him. The way he always grabbed my hands or braided my hair when my mom had no time to do so. The way he complimented me of my singing, my hair, or just being me. That must have blinded me and cause me to reject the ideas of him changing. But all those tender moments stopped after we finished elementary and started middle school, he for the first time avoided my touches and warm looks. Instead he gave me rejections and gave me the glares he gave to everyone else. Maybe because of my nagging and worrying, I caused him to hate me and ignore me. He stopped talking to me and did not bother to contact me once. I sadly accepted that the little boy who I fell for disappeared into the guy who isolated himself. But aside from him not wanting me to bother him I still look out for because even now that Im about to go to a university far far away, I’m still so sadly and stupidly in love with him. I just hope that one day he will recognize all the love and desire I have towards him but if it doesn’t happen. I will still be glad and grateful that he became my first love.

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Hi, My name is Maia and this is my ‘love’ story. . .

His name is . . lets call him joe, 3 years ago me and joe met on a online game called weeworld i randomly came across this website being the bored kid i was so i decided to check it out. I was 12 at the time currently 15, and like i said bored. I’m sure if your a girl you know the hype about a ‘girl’ with guys, they’ll do about anything to get you to like them. I loved the attention i had boys fighting over me left and right haha. . sad right. But soon after about a month on weeworld i met joe he wasnt interested in me no matter how many tricks i used on him * Im the teasing type *So sooner or later i gave up and we ended up being friends . . it still bothered me that he wouldnt fall for my ‘charm’ when it worked on every single guy ive come acrossed on weeworld. But soon i began to fall for him, he was sweet super funny gentlemanly and just so nice. I started thinking about us being together and saying i love you . . and kid stuff. He gave me his twitter, i was gonna follow him but i soon figured out he was older then me by 2 years and pretty freaking hot which i didnt know what hot was at the time haha. All i could think about was he can’t figure out im younger things are going soo good! But suddenly he quit weeworld . . . I was so devastated, thinking would i never talk to him again?? Soon months after he left i tried to distract myself with other online guys. Just talking to them here and there. It did nothing. I still liked the people i talked to not in a love way, some i got into long relationships with its was cute. But not real. THEN all of a sudden i check my messages on weeworld . . guess who? It was joe. I was so shocked and just flipping out he said Hey Maia Im Back ! Did you miss me? Or something like that haha. We started talking again i still really loved him he changed though he was more mature rude and a little perverted and of course i fell hard for it, and i didnt want to believe i was in love with such a jerk so i started being mean to him . . dont ask i have no idea why. He was getting mad that i was being mean for no reason all of a sudden, until i just gave up and told the truth. I said I . . love . . you . . joe . . something cute like that. He was surprised, super shocked he said really? I love you too which surprised me too cause he was so mean to me but he cleared that up and then i mistakenly took that as were dating now! . . stupid move. I was acting all lovey dovey and i said im just glad were finally dating. He said what o.o and yeah yeah i was mistaken and super embarrassed after. So a little later after talking he asked me out i said yesss((; We started talking and being cute and like couple do, one day i noticed he was saying the same stuff he said to me . . the same way with other girls. It broke my heart . . Soon the spark just wasnt there anymore after thinking he probably says the same thing to all those girls and he soon quit weeworld, again without a word. Never saw him again.

Thats when it got really bad i was talking to older boys that were 16 and i was 14 they really liked me cause i was funny and i really liked them. I was getting over that jerk once again by talking to other guys i started lying . . . about my age when they’d ask . . Worst mistake ive ever made. I met this boy named jose he asked if i could make a kik i tried over and over to distract him from kik every time he’d bring it up, but there was no way beating around him asking everyday. I didnt know what to do i told him i’m 16! and i look nothing like a 16 year old at the time. So i looked on twitter for one of my cutest older friends and used it as a profile picture. I thought eh no big deal he’ll never know. . fastfroward a bit  he was friends with one of these girls named winter. He obviously was trynna make me jealous so i went for the bate and asked for her kik and we started talking and she ended up being the same age as me  haha and we became best friends! I told her about joe and she knew him and even . . his KIK! I was like YES YES! Then i remembered im getting over him. . im getting over him. I casually asked for it and messaged him.

Guess what. He didnt even remember who i was. I was trynna test him by saying the girl you dated on weeworld and he started saying a bunch of girls names. So amazed. I ended up telling him my name . . . I just complained for a while lol . . then got over it even though he just up and left without a word . . but i was dating jose at the time i wasnt serious with him even though i acted like i was. . I still really liked him. So i thought should i break up with jose to try things with joe? I couldn’t come up with a answer cause me and jose were ‘serious’ too far to break up serious. Oh my . . that jut reminds me how freaking painful it was breaking up with him. . I HAD TO. . he wanted to talk on the phone he wanted to skype he was literally going to rent a room at one of his uncles house that lives were i am, just to see me. I had no idea of this. . he’d been saving up to get a flight. And he told me when he had enough money cause he wanted to surprise me. Im like WHAT. WHAT. . Hes asking me all these questions like where do you live well go to a resteraunt and movies! AH! I was running out of excuses I tried convincing him no over and over that he shouldnt come but he kept saying its ok, its ok. . . I started falling for him cause everything he was saying had me thinking if it really happened. And i really liked what he was saying we’d do. So . . . . I had to make up a lie . . a lie that i didnt love him.

Behind every mean text, i was actually . . . crying cause i really loved him. We broke up later. . he faught for me tell the very end until he did what he thought would make me the happiest. Cause of all the girls thats hurt him he told me i dont think i can ever love someone again. From what i know hes still single to this day. To know that i caused someone that much pain for love to where they can never LOVE again, kills me.

