Hello, I fell in love with a girl. I started talking to her, more time chatting. I was really nice to her, respected her. One day she asked me if I’m in love with her. I didn’t lie. And hoped she also liked me.I was wrong. everything changed .She still talked to me through chat, but started avoiding me in public ,in college. She then told me she didn’t love me. But i didnt want to lose her. So I asked her if we can still be friends .She said yes. But then also she had no good interest in talking to me. Months passed I flipped again. She knew that. But she pretended like there was nothing going on and I was sure about that. The day before yesterday I told her how I felt .Thought she would be very angry .But she wasn’t. We continued chating , me hoping that she likes me. Then it happened again she started showing no interest in talking to me, and said not to expect more, and she told me that she won’t even look at me in college. I was broken. I was there for her every time, but she didn’t care. My best friend told me to let go of her for he knows how much I got hurt and not to get hurt anymore. He made me sent a bye to her saying I’m done. Her reply to that was ‘Good’. In fact I couldn’t stop. I texted her again. Then I said sorry and told her I was angry earlier. Then in a funny way I asked whether she was kidding about  not minding me in college and that’s why I came again. She said she was not kidding , and told me that now I have a reason to leave….told me to leave. I was shocked.I didn’t know what to do , I told her to block me. Then I came to know that she was hoping me to ask that. At that instant she told me to stay away, not to call her or even try to see her. With a bye she blocked me. I had no idea . But she did it. I don’t know where I am wrong. I don’t know if she will come back…but I really hope that she will.

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1.   Conversation with Her

      Dreams : Endless.

      Real Life : Not a single word.

2.   What can reduce the stress?

      Ans : Hug from her.

3.   SHE includes HE.

4.   Depth of an ocean = Conversation with Her.

5.   Story Complete : Book, Pen & Her.

6.   What a coincidence!!!

      He surprised her mother

      She surprised his mother

      Dedicated to all Mothers in any form for giving us great Life.

7.   Q: Reason for petrol pricing rising?

      A: Her.

8.   Magic inside her.

      He makes my breathe slower and heart beat faster.

9.   All the good lies for her.

10. Smile a day from her keep sadness away.

11. You’re as important as shine for sun.

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This is for you my love.

Rani it has been eight months since we knew each other and if I say I loved you even before we met I will not be lying.There is something in you which made me love you even before I knew you. How come baby you entered my mind my heart and my soul? Before We met Love for me was just another word in English dictionary. I never believed that two persons can be so close that the two become one. But with you I have felt this magic.

Do you know how I feel when I am talking to you? When you are around I am not in my senses. I do rubbish things, I say foolish words. When I see you smile my heartbeats skip beating. There is no such view like the one when you smile.Remember the day when We first met. We had been texting each other for sometime by then, but that was the day when my eyes were going to see the most beautiful lady. I was so nervous, but why? I had so many thoughts running in my mind.I did know that you would be pretty, and I had thoughts of how to make impression on you. But when I saw you I was out of my mind. Was I dreaming, was it real what I just saw? I had to pinch myself to make sure it was all real. That moment I was simply taken away by the most beautiful eyes on this earth. Rani, who would have thought that two strangers meeting for the first time will come so close that only we know. I love you not only because you are the prettiest and most beautiful lady my eyes ever saw but because you are a beautiful person with a beautiful heart.

Rani, I am so much in love with you and I am all drenched in the ittusaa love you have showered on me all these days. Together we have gone through some tough times. There have been many issues but our love has grown in strength with each passing moment. I hope by now you understand how madly I am in love with you. I know you had gone through difficult times in your life and you managed it all alone. But not anymore. Now your hand is in my hand. Whatever situations arise we will together face it. I will not make you dependent my love but I will be your strength, I will hold you when you find it tough and I will lift you when you are week. We will always be together. Destiny has brought us together and I promise you baby together we will make a life of dreams. With you I have been living in heaven all these days. I promise you the love we share will never fade away. I will be sometimes annoying, irritating and sometimes dumb too but the bond we share will go on strengthening.

I love you Rani. I want a life with you. I will give my all to see you smile, I will be doing everything to make sure we get married because I can’t think of a life in which you are not there and I want you to be my side in my last days on this earth with my head on your lap surrounded by our children and grand children.