Enough details. At the time me and jose were together joe and i were talking like normal friends cause i wasnt thinking about him at the time, until me and jose broke up i was super depressed just music 24/7 i’d take my anger out on joe . . i felt horrible. Soon joe figured out i wasnt being mean to him cause of him, and he asked what was wrong and i ended up telling him everything besides the fact the i was lying about not loving him and im not really the girl in the profile picture thats still up . . and he listened to every detail i dont know what it was but after he understood why i was being such a b*ch he started trying to cheer me up and just being super nice. Smh whatever he was doing healed me right up. Now i get why guys try to comfort girls when there vonerable he really impressed me haha, To where, you guessed it i fell for him again. Sooner or later i started trying to work my charms on him and i guess he guessed i was all better * All thanks to him * and went back to being a jerk. I love his . . i dont know loving side! He calls it speaking from the heart. So i slowly tried harder and harder to get him to fall for me showing him my good points ‘and bad’ until we started fighting SO much we’d argue about every little thing and it’d always all come down to one thing. Why do you act this way then? Deep down we both knew we loved eachother but didnt know how to express it. . we were both a bunch of idiots new to love that resolved to anger when we dont understand a certain feeling. Finally the more mature one * Joe * gave in and told me he loved me he really really loved me and explained that hes loved me this whole time ever since we met and that he was just lying about everything about being rude. When we faught we’d say mean things like i dont even like you or we’d stop talking to each other for a couple months but like always i’d come back to him and he’d apoligize and ask for another chance at a friendship. Every time i left he’d say the same thing give me another chance. And i stupidly would . If you were wondering why i left everytime was because I was doing the same thing i ended up doing with jose pretending i dont love him. But he loved me so much he wouldnt give up no matter what i told him . . no matter how much i hurt him he still wanted to talk to me and be with me. Then he started telling me he loves me so much because he can be himself around me and i make him happy. And all he wants is to be together. Every time i came back says something better and better that just steals my heart away. It was killing me just lying to him and making him think i dont love him to were i’d cry. I’m not someone who cries. . So i left, for the last time!. . Is what i thought. I thought i dont deserve to go back i hurt him so much already . . i cant go back! It was the longest 4 months in my life. I finally began to forget about him to were i wouldnt even remember him. Until i watched a freaking love movie! Why did i watch that love movie. Immediatley during the movie i thougt that’d be cute if . . . me and . . . sh*t. After that movie not a day went by that i didnt think of him. Soon after i couldnt take it anymore i wanted to talk to him, and ended up signing in to my old ps3 account * We would play videogames together * Sure enough guess who just happened to be online? Joe. I didnt know what to do i started freaking out again so just got on gta. Immediatley i got a message from him ‘hey’ My heart was beating fast and i replied ‘Hi’ Haha. He said i hate you. Then i said something i dont remember. And he says ‘I miss you.’ Im such a sucker for him but i didnt give in just yet and said What, are you expecting me to say i miss you too ?(: Cause i thought he was just messing with me cause thats what he does and has done before. But his messages didnt change usually after someone says that, they’d be like oh shes not falling for it. He was serious & of course saying give me another chance. And this time i really wanna try at this friendship/relationship. I was like i can finally talk to you again . . but still playing hard to get i said why should i give you another chance? Ive gave you so many and you’ve destroyed every chance and my trust. Of course he fixes it, cause he can fix any problem . . i’m serious. So we play a little gta and i jump on kik and we start talking for a couple days(; Im super happy and in love . . then bam. He starts being more then flirty, which is the part i love most about him when he shows his love. That sweet adorable silly guy(; Which went down the shoot pretty quick. Saying he wants to see my face everyday do you have a snapchat? and I wanna talk to you everyday on the phone and hear you say i love you. Which i told him i cant because i have really protective siblings and if they figured out im talking to a boy i probably wouldnt be able to talk to you anymore. And again he fixes that by saying ‘ Im a tough guy Maia i can handle sh*t etc. . ‘ Omg tooo cute. I had no more excuses so . . I told him i have a secret ive been keeping from you. Fastforward i ended up telling him a lie cause i was to scared to tell him the truth. . I said im dating someone . And i had to make up a bunch of stressful stuff that ive been dating him for 3 months so more then half the time after i left him. Before i told him he promised me nothing would change and i’ll still love you no matter what. I have the feeling he knew somehow i wasnt who i say i am. we’ll talk about that later, but he told me im not going to fight for you if you want to be with another guy you can be with him. . Which for some reason . . . hurt like crazy thinking that it’d finally finally be over after 3 years after all the things we said. Then i thought ‘chance.’ This is my only chance to get him to move on. Make him stop loving me. I dont think i explained this but i know hes serious about us. . he told me I love you, forever, I want to move away somewhere with you. . to me thats a proposal already. But i’ve been LYING to him this whole time about who i really am!. . I cant . . i just can’t bring myself to tell him. If i tell him and he doesnt want to talk to me ever again, if hes disgusted with what i did. . it will definetly destroy me. One half of me is scared of that happening and the other is scared he’ll be okay with the fact i lied to him for 3 years.

Imagine yourself in my shoes right now. . and try to relate. . he doesnt, no he cant stop loving me no matter what his words exactly. The only thing i can do is get him to him move on . . without me. So i took that chance, and showed a convincing attitude that i loved the guy ive been dating for 3 months more then joe. And, it worked.

He said I give up, i cant stand imagaining what you do with another guy. So he gave up.

Shouldnt that be good thing then!. . But i was crying my f*cking brains out while i said Thank you, that makes it so much more easier. Im amazed at how much i can lie.

After he gave up i just didnt feel like talking to anyone and i guess he could tell cause he said why are you so f*cking sad when you dont even love me? How did he know . . i have no idea? Hes my freaking soul mate i swear.

Soon after he cheered me up -_- We cleared things up and i told him i love him not the guy im dating and i want to be with him but we cant. He asked why of course but i still haven’t told him, i just keep saying we can’t or i dont deserve you. Its true i really dont. Hes amazing and all i do is treat him like crap and he still loves me. So right now i kept saying lets just be friends, lets just be friends and he said I wont let you leave no matter what this time i really need you. And wont tell me why he needs me so much?? So he said if it will keep you from leaving me we will be ‘cute together’ i wont accept anything else like friends. So currently ‘I’ am being cute, while hes trying his best to ignore me and ‘act’ cute. I know by now the difference of when hes really meaning something or not. So i’ll play along . . ive been replying hours after seeing his text. Just like him. And giving short but polite replies. Today ive only sent him i think 3 messages and hes sent 4 which i havent replied to the new one hehe. . . i miss him. I miss us.

But i . . have to keep playing along no matter how much it hurts, until hes moved on.

I hope one day you might see this justin.

I love you(:

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It’s funny how the first paragraph of this page says “the love stories from real life are often better then the ones we see on TV or in the movies.” In many ways, the way the romance developed between my fiance and I was SO TV drama-worthy.

I was 16 years old when I met Nick, just starting my final year of high school. We met online, on a dorky anime golf game, of all things. I still find it amazing the things that happened for us to meet, as if it was somehow destined. For one, we met on a ‘tournament’ style match – where up to 30 players verse each other, often quite competitively (no chatting to one another). I rarely played tournaments – I was the social type who liked to play ‘vs’ mode with only one or two players at a time. My fiance, on the other hand, enjoyed tournaments but was extremely competitive and almost always turned off the chat, especially if it was noisy. Neither of us added other players to our friends lists often, and never ones we’d met in tournament matches.

I wish I could remember the exact things we said to each other … if I could go back in time and save that log for nostalgic purposes, I definitely would. As it happened, I remember somebody in the room was talking, and I replied to it jokingly – or maybe he replied first? I’m not sure, but either way, we were messing around with each other and I remember I found him hilariously witty. He tells me that that day, he forgot about getting a high score and just enjoyed chatting with the goofball he’d just met. We added each other on the game, and several months later, on skype. (Let me repeat, this is something we really DIDN’T do).

The attraction, then, was instant. I’d found him intelligent and interesting before, sure, but I suddenly got to see more of him – he was witty, gorgeous, exciting, charismatic, flirtatious and charming in all the right ways. And such an arrogant jerk, too. He was the real-life TV trope – a jerk with a heart of gold. A walking Damon Salvatore from the Vampire Diaries (not that I’d seen that show at this point). I fell in love so fast, so hard, so uncontrollably and against my own will. There was the Pacific ocean separating us, and I was still in high school. And yet he was my first love. I’d never felt anything like it before. The butterflies everytime I saw him sign on, the sweet things he’d say that melted my heart, the things he said that crossed the psychological line and left me uncomfortable and nervous… frustrated and addicted… I felt so boring compared to him. Loving him was complicated and dramatic and powerful. I wish I kept a diary because it was the only time I ever fell in love with someone, and the way those feelings develop, how it takes control of your heart and mind, when you’re in love with someone unpredictable and wild and crazy …

And he was wild and crazy. He was a player, the kind of man women go out with hoping to ‘change’. Although I knew loving him would be the best mistake I’d ever make, I didn’t fully understand him then. I tried. As I got to know him, I realised he had had an extremely difficult childhood and life. He’d been hurt and broken by so many people. I came into his life at the time that he had given up and just wanted to die. He was dating a girl who had cheated on him, hoping that it would give him the motivation to end it all. And that’s where I came in. He tells me now that I was like a candle of brightness in his chamber of darkness, and it excited him and terrified him at the same time. He was enthralled by me, and scared of what would happen if he allowed himself to fall in love with me, or if we got together, or when I finally couldn’t put up with him any longer. He did the cliche TV trope of pushing me away so he couldn’t hurt me.

For months, and months, and months. He’d leave, and come back, push and pull. I was always there, like a lighthouse he could come back to when he needed it. I gave up the idea of being with him – I loved him so dearly, he broke my heart but he made it soar. Never had I missed someone so much or hated someone so much or cared about someone so much. I just accepted that it couldn’t work. He was a reckless, wild spirit who was admittably quite selfish, hot-tempered and often made horrible decisions blinded by strong emotions. He had a serious anger management problem – though he’d never hurt anybody, he had a tendency to break things and self-harm (actually, he had an emotion problem in general – he didn’t get sad, he got heartbreakingly depressed. He didn’t feel anger, he felt uncontrollable rage. He didn’t feel guilt, he felt utter despair and self-loathing.)

In any event, this was TV love. In the movies, the girl eventually breaks through the guy’s shell, he reforms and they get together and everything ends up happily ever after, but this was real life, over the internet and couldn’t be real…

I dated other guys for several years. He continued his toxic relationship until eventually she dumped him for somebody else, which ultimately resulted in a very serious suicide attempt on his part that thankfully failed. We’d stayed in touch during his relationship (sort of, remember the push and pull thing he was so fond of), and as much as the attraction between us was undeniable I’d told him firmly that nothing was going to seriously develop between us while he was in a relationship, no matter how insincere he may have felt towards his girlfriend or what kind of character she was. I was determined not to be any kind of ‘homewrecker’. Still, he flirted with me, but knowing the player-type he was (he flirted with everyone, men, women, himself, his food…) I never took him seriously… it would be years before I found out he truly meant it every time he asked me to marry him.

Several years later, a real-life relationship I was in for almost 2 years fizzled out. There had never been any spark in it. Actually, all the relationships I’d been in so far had no spark – I realised that I was going out with guys, desperately trying to prove to myself that despite how I felt, it was possible to fall in love again, with somebody else. But I never did. I loved my ex, but I was never IN love with him. Still, I was a mess after this breakup – it happened at a bad time in my life, and I felt so alone and in despair… I shut off the whole world, and went into a deep, dark place. I talked to Nick, and nobody else. At that point, we’d had a long time to get to know each other. He stopped doing the appearing/disappearing act a while back, and we’d become fairly close, though he never gave up the appearance of a snarky, arrogant jerk who would never be able to seriously commit to a real relationship. I felt that he had feelings for me.. he’d confided very personal things to me, but I didn’t think the feelings were really genuine or strong. Still, knowing the kind of person he was, I expected him to ‘pounce’ now that I was single again. But he surprised me. Instead of being his usual arrogant, flirtatious self possibly trying to ‘win me over’, he was extremely sensitive, caring, patient and supportive as I slowly crawled out of the deep dark hole I put myself in. And even after he was stil kind and gentle. He never made any crude jokes or attempts of persuasion… just incredibly sensitive, apologetic and kind. It shocked me. After several months, when I was relatively myself again, he confessed his love for me, that he’d always love me, that he thought I was far out of his reach and there was no way in hell I’d give him/us a chance, that as heartbroken as he would be (and was) watching me be with somebody else, he only wanted me to be happy, and that he’d always be there for me and just wanted me to know all this. And that he was deeply sorry for everything he put me through.

I had never ever expected him to sound so humble. For him to pour his heart out to me, to expect nothing in return … and I knew he wasn’t faking it either… but this was huge. I didn’t really respond immediately. I was still a little wary, but his attitude never changed. Well – not entirely true, he did get a bit flirty again but the humility was still there and I’d never seen him so … open and truthful before. Finally, I decided to give us a proper chance. I actually asked him out, and he was completely shocked…