Yours and Only Yours
Sunil

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Hai All

Love is a beautiful feeling, that can’t be expressed in words. I want to share this beautiful feeling with all of you. Thank you for reading this.

I am very much excited and felling like something to share my love with my lovely partner. I can really say, I am so Lucky to have my lovely dear in my life. We can know the real meaning of LOVE and Relationship, when we find the right person who knows the value of these things. By god gift, i got my dear in my life. I can say, ours love story is really great one not because of me, just because of my lovely one. He loves me unconditionally like my Father, he cares about me like my mother, he fought with me like my sibilings, he supported me like best friends, not all these he fights for me with his family, my family too. A girl can expect all these things from her partner, I can feel all these when I am with or with out him also. That’s why I can really say I am lucky to have you Nikhil.

Like every one our’s love story is also started with friendship, we were friends for one year. We both was worked for one small start up company, slowley he started friendship with me, after one year he proposed me. Like all girls, i said no. After few days I got good oppertunity in another company, so was resigned for that company, but still we were in touch. I was joined in new company just because of his support only. We used to talk for whole night and some times whole day. Slowly solwly I too fall in love with him, but surprisingly he said no just because of his family. At that time I was shocked, I cried for whole day continously. After 3 days I decided to stop talking with him and I stoped also. Just with in 2 days he came to me and said the reason for his answer. We two are from different caste, so we all know that, family will not accept this, so we decided to be as friends.

After that we were takling like normal and I was too busy with my new job. After few days he too resigned because that start up is going to shut down. I only suggested him to resign and he did the same thing. He took 6 months of time for his new job and these 6 months are most memorable Days in our life. He used to come to me every day to droping me and we used to fight so many times for silly and other reasons too. So, we strongly decided to fight with our families, because we can’t leave each other.

Days are going, suddenly my family called me with one marriage proposal, I was in tention, don’t know what to do. I know about my family that, they will not accept for intercaste marriage. We didn’t think about the result, at first he spoke with his family, his father didn’t accepted. Later he spoke with my mother, she too didn’t accepted. And my mother didn’t even told with my father and she decided that not to send me for job. For few days I was at Home. With the help of my frinds i spoke with him for every alternate day. I failed to convience my mother, but luckly she accepted to go for job with some conditions, that I should not meet him.

Again I came to office, the same day eveining I met him and we cried for lot of time. From that day onwards my family doesn’t know that still I am in love with him. We faced so many situations, still facing. He didn’t even said no in any day. He loves me unconditionaly from tha day one and I can strongly say he will be like this after my death also. I am so lucky to have you Nikhil, I never leave you at any situation. Every day I am praying the God that,our families should accept our love. We don’t want to get marraige with out our parents. So, God pleas help us to lead a happy life together.

Please give all your blessings to become together. Thank you.

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Hi! My name is Linda ! people around me say that i’m too young to love .. well that’s not true because i loved someone and so much . His name is Lee Daniel a korean frensh boy ,before you know him you’ll think he’s some weirdo, a loser he was the invisible kid in our high school .. i was dating the ‘hottest boy ‘ or whatever  but i never was attracted to him tho! i almost thought that i was a lesbian because i never liked him although all the girls were so CRAZY about him , one day in januray it was a cold morning i heard a voice in the boys bathroom someone swearing while some other boys laughing out loud i knew that it was Adem bullying someone . i entered the bathroom quickly and i was right he was bullying this invisible boy . i quickly told Adem to stop and then i helped Daniel , he had a red hair back then i remember when i helped him we sit in an empty classroom and i helped him .. he kept looking at my mouth when i was  talking .. i felt something strange , the way he looked at my mouth the whole time it was so heart fluttering .after that day i wanted to see him everyday .i broke up with Adem it’s okey he found another girl quickly .my girlfriends kept calling me crazy for liking daniel . he was from different religion, not that good at studying, a ‘loser’ ,not attractive .. well at least for them and not for me . after hanging out with him multiple times i fell in love with him , every time we met he kept looking at my lips , his voice was so calm i could tell that he was shy and nerveous every time we met because of his tone !i never asked some guy to go out with me , but for him i did it and he accepted i kissed him .. i won’t forget the way we kissed every time . he was such a gooood dancer like REALLY good , he changes 360 degrees when he dances that’s the first thing that i knew about him after we started dating , then i figured out that he is deaf ! i cried that day so much , i heard adem speaking about it i still remember what he said : Is Linda dating that deaf asian boy for real ? . i fought with daniel that day , i told him to leave he thought i was mad because he was deaf , but actually i was mad because he hided this important thing from me at the same time i was angry when i knew that such a good boy like him is suffering from such a thing , that’s why he always looked at my lips, but if he doesn’t listen to music how is he able to dance ? .. so a week passed and i didn’t hear from hiM and he didn’t come to school i was worried so i visited him i told him that i don’t care even if he doesn’t have a leg or a hand i will stay love him the same and that’s how our love sotry started . i love him more than anything in this world , he gained a lot of confidence after dating me he changed his style and look and he looks now suuuuuuuppppppeeerrr handsome that even other girls want to date him . daniel i love you so freaking much baby