It wasn’t an easy start – as much as we’d gotten to know each other very well, we were still discovering new things about each other, and the first six months there were some fights. But the passion… my God, to be with the one you never thought you could be with, your first love, your best friend and the man of your dreams… the spark never went away (it’s actually still there). I flew out to see him and while we were both afraid our expectations might be too high and we were setting ourselves up for a possible disappointment… he was even better in real life than I had imagined. Our fingers fit in each other’s perfectly. My head rested perfectly on his shoulder – honestly, before him, I thought that was something that only happened in movies. In real life, putting your head on a guy’s shoulder might feel nice and romantic for a couple of minutes but then your neck gets sore and you have to move. But Nick… I fell asleep with my head on his shoulder/chest. He was the perfect height, his eyes the perfect shade of piercing blue, he did everything I had ever needed … he pushed me against a wall to kiss me, he spun me around, he took my breath away… and somehow, the arrogant jerk I fell in love with never quite disappeared either… He was loyal, committed, humble and honest – the only other time he’d been like that was with his first relationship when he was 14, completely innocent … but he was still occasionally snarky, he still had that piercing stare that made your heart stop, he still drove you up the wall and had you cursing his name at 2am like in the Taylor swift songs… but this time he wasn’t going anywhere. He knew his flaws too, and worked so hard to manage them – for me. He doesn’t have an anger management problem anymore – he struggled so hard, harder than he ever had before, to get over his anger/emotional issues. He used to have such a short fuse, and now… recently, while working, a customer grabbed his arm while he was making coffee with scalding hot milk, making him burn himself. He yelped, but was able to keep being polite with her as he dealt with her demands, and although he ranted about it with me later, when I told him that he can’t let people treat him like that, he got quiet and said simply that his job matters more, because he has to save for us to be together, and he can handle anything from anyone for the sake of our future. I can’t describe how massive a change that is … nor had I ever expected to see such a change, much less that I could bring it about…

Earlier this year, he flew out to see me, got down on one knee and proposed. We’re getting married next year, and we still fall in love more and more every day. He still drives me crazy, still gets on my nerves, and still gives me butterflies. He’s changed so much, and at the same time he’s still that self-centered, complicated, slightly uncontrollable bad boy that I fell in love with at 16. He’s my TV romance in real life – whenever I’ve told people this story, they’ve always said to me ‘my god… that stuff only happens in movies… wow..’

I could not be happier 🙂

Oh, and just saying – he really is like Damon Salvatore. This entire clip https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ovQAg70_lms … amost all of Damon’s lines, he’s said to me, nearly word for word (except for ‘hurt someone’). When we actually watched the Vampire Diaries together for the first time and saw this scene… we were both a little bit speechless, to say the least.

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Hi i m ela ..i hve just passed ssc..my love story started in 8th std..frst day our school in 8th std..ek naya ladka aaya dhruv..usne mjh dekha n maine usse..atleast v were freeze fr 2min..later on i didnt pay attention..n continue to enjoy meri best k frnd..abhi hmlog 9 me aagye meri frnd ki class change hogyi or mera koi frnd nhi tha..fir mri ek frnd bani jo already dhruv ki frnd thi to dhruv or mai b frnd bangye..fir meri frnd ne bataya ki
dhruv lyk me since he saw me frst tym..toh i
was completely shock n mjh usse pyar hogya..he ask me out n maine haa boldia..hmlog relationship bhht acha tha pure skul k famous couple..frst bunk,frst date,frst ride..then 10 me hmlog Firse same class me the..sab thik tha.. i was happy but wo nhi tha..to maine uska tution join kia ssc me jisme study bhht imp thi pr maine usko zyada importance dia..picnic me..jaise sab except krti hai ki uska bf usko importance uske sath rahe..maine b except ki..pr it was completely opposite..wo mjh dekhta b nhi..class me b nhi .achanak se wo chane mai uska puri raat wait krti for 1 msg..n usne brk up krdia..brk up k baad mere parent ko pata chal gya unhone bhht mara..pr usne ek bar b mjhse aake pucha nhi ki tm thik ho he ignored fir usne mjhse frndship offer ki n i accepted it..abhi hmlog srf frnd..mai try krrhi hu ki Firse usse bata saku ki how much i love him..mai usse sachi bhhht pyar krti hu..abhi bhi..:'( i love him..aisa to koi book me nhi likha haina ki jisse hmlog pyaar kare wo b hmlog se pyaar kare..:) i still love him…e

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Dear Friends,

me arpita. aj me apni real story ap sab ko batana chahati h. aj kal log sirf another reason k lie pyar mohabbat ki batein karte h. magar meri love kuchh aisi baise nehi h. me jise pyar karti h usk lie akeli rehne k lie decide karchuki h. dekhte h khuda ki kya marji. pls meri story sunk comments dena. kya hoga.

me ek jiddi type ki ladki h. meri behavior bahut buri thi orko lie. or me bahut short temper k ladki thi. me jyada logo k sath bat nehi karti thi ki yaha tak ki apne gharwalo k sath bhi jyada bat nehi karti. harwaqt mujhe akeli rehna bahut pasand thi. or meri jyada frnds nehi the.  jab me graduation pass k meri ek frnd thi best frnd to nehi best frnd se thodi niche waise. ek din me usk ghar gai to wo phone pe batein kar rahi thi usk bf k sath. me usk pass beth k sunti thi. dhire dhire mere man me bhi love karne k man kia. meri man bhi chahne lagi k koi meri bhi bf hota mere sath aise pyare pyare batein karta. ek din meri pass ek call ai. uswaqt meri person phone nehi thi ghar k phone ko. me receive ki ek ladka wrong number me phone lagaya tha. usk sath bat hui. dhire dhire use me pyar karne lagi. fist mohabbat achhi lagti thi. me Hyderabad k hu or wo Punjab k he. fir wo mujhe dekhne k lie bulaya. me usk milne gai. bahut baris ho rahi thi to humdono usk room me chale gaye. fir wo waha mere sath kuchh mis behave karne k lie kosis kia. me waha se ro ro k chali gai. fir sochi k wo to sirf kiss karne k bol raha tha ye to sab chal raha h aj kal itni udas hone k kya bat h. wo bhi syam k phone kark mafi maga. fir meri mood badal gai. sab kuchh bhul k bat ki usk sath. aise me 8 month ho gaya hum sirf ek hi bar mile the. ahiste ahiste mujhe uski bat kuchh ajib lagi usk batein jaise mere sath kuchh galat karne k lie tha. magar me use bahut pyar karti thi. islie ye sab ko avoid ki. 8 month k bad wo aya mujhe milne hum dono park me the uski ek phone ai to wo mere se kuchh dur jake 15 mint batein ki. mujhe thodi doubt hui to me puchhi kiski phone thi bola k office se aya tha. me us waqt kuchh na bol k waha se chali ai. magar meri dimag me usk lie doubt tha. ghar aa kar bahut roi sochi k me kuchh galat kar rahi h kya. koi frnds nehi thi islie kisise share bhi nehi kar pa rahi thi. isk bich mujhe job mil gai. me meri ek school k frnd k sath waha job karne gai. ek din meri dimag me ek idea aya april k mahine chal raha tha. me sochi k use april fool banau. to me  meri frnd k mob. se use phone lagai or meri frnd k boli k bat karo. wo wrong number laga aise bol k bat ki or loud speaker on ki me usk bat suni. fir me usi waqt phone lagai meri phone receive nehi kiya. magar meri frnd jab phone ki to receive kark bat kia. us waqt me bol nehi sakti yaar mujhe kitni takliff ho rahi thi. phir wo meri frnd k bulaya milne k lie. me or takliff she nehi pai boldi k me hu tumhari gf. wo bola k mujhe pata tha me bhi majag kar raha tha. magar me usk bato me nehi ai. wo bahut roya or bar bar phone kar k sorry maga. me use bahut pyar karti thi islie maf bhi kardi. magar doubt harwaqt rehti thi.

ek din achanak or ek wrong number me phone aya. to meri behen receive ki to pata chala k wo usk frnd h. undono me batein ho rahi thi or love bhi ho gaya. mujhe laga k ye bhi ek fraud h. islie use galat sabit karne k lie me meri behen ki frnd k sath bat k. or sare k sare batein meri behen ko sunati thi. magar wo achha ladka tha wo har bat meri behen k mere se pehele bata deta tha. wo mujhse irritate ho kar meri number usk or ek frnd ko de dia. wo bhi akela tha. uski mobile room se koi le gaya tha. use laga k koi rat me apni gf k sath bat karne k lie le gaya hoga. meri number usk pass tha to mujhe phone lagaya bola k meri mobile chori ho gai h ap k pass koi phone kia tha kya is number par. me so rahi thi thik usk bat samajhme nehi pai so mana kark rakhdi. jab me uthi usk pass phone kark puchhi k tum koun ho. wo bola wrong number me lag gai h. I don’t know mujhe uski awaj bahut achha laga. or dil tak aa pahaunchi. use bhi meri awaj bahut achha laga. to hum dono frnd ban gaye. magar me use sare bat bata di meri bf k bare m taki wo mujhe propose na kare ki usk manme koi feelings na aye. mujhe ek frnd ki jarurat thi. to mujhe lagi k yahi he wo.
ye sab hone k 4 days ho gaya. me is bare me matlab meri naye frnd k bare me meri bf k batane wali thi k wo achanak phone nehi uthaya.to me bahut upset ho gai. bahut rone lagi. ye bat ghar me bhi kisk sath share nehi kar sakti thi. ye sab batein meri frnd sonu. uske nam sonu tha. use share ki. or starting se ending tak sab batai to wo ek hi answer dia k kya wo tumse itna pyar karta h jitni tum use karte h. meri muh se kuchh nehi nikla. wo bola wo ek dhokewaj h. wo tumse nehi kuchh or k lie tumse pyar karta tha. use wo sab mila nehi to chhod dia. magar me use bahut pyar karti thi islie bhul nehi pa rahi thi khana bhi thik se nehi kha pa rahi thi. usi time sonu mujhe sambal lia. meri mind k divert kia. magar meri biswas tha k wo jarur phone karega. 1 month k bad usk phone aya. bola k sorry arpita meri accident ho gaya tha islie tumse contact nehi ho pai. mujhe uski bato par jara bhi yakin nehi thi. me use jhuth me bol di k me kisi or se pyar karti h. mujhe bhul jao. or in sab me sonu meri sath dia. use me ahiste ahiste bhulne lagi or sonu se pyar ho gaya.

wo bhi mujhe pyar karne laga. june 13 k hum dono bat kar rahe the to wo mujhe propose kia. meri anko me ansu aa gai uski bat sunk. ha maru ya na. qki pehele kisise dhoka kha chuki h. or ye bhi agar aisa karega to. soch me pad gai. magar andar hi andar me use bepanah chahane lagi thi. islie yes kardi. fir wo jo bat mujhe bataya. meri dil tut k bikhar gai. bola k sayad future me hum dono kabhi saadi kar nehi payege. me boli q? q ki hum dono other caste k the. me thi karan family k or wo barber family k. usk family mujhe accept nehi karege. magar me try karugi unlogo k manane k lie. me bahut roi. mujhe lagi ki meri pao k niche jamin khisak gai. bahut takliff hui. us rat humdono bahut roye qki wo bhi mujhe utni pyar karta tha. aise me subah ho gai. fir me puchhi agar gharwale agree nehi hoge to kya hum bhag sakte h. wo mana kia bola k me aise kuchh nehi karugi magar dekhege god k kya marji. fir hum dono batein kia. mujhe laga k usko pa k me puri ho gai. or kuchh nehi chahiye meri life me.

ek din uski behen mere sath bat ki. boli k tum meri bhai k kya lagti h. mujhe pehele se malum thi k sonu meri bare me sab kuchh bata dia h apne ghar me. islie me boli sonu tum kuchh nehi bataye apni behen k. isi bat se wo naraj ho gaye. ph kat dia. mujhe pata nehi tha yahi ek answer meri jindagi ko dukh se bhar degi.

aise humdono bahut khusi khusi se life bityae. wo mujhe bahut pyar karta h. wo Jharkhand me rehta tha. mujhe dekne k lie train me khade khade bhi ajata tha. meri bahut kheyal rakhta tha. me usk lie bahut change ho gai. dhire dhire sab k sath behavour v change ho gaya. akela rehna bhi achhi nehi lagi. sab kuchh badal dia wo. hum dono ek ek din aise na soke kata dete the. jab me naraj hoti h barish me bhi wo wahase ajata tha mujhse milne k lie. aise me humdono k love k ho gaya 5 year. isi june k hoga 6 year. 1 year me kya hua h. ye padhne k lie wait kijiye 5 days. or comments dijiye

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Dear Friends,

me arpita. aj me apni real story ap sab ko batana chahati h. aj kal log sirf another reason k lie pyar mohabbat ki batein karte h. magar meri love kuchh aisi baise nehi h. me jise pyar karti h usk lie akeli rehne k lie decide karchuki h. dekhte h khuda ki kya marji. pls meri story sunk comments dena. kya hoga.

me ek jiddi type ki ladki h. meri behavior bahut buri thi orko lie. or me bahut short temper k ladki thi. me jyada logo k sath bat nehi karti thi ki yaha tak ki apne gharwalo k sath bhi jyada bat nehi karti. harwaqt mujhe akeli rehna bahut pasand thi. or meri jyada frnds nehi the.  jab me graduation pass k meri ek frnd thi best frnd to nehi best frnd se thodi niche waise. ek din me usk ghar gai to wo phone pe batein kar rahi thi usk bf k sath. me usk pass beth k sunti thi. dhire dhire mere man me bhi love karne k man kia. meri man bhi chahne lagi k koi meri bhi bf hota mere sath aise pyare pyare batein karta. ek din meri pass ek call ai. uswaqt meri person phone nehi thi ghar k phone ko. me receive ki ek ladka wrong number me phone lagaya tha. usk sath bat hui. dhire dhire use me pyar karne lagi. fist mohabbat achhi lagti thi. me Hyderabad k hu or wo Punjab k he. fir wo mujhe dekhne k lie bulaya. me usk milne gai. bahut baris ho rahi thi to humdono usk room me chale gaye. fir wo waha mere sath kuchh mis behave karne k lie kosis kia. me waha se ro ro k chali gai. fir sochi k wo to sirf kiss karne k bol raha tha ye to sab chal raha h aj kal itni udas hone k kya bat h. wo bhi syam k phone kark mafi maga. fir meri mood badal gai. sab kuchh bhul k bat ki usk sath. aise me 8 month ho gaya hum sirf ek hi bar mile the. ahiste ahiste mujhe uski bat kuchh ajib lagi usk batein jaise mere sath kuchh galat karne k lie tha. magar me use bahut pyar karti thi. islie ye sab ko avoid ki. 8 month k bad wo aya mujhe milne hum dono park me the uski ek phone ai to wo mere se kuchh dur jake 15 mint batein ki. mujhe thodi doubt hui to me puchhi kiski phone thi bola k office se aya tha. me us waqt kuchh na bol k waha se chali ai. magar meri dimag me usk lie doubt tha. ghar aa kar bahut roi sochi k me kuchh galat kar rahi h kya. koi frnds nehi thi islie kisise share bhi nehi kar pa rahi thi. isk bich mujhe job mil gai. me meri ek school k frnd k sath waha job karne gai. ek din meri dimag me ek idea aya april k mahine chal raha tha. me sochi k use april fool banau. to me  meri frnd k mob. se use phone lagai or meri frnd k boli k bat karo. wo wrong number laga aise bol k bat ki or loud speaker on ki me usk bat suni. fir me usi waqt phone lagai meri phone receive nehi kiya. magar meri frnd jab phone ki to receive kark bat kia. us waqt me bol nehi sakti yaar mujhe kitni takliff ho rahi thi. phir wo meri frnd k bulaya milne k lie. me or takliff she nehi pai boldi k me hu tumhari gf. wo bola k mujhe pata tha me bhi majag kar raha tha. magar me usk bato me nehi ai. wo bahut roya or bar bar phone kar k sorry maga. me use bahut pyar karti thi islie maf bhi kardi. magar doubt harwaqt rehti thi.

ek din achanak or ek wrong number me phone aya. to meri behen receive ki to pata chala k wo usk frnd h. undono me batein ho rahi thi or love bhi ho gaya. mujhe laga k ye bhi ek fraud h. islie use galat sabit karne k lie me meri behen ki frnd k sath bat k. or sare k sare batein meri behen ko sunati thi. magar wo achha ladka tha wo har bat meri behen k mere se pehele bata deta tha. wo mujhse irritate ho kar meri number usk or ek frnd ko de dia. wo bhi akela tha. uski mobile room se koi le gaya tha. use laga k koi rat me apni gf k sath bat karne k lie le gaya hoga. meri number usk pass tha to mujhe phone lagaya bola k meri mobile chori ho gai h ap k pass koi phone kia tha kya is number par. me so rahi thi thik usk bat samajhme nehi pai so mana kark rakhdi. jab me uthi usk pass phone kark puchhi k tum koun ho. wo bola wrong number me lag gai h. I don’t know mujhe uski awaj bahut achha laga. or dil tak aa pahaunchi. use bhi meri awaj bahut achha laga. to hum dono frnd ban gaye. magar me use sare bat bata di meri bf k bare m taki wo mujhe propose na kare ki usk manme koi feelings na aye. mujhe ek frnd ki jarurat thi. to mujhe lagi k yahi he wo.
ye sab hone k 4 days ho gaya. me is bare me matlab meri naye frnd k bare me meri bf k batane wali thi k wo achanak phone nehi uthaya.to me bahut upset ho gai. bahut rone lagi. ye bat ghar me bhi kisk sath share nehi kar sakti thi. ye sab batein meri frnd sonu. uske nam sonu tha. use share ki. or starting se ending tak sab batai to wo ek hi answer dia k kya wo tumse itna pyar karta h jitni tum use karte h. meri muh se kuchh nehi nikla. wo bola wo ek dhokewaj h. wo tumse nehi kuchh or k lie tumse pyar karta tha. use wo sab mila nehi to chhod dia. magar me use bahut pyar karti thi islie bhul nehi pa rahi thi khana bhi thik se nehi kha pa rahi thi. usi time sonu mujhe sambal lia. meri mind k divert kia. magar meri biswas tha k wo jarur phone karega. 1 month k bad usk phone aya. bola k sorry arpita meri accident ho gaya tha islie tumse contact nehi ho pai. mujhe uski bato par jara bhi yakin nehi thi. me use jhuth me bol di k me kisi or se pyar karti h. mujhe bhul jao. or in sab me sonu meri sath dia. use me ahiste ahiste bhulne lagi or sonu se pyar ho gaya.

wo bhi mujhe pyar karne laga. june 13 k hum dono bat kar rahe the to wo mujhe propose kia. meri anko me ansu aa gai uski bat sunk. ha maru ya na. qki pehele kisise dhoka kha chuki h. or ye bhi agar aisa karega to. soch me pad gai. magar andar hi andar me use bepanah chahane lagi thi. islie yes kardi. fir wo jo bat mujhe bataya. meri dil tut k bikhar gai. bola k sayad future me hum dono kabhi saadi kar nehi payege. me boli q? q ki hum dono other caste k the. me thi karan family k or wo barber family k. usk family mujhe accept nehi karege. magar me try karugi unlogo k manane k lie. me bahut roi. mujhe lagi ki meri pao k niche jamin khisak gai. bahut takliff hui. us rat humdono bahut roye qki wo bhi mujhe utni pyar karta tha. aise me subah ho gai. fir me puchhi agar gharwale agree nehi hoge to kya hum bhag sakte h. wo mana kia bola k me aise kuchh nehi karugi magar dekhege god k kya marji. fir hum dono batein kia. mujhe laga k usko pa k me puri ho gai. or kuchh nehi chahiye meri life me.

ek din uski behen mere sath bat ki. boli k tum meri bhai k kya lagti h. mujhe pehele se malum thi k sonu meri bare me sab kuchh bata dia h apne ghar me. islie me boli sonu tum kuchh nehi bataye apni behen k. isi bat se wo naraj ho gaye. ph kat dia. mujhe pata nehi tha yahi ek answer meri jindagi ko dukh se bhar degi.

aise humdono bahut khusi khusi se life bityae. wo mujhe bahut pyar karta h. wo Jharkhand me rehta tha. mujhe dekne k lie train me khade khade bhi ajata tha. meri bahut kheyal rakhta tha. me usk lie bahut change ho gai. dhire dhire sab k sath behavour v change ho gaya. akela rehna bhi achhi nehi lagi. sab kuchh badal dia wo. hum dono ek ek din aise na soke kata dete the. jab me naraj hoti h barish me bhi wo wahase ajata tha mujhse milne k lie. aise me humdono k love k ho gaya 5 year. isi june k hoga 6 year. 1 year me kya hua h. ye padhne k lie wait kijiye 5 days. or comments dijiye

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Her name was Autum, she rode my school bus. I saw her everyday throughout seventh grade. I didn’t think much of her at first since she was a Freshman. Little did I know she would be the biggest impact on my life.

She moved to Oklahoma the year before but I didn’t recognize her and really know she was there until seventh grade. She sat by me quite a few times, always very awkwardly. We sat there never saying a single word to each other. We’d always glance back at the people behind us making jokes and look at each other, smiling and laughing a little but never saying anything. I always felt connected to her.

One day, I was sitting on the other side of the bus hanging out with my friend and I’d glance at her every now and then and catch her staring at me. She didn’t look like she had too good of a day at all. So I looked at her and smiled, and what I got back was the most beautiful, breathtaking smile I’ve ever witnessed in my life.

Time went by, summer came, a whole summer without that cute little girl that sat across the bus from me. It seemed like it was gonna be a long summer. Two weeks into summer, I was sleeping at my mom’s house. I had a dream, a dream with her in it, we kissed and hugged and it all seemed just perfect. I woke up with my face in the pillow. I realized just how much I wanted her that day, so I looked for her everywhere, I found her on Facebook and added her.

Another two weeks pass by, I’m laying on the couch at my dad’s house, I see a notification pop up on my phone, “Autum has accepted your friend request”. I was so excited, she texted me. We talked all day, we planned on hanging out. T

The time came and we walked around my mom’s neighborhood just talking about everything. We had plenty of cute little moments that day. But at the end she asked me if I wanted to go to this field in our neighborhood, and of course I said sure. We walked down there, under the tree at the back of the field. We were talking and I was walking around being stupid. She says to me “Why are you walking so far away from me”. So me being myself I tried to annoy her by getting in her face and saying “Is that better?”. But then she moved her face closer to mine and kissed me.

I couldn’t believe it. It was everything I wanted right there. I wasn’t expecting it at all. But it was amazing. I went home soon after that head over heels madly in love.

The weeks that followed we saw each other a few times and had great times together. But, then the Fourth of July came. We decided to hang out that day. We hung out the whole day from afternoon to after dark. We watched the fireworks and even kissed a few times. I walked her home that night and I knew that there was no way I could have been any happier.

School came back around, we always sat by each other on the bus now. We hung out multiple times after school. But there was one time in particular that me and her were sitting out in a field listening to music. I looked at her and told her that I loved her, she responded telling me she loved me to and we kissed.

It was September. My birthday was right around the corner. Personal things happened with Autum and her family, she was being forced to move out to a small town in Tennessee. I would never see her again for months.

I called her every single night while she was there. I made sure everything was okay and loved her. Eventually, something smoothed over in her life and she was able to move back to Oklahoma. We didn’t see each other for a while after she moved back but we still talked everyday.

She finally came over one day and this is where things between us began to get more sexual. We did a lot of things in two weekends, but I don’t think I should mention what.

After those weekends, we hit a downfall in our relationship. She has problems committing to me because of our age difference and eventually we would stop talking for long periods of times. I still loved her throughout it all. No matter what happened I loved her.

But, then one day, we started talking again. Nothing was in the way of me and her. We could be together with no strings attached. We started dating for real.

We dated for years until we both got out of high school, we both went to different colleges but always stayed in touch. When we both graduated from college we met up again. We decided to move to a place in New York City. We stayed there for years.

One day we were walking around Manhattan and her favorite dog a teacup husky, her forever puppy as she called it, ran up to her with a necklace on that had a box attached to it. She picked up the dog petting it. She opened up the box to find a note in it. The note said “Will you marry me?”. I reached into my pocket and got on one knee. I opened the box with the ring in it and held it up. She said yes and we were so happy.

We got married and lived in New York City for a few years longer. She was pregnant, and we decided not to raise a child in such a big city. We moved out to Alaska and stayed in a big house. She gave birth to our first child, a little boy. We named him Kurt since we both loved Nirvana so much. Then, a few years later she was pregnant again with another baby. She gave birth to our second child, who was a baby girl. We named her Jillian, but Autum nicknamed her Jillybean.

Our kids grew up and moved out. Me and her were on our own for the rest of our lives. We would go outside and stare up at the northern lights together. It was the fourth most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, other than Autum and the kids.

We grew old together. We stuck by each other through everything. We lay in bed, tonight holding each other close. Loving like no other. We kiss each other. We lay here feeling ourselves drift away. We look into each other’s eyes, knowing it is the last time we will. We close them, and hold each other as we slowly fall asleep, never to wake again.

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dosto baat us time ki hai jab me 11th class me padta tha aur mere sath bahut mere clasmate the jin me se mere sath mere village ki ladki gitu bhi padti thi me usse chahta tha par muje ye nhi pta tha ki vo bhi muje chahti hai ye baat 26 november ki hai tab din me school se aane ki baad 3 bje mere pass unknown number se phn aya usne puccha sikha hai mane kha haa sikha hai lakin me usse baat nhi kra skta mane jhut bola tha qki me kisi sikha ko nhi jannta tha muje thodi dher baat krne ke baad pta chl gya tha ki ye gitu bol rhi hai to mane bol diye tum gitu bol rhi ho ussne kha pacchan liya mane kha haa q nhi pacchanuga itna din ho gye schl me baat krte hmari baate hoti rhi fir shaam ko me voolly ball khel rha tha to usske 2-3 miss call ayi hui thi aur sath me msg bhi tha naraj ho kya toh mane call ki uss raat ko baat hui vo muje frnd manti thi hmari baat hoti rhi aur vo mere bare me aur m uske bare me sab kuch jaan chuka ta aur 28 nov ko sham ko mane usse purpose kar diye ussne bola muje sochne k liye time chiye to mane kha nhi muje abi javab chiye plz to raat ko 9 bje usne muje i love u bol diye vo aur me dona 1 dusre se bahut pyaar krne lage the hum class me bhi baate krte rhte the vo muje bolti thi tume muje kabi chood kar mt jana me maar jaugi aur vo bahut dil se chahti thi hamare kiss schl me hi hui thi aur hum sex bhi kar chuke the qki hum bahut pyaar krte the hum puri raat phone par baat krte rhte hume pta tha humari shaadi nhi ho skti qki hum dono 1 hi village ke hai par hum phir bhi zindgi baar sath rhne ke promise krte rhe hmari frndship ko 2saal ho gye the hamari 12th claas ke exam ho gye exam ke bhich uske bhai aur mere dost ka accident ho gya aur uski jaan chli gye vo bahut upset rahti thi mane usko bahut samala par vo roti rhti thi vo apne mama ke ghar chli gye par vo vaha se bhi muje phn par baate krte the fir vo vapis gaon me aa gyi aur thode din rukh kar vo bhua ke ghar chali gye aur usne apni bhua ke ghr jane ke baad 13 din me baar ki me rone laga aur mane kha plz ab kabi mt jana lakin vo boli muje course krna hai muje vapis jana hai m rota raha lakin vo nhi mani mane kha tu vahi ladki hai jo mere bina 1 min nhi rukh skti thi ab 13 din ho gye usne kha me majbur hu mane kha me zindgi me baat nhi kruga tu chli gyi to lakin vo chli gyi aur sayad use koi aur mil gya issliye vo mujse dur chli gye usne mere 2saal ke visvas ko tod diye aur abb me bhi usse baat nhi kruga ussne mere sath galat kiye lakin abb me use apna chera bhi nhi dikhuga usne galat kiya………………

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I got a new job, after a day or two i noticed this girl out of the corner of my eye. I didn’t look, i could tell just from my peripheral vision that she was cute- i like to think of myself as a professional despite my age so i didn’t particularly want to meet anyone at work. It was few days after i started i guess when she talked to me during lunch, she asked if i went to iowa middle school- i said yes. I think that was the first time i really got to examine her. We were about 12-15 ft from each other when she asked me that, if i remember correctly she even remembered my name. I couldn’t  remember her at all, i asked her name and she said laken- a name i had never even heard before. I asked her if she went there as well and she said yes, that we were in a few grades together. After that, there were a few occasions were she would visit my work area to give me something or just to talk about something random for a moment- it was around this time i realized that she might like me. Let me explain a few things to readers, i am 21 and a virgin. I was expelled in the 8th grade for willful disobedience  and spent a year in isolation on the internet at home, and i was sent to Texas in the middle of nowhere for 2 years and a few months. I never got a chance to have a real girlfriend, or develop any relationship or emotional bonds with anyone outside my family. As such, i am extremely dense when it comes to women- and i hardly realize it when they make advances on me. Back to my story, i sat with her at lunch a few times after a week or so. We talked a lot, she told me things in the middle of the lunchroom with people at tables nearby that i would only tell my closest friends. She told me how her dad died when she was 14, how she sung to him during his last few days. How her mother was a whore (not literally) and how she stole 5 grand from her right before she tried to buy her first car. How she did crystal meth and took a handful of (i dont remember) pills while drinking and overdosed. How she had pretty much been on her own since her dad died, all of this she told me during our second or third actual conversation during lunch. At some point, i started spending more time outside in the lawn/garden center during breaks and lunch. I would sit on the patio furniture and read or just think. I remember her asking me where i was going, and i told her- so she came out there with me for about two weeks. Every break, and during lunch. We talked about a lot, how one of her step-dads had called her fat and would punch her in the stomach after she ate to make her puke, and that she developed a condition that made her do that for months and years afterwards. I cant think of anything else at the moment, a lot of random things- good and bad. I eventually let her know i was a virgin. She had been talking about her first relationship, and we ended up talking about sex or something related- and i said “i wouldn’t know” and she asked me if i was a virgin and i said yep.  I cant remember her reaction exactly, but it wasnt too bad. She told me she had only had sex once, to be honest i didn’t  believe her, if you saw her you would know why- i know i shouldn’t judge based on looks or body but i thought she must be a saint of she only had sex once and was as attractive as she was. At the end of the first week i got her number, i had my phone turned off before that and had basically gotten it back just to get her number. I texted her the next night right before work, she responded immediately and seemed pretty enthusiastic. The texting and everything went well for about a week, and we hung out outside as well. I realized recently that i may have spotted my mistake. I remember texting her “sweet dreams” one night at midnight while i was at work and she was off. We had been talking during my first break and before work as well. After that, things got noticebly sluggish compared to before. She didn’t  text back the way she did before. When i came back from my off days she didn’t  meet me outside, and avoided me altogether. I let it slide and didn’t say anything. Next day, i asked what was wrong. She claimed nothing, said she had alot going on at home. I asked her to meet me outside, that i wanted to talk- she agreed. She didnt come. I went to her area after lunch, and asked her out. ” lets make a date” were my exact idiotic words. Her response was ” i would, but my health isnt great right now” . She had told me alot about her cists and how she had some form of bronchitis before. She said she had a panic attack and her lungs collapsed the other night, the night i texted her “sweet dreams”. Anyway, i told her i liked her. She asked what i meant and i said ” do i really have to spell it out?” And she said no. Im an idiot, i know. Well things continued to go downhill, or go back to normal i should say. She treated me like any other co-worker. It was so painful words cant describe it. I started hanging out with an older guy at work, about 30. He was smart, cool, and we had alot of similar interests such as metal music and anime. He was the one who pointed out to me that i loved her after i told him how i felt and thought about her. She sat with us every day after i started hanging out with him, guess she just didnt want to sit with me alone. Meh. Anyway i started joining him at the gym to get away from her since she liked sitting with us at lunch. She quit a few weeks after that, works as a waitress at a casino. She visits us still, coming up there at night after she gets off work in her skimpy outfit. She liked some stuff on my facebook one day after i hadnt been on it in like two weeks so i decided to return the favor and like some of her stuff. I noticed at the bottom it said “in a relationship since (two weeks before i started my job and met her)” and i cant help but feel played with. Well, thanks fo reading- i know my grammer is atrocious but thats what happens when you’ve been expelled for six years. Any input on what i should do now would be greatly appreciated. Do i confess the next time she visits my work? Avoid her entirely? Or what? 

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I was 14 years old when i fall in love with Deepika, I madly love her.. After 9 years, I can’t forget her.. many times i cut my hand n write her name, I don’t know why she is not with me now, why.. I love you baby I love you so much.. please come back.

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