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hi my stories began here,

i was in relationship for 3 years ,

im actually a orphan girl which i dont have family memebers at all , when i was 21 i saw him  the day i saw him my heart was keep telling that hes for u go and talk to him… i join there on nov 20th 2014, i talk to him on the second day itself wic was on the 21st nov 2014. he response to me … and i do add him in Facebook and we do exchange our numbers as well. so the days ae getting better and better when we both used to be so close… he knows all my stories wic i was in orphanage home, i have no family my life is so miserable …he knows everything.. before we coupled he took me to his house which that i didnt expected at all…and im the luckiest person to get a family like that , i realy love his parents especially with his dad… they look after me very well and its makes me to feel for him deeper and deeper.. theres no words to describe my love for him. we was so close bt we havent coupled yet . i use to go to his house and he bring me all over the worlds , ,meets his close friends and at the same time i was close to her step sister as well. she is such a nice girls that i ever meet in my life. she change my life too. so when the things goes well .. i propose him i told him that i rely fall in love with u and i knw he loves me so much and he didnt wanted to show , at the same time he having a crush on another girl . he avoid her bcoz of me .. he fall for me and he started to avoid her. so after while on feb  14th he propose me together with a gold bracelet , i didnt expected this from him at all its was such a wonderful nite for us. he hug me , he kissed me we did all the naughty things after while. i decided that hes the one im gng to get married and i did not wanted to loose such a good family.the years pass well, we used to fight for litte things , i get jealous he too get jealous ,,, i try to change myself for him bt he didnt even change a single things for me only things that he changed was he avoid all the girls because of me n he didn’t even talk to any of a girls …..he hve to do that coz he sincerely in love with me so thats hes responsible to avoid flirting with other girls. so the times past…. we use to have so many probls , like keep figthing and we rare meet up…but i was so close with his family ,cousins his grandma and grandpa as well….our fights are getting worst and worst becouse of little things , wjatver happen i will find him evryday single day bcoz i knw i cant leave without him at all…even he had beaten me up because i raise my voice to him .. and one day he told lets break up and i feel that im gonna loose i cant even handle this situation at all , so i tries to meet him up he came n told infront of my face tat he did not wanted me anymore and that time my hearts ony feels tat i loose him alredy i decide to hurt myself insted of hurting him… i cut my hand and my pants was full of bloods he saw that and came inside the car and slap me for what i did… he took me to clinic and tthere was 10 stiches on my hand… and he only told me one thing that if left him free for one or two days he would find me back and he said itd hurt him so much…we hide all our figths to his family and his step sister as well.. hes very close to his sister after we both couple she maintain the distance frm us… nt he was so deep down coz she avoid him . i told him she will be bck to us soon bcoz we didnt did anything to her. its was 8th months that the step sister didnt talk to him … he told me that shes not his siter anymore and he hates her…..one day her sister call me and cries that she avoids us , she appologies to me … and she wanted to bck normal to him again,,,so i sit and talk to him and advise him and ask him to go and talk her sister… so he listen to me he went and talj to her so everthing was fine on her side but mine was getting worst and worst which that he didnt came and meet for one months and he stared to close with her step sister and he told all our personal issue to her…. and this where we both started to figth even more and i realise his attitude was chnage after he close back to his sister… so i decided to celebrate his birthday  , i call him and asked we gonna go for dinner on his birthday he refused to come out wth me and i ask why so?? no reason he said that he wanted to go out with his frenz ok fine….and i went to meet him on the day itself i was waiting for him almost one hour infront of his house …. and called him so many times bt no answer and i texted him and infroam that im waiting for u here… he refuse to meet me…and i wanted to knw whats the reason i just wait there for him to come bck home…at the same time his step sister call me and ask did he alredy told u that he wanted to break up with u ?? i was so shocked what the hell is this how she get to knw that he wanted to break up with me?? i told her no he didnt tell anything yet she makes fun of me and ask are u sure.. makes me irritating i jus hang up the call… thn she call and scold him tat i was waiting here… finally he answer my call around 10.30 pm ….and i told him i wanted to meet u baby … hes answer was only in bad words which the words is so disgusting… so i told wait i come there i went n meet him and the 1st time i saw that hes character is so weird …i told him why are u shouting with me …all the bullshits was there… but i was keep praying to god that i didnt nt wanted to loose him… and he called his parents and said that he dii not want me anymore in his life…..and ntg left only my tears and the fear of loose him only….and i hold his legs n told him that if i did anything im so sorry we sit and talk first he did nt wanted to listen to his parents aso…the worst day that i faced in my life..and he get so angry on that day wic no one cn controls him….so the parents decided to meet his step sister bcoz he was so close to him she came to hse n talk to us ..she scold me as wll. i dont bother bcoz i feels like she told him something and the problmes came bcoz of her!!!!!! bt i didnt gve up at all and i knw he wont leave me and he still love me the only thing was ruining on my mind!!! finnaly they decide to gve us 3 months period to not to contact each other and want us to realise our mistakes and after 3 motnhs we will get bck to nomal ok ….i agree on that time bcoz  i turst in god n he wont let me down…so that day the step sister told us to delete al our pictures in social media… i wondering why should i do that when we didnt even break up?  bt he only listen to her n delete everything and blocked me in all social media and didnt even save my number…i was so depressed till now which i didnt even knw who was there for me bt i was so lucky to have their family in my the parents cousins all supports me and said they will tlk to him….and untill now im waiting for his presence bt ntg change its has been 2 moths that we didn’t contact  each other n i miss him so much , i try to commit suicide for twice bt its failed bcoz of my roommate ..and in this two months he did alot of nonsense things , he contact my frenz ,,, chat with her out with gilrs …talking to alot of girls and started to avoid me and he tottally forgot me bt i use to go to his hse and still meets his parents i didnt not want to loose him at all i love his so much even he did all the mistakes im willing to forgive him….i dont know where this things gonna end but i still want him in my life…..i try to message him bt he ignore no replies n i realise he is happily living wthout me..how come a guy can be like tis???? and the worst part is the step sister didnt even contact me for this 2 motnhs, if shes a realy good heart people she would call me and ask  … so something wrong with her side.. he was happy with her bt he didnt think about me at alll……i dont knw what happen to me till nw i cnt even sleep well i cry all over nite i started to keep parying and praying i didi nt want anyone in my life only him yes only him….he promise me he wont leave me he did that , he promise me he wont lie , he did that , he promise me he wont play in girls feelings he did that he promise me he will alwyasbe honest bt he didnt tat and finaly he promised me he will married me and its turns up in this way…….its was worst feeling ever….i feel the same orphan feelings gain …i feel the loneliness …i was alone all the while…how he can forget me easily ??how he can cheat me and went out wit other girls how he can do tis to me …im blur nw i don knw what am i suppose to do i want him back please come back to me babe ..whatver happen whatver u have done i still can forgive u pls come bck to me im waiting for u here..i want my love back !!!wat was my fault?? my fault was only one which i love u truly and still loving u in the same feelings

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I have liked the same guy since fourth grade. That is a long time seeing as I’m now going into seventh. If your looking for a young love story with a lot of ups and downs, this one is for you. But I must warn you, its a story that takes place over the span of three, almost four years; it might take awhile.

It all started in fourth grade. I have never been into sports but imagine my surprise when a cute, funny, and outgoing BOY helped me figure the game out. Four-Square was the game of the year. He’d start to get me out when I got better, but before that, he got me to square two and helped me stay there, and I’d help him stay in square one. Then when four-square got banned for being too competitive, another boy in my class suggested we play a game he made up, soon after known as Wall Ball. He did the say thing for me there too. The first time it dawned on me that I might actually like this boy was when someone yelled something while we were playing the game. The boy and I were playing against each other and since we are a competitive class, we don’t like long games. Unlike him, I was actually trying, but no matter what I did I couldn’t get him out. I loved watching the faces of the boys when I beet the person who was the best at it, my best friend, that was a boy. He didn’t even have to try, he was winning. But the boys were getting antsy. The next one in line yelled,” Can someone please just get out already. Or are the lovebirds to in love to get each other out.” And even then, when I didn’t like him back, he was still protective of me. He quickly got me out while I was still processing the information. The boy who yelled that out took his turn to emidiatly find himself humiliated at how fast he got out. That was the last thing I saw before I ran off to tell my friends. It was that day when I realized that I liked him.

The nest year, of course, I had still liked him. Though now I wanted him to like me back. So naturally I took the teasing approach at first. And that’s the only approach I took for awhile. My crush plays guitar and loves the 80’s rock style. Mainly that being the hair. Even though he was the most popular boy in my class, he still got made fun of. So I made fun of his hair, a jacket that matched a girls, and boots that were bedazzled. I realize these were some pretty weird things but if you like someone enough it shouldn’t matter what they look like or their fashion choices, the only thing that should matter is their personality. And it shouldn’t be up to you to change someone’s style, it is theirs to change, if they want to. The worst one that I can think of was the boots. I made fun of them, said I was sorry then did it again. I never apologized to him for that. Why I’m talking about this, you will realize later. The major thing that happened to me that year was self-rejection. I had, for whatever reason, a drop of self-worth for the last trimester for fifth grade. Why would someone like him want me? What qualities do I have that this girl over her has? None. she is more pretty, and skinny than me. And so he must like he. Not me. Right? There are so many reasons this is wrong because I was, nd am, pretty. I don’t have to be perfectly skinny to get the guy. But, of course, I didn’t realize this. So I tried for weeks to figure out a way to make myself prettier. Skinnier. Then I tried just to not like him anymore. A new kid came and I thought maybe if I like him then I won’t like this guy who doesn’t like me because I’m ugly and fat. Yes, I was in fifth grade and thinking these things. But, just as you thought, that strategy didn’t work like I wanted to. And so another year passed of me not knowing weather or not he liked me.

The beginning of sixth grade was a blur. But then the annual week long camping trip came  up. I didn’t think anything would happen, but boy was I wrong. The first day passed like a blur with the only highlight of the day being I was in a group with him. We went to the beach that night. It was sunset and I was sitting next to him. Everyone else was playing tag and building sand castles. I don’t exactly remember why we were sitting there but I’m glad I was. I had been thinking about last year and teasing him about the boots. I’d meant earlier to tell him I was sorry for teasing him, but it kept slipping my mind. I chose then to tell him. ” You know how last year I made fun of your boots,” he looked at me and without waiting for an answer, I continued on,” Well I already apologized to you about that. But then I did it again, and well I realized I hadn’t apologized for it.  Well I guess what I’m trying to say is I’m sorry for that.” During my shaky, awkward speech, he looked down at the ground. But then I said sorry and he looked up. He smiled and looked me directly in the eyes and I smiled. We both blushed and looked down at the ground. I sat there for a minute awkwardly before I got up and ran to go tell my best friend. When I got back I talked to my older cousin and he said to tell him that I like him. So the next day I told him that. I didn’t wait for an answer. Life went by, slowly but surely. We both got invited to a boy- girl party. We played truth or dare. He and I were both asked the same question, name your crushes form kindergarten back. I did and so did he. We got to fourth grade and we both said that we have liked the same person since then. Neither of us said who. A week later I texted him and asked him who the mysterious girl was. He replied with, you never said who you liked so I’m not going to tell you. I told him that I’d liked him since fourth grade. He said he’d already known this but wanted to know for sure. He also said that he too had liked me from fourth grade.

If you made it this far then please comment 12345 and if you want a part two than also comment down below. Thank you for reading, hope it wasn’t too boring.

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U always tell me how u forgive me and u never want to bring up march 2015 when I broke up with u . But how can u forgive me for something u don’t understand I feel like a lot of our problems come from us not understand what led up to this point you assume you know why i made that choice, and always say whatever it is I forgive u but u can’t forgive me for something u have no idea of what led me to this painful choice

Never in a million years !!!!!

would I think I would want a break or to leave you

I was always the one like no we shouldn’t take a break I was so selfish cause I didn’t want u to cheat or do something else that would cost us everything we got into a part of our relationship were I was comfortable too comfortable I always wanted us to have an apartment together it was not the best apartment lmao but it was ours and I was so focus on us all living under one house together when we finally got it I was comfortable I thought u would of be in the house more we did go out to eat and stuff but everything became so repeated I wasn’t thankful of it so you can kinda say I got board of our life style me going to school with the kid the and coming home and you leaving.

You would sometimes come home and leave then come in really late it’s crazy I still wake up around 2 am sometimes 3am I never sleep a full night maybe once in a while cause I was so use to you coming home those times anyways I wasn’t being thankful for things cause I got comfortable I wish I didn’t do that I also thought by then we would be engaged and I just became unhappy with my self like maybe I’m not the one for u cause things wasn’t happening that I thought would   At that point I wasn’t mad at u I was more confused on why is our relationship here then at one point I remember me standing there by the bed looking in the mirror idk if I was just looking at my self or if we was fighting but u said something along the lines like why u don’t do ur hair or fix up ur self a few weeks later I’m that same spot u said no one is gonna want u with two kids idk why u said it but those two thinks always stayed with me I didn’t kno y , I remember one day u saying u kno I think ur beautiful right I was shocked but by then I thought u was just saying it cause u notice I wasn’t happy I remember me begging u to pick a day to stay home and talking to about we need to tell each other we love each other everyday I was trying lil things to keep us still happy because I don’t wanna be annoying to u but I still wanted us to be happy u always made me feel like I was being annoying from trying stuff the day u helped me with the girls up the stairs and natalyn turned around we was still outside she said by daddy cause we was so use to u helping us up stairs and leaving broke my heart I kno u had to leave and stuff but it just made me feel like everything I wanted never happen I kno we have to work so we can live in a house but that moment hurt me I feel like my lil family I wanted isn’t working out our olderest daughter use to say lick things she still does I won’t forget that day u thought we ganged up on about u always going outside lmao we just really wanted u home I wasn’t trying to make u seem like a bad dad  it’s so much more into what led me in my choice but those lil things started adding up in me and making  me loosing hope

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This is a story about my childhood memories from ten years ago. When I was in grade school, I have a crush on this boy in my class who always wears All Star shoes(Converse). He’s very cute and a lot of girls like him. He doesn’t talk much and only have a few friends. We sat together in the same roll in class but we were separated by two students. I never talk to him because I was new to America and didn’t speak English. One day, he started to talk to me on our way to lunch. He asking me questions but I have no clue what he said. Then he suddenly asked me to give him a high five. I did. From that day on, he started give me high five during lunch. One time I told him no when he asked me to do high five. He  laughed so hard but I didn’t understand why. He’s very cute when he laughs. I ended up doing the high five anyway.

As time past, I found myself separated away from him even though we still sat in the same roll (closer this time). I feel embarrassed looking of him in the eyes. I started to avoid him and he did the same to me too. (I just learn now because puberty hits us that’s why we avoid each other). I never talk to him after we graduated from elementary school. I didn’t even ask him to sign my shirt. I was too embarrassed.

As the year passed by, we end up in the same middle school. I didn’t  have any classes with him, but I always see him walking home and at school. We have PE together but different teachers. He became handsome now instead of cute. We still never communicate. I wish that time I talk to him because my English has been improved. However, instead of talking to him, I avoid him. I remember after PE class, he was looking at me for a long time. He has this stare on his face that I still remember till this day. The boy and girl lockers were very close together. After I changed my PE clothes, I came out and accidentally bumped into him. I look at my right side (the boy locker door) and there he was, looking at me without blinking. Okay he did blinked but I never see a boy looks at me like that before. We shared a moment of silence until other students came outside to wait for the bell rang. There was another time I saw him drinking a water fountain at school. I went and drank after he did. There was another time we bumped into each other during lunch. We sat on the same table but I was so nervous that I asked my older sister to switch seat with me. I was looking on my food the whole time. There was another time I saw him walking home by himself. That day I decided to called his name so loud and hide behind a car. I saw he looks around then continued walking home.

I never saw him again after that day. When summer came, I didn’t have any plan so I decided to go to summer school. The school I went for the summer was at a different location. Thus, I have to take the school bus and that school bus station is near his house. His house was by our elementary school. Okay I’m not a stalker. It was his fault for coming out when I was walking home so I saw where he lived. He looks shock when he saw me walking across the street with my sister and her friend. He was going somewhere but he just stopped and stared at me. I look at him too and turn around quickly. That was our last encounter. I never saw him again till this day.

My family moved to a different city after summer school. I thought that my my memory of him is going to be faded so I wrote them down as much as I can. I tried to remember every little detail about him. I told myself to not forget him. I told myself that I will find him one day. However, it has been ten years and I never find him. I tried to search for him on social media but no luck.  I didn’t know his last so it was hard to find him.

As the time moving forward, I stop thinking about searching for him and focus on my education. I was in college by this time. It was my third year. While in college, I bumped into this one guy who I have several encounters with. I thought I like him so I decided to wrote him a note. In the note it says: “Can I be your friend?”  He said “Of course, silly.” I thought that was very cute. I was touch but I never talk to him after that. Don’t get me wrong. He’s a very quiet and nice person but I found out that he only like smart girl from my classmates so I end up not talking to him. After meeting this guy in college, he reminds me to search for my childhood crush again. That day I tried some searches on Facebook and I found him. I was so happy and super excited. I added him and sent him a message at the same time. He accepted me after one hour later. I asked him if he remembers me but he said no. I feel so sad and hopeless. I tried to make him remember me by talking about our encounters in grade school but he keeps apologized that he doesn’t know me. I told him it’s okay because it been so many years. We chatted for ten minutes online talking about school. After that he never message me, so I decided to message him back. I feel so depressed and frustrated why he doesn’t remember me. I messaged him why doesn’t he remembers me and what can I do to make him remember me. I think I came out a little dumb and too forward. He saw my message but never reply. I sent another message stating that I was sorry about earlier. He replied back that it’s okay and not to worry.

I didn’t bother messaging him again. But then, I can’t help myself. I must meet him to sure of my own feelings. Since I have family lived in the same city where he lived, I decided to visit him during Spring break. I messaged him if he would be in town on that weekend because I would like to meet him. About five minutes later, he replied that he’s “busy all weekend.” At that moment I know what he means. He doesn’t want to be mean to me so that was the only polite way to reject me. I don’t know if he has a girlfriend or not but on his Facebook page he only posts himself. Anyway, so I got rejected but I still went to visit my family. On my last day, I messaged him again. It was early and cloudy in the morning on Wednesday. I asked him to meet me at our elementary school at 10:30am and that I have something to give him. I never received a reply. I already know his answer that he never going to come. I went to the school. It was so quite because all the students are still in class. I got out of my car and waited for him. I found a spot by the parking lot. I waited for him under the tree by the lot. I wait and wait but he never come. Then it started to rain. It rains very hard and my hairs were soaking wet. I was shivering because I was wearing a skirt on that day. It was 11 a.m. already but I told myself to wait just five more minutes. Suddenly I felt something on my eyes. It was not the rain but my tears. Did I cry? Did I really cry because of him? Oh my god I’m so stupid. I end up waiting till 11:20 a.m. I went to my car and took out a pen and paper. I wrote him a note and put under the tree I was waiting for him, along with a jar of my memories of him. (I made the jar for him and it took me five hours to do it. Later, I found out that jar of memory is for couple only. I was so embarrassing. I hope that gift end up in the trash somewhere. Hey, don’t judge me. I never have a relationship so I don’t even know.)

So I went home crying in my car. It usually a four hours drive home but it only took me two hours. It was not busy and I was speeding. I play the music very loud and blamed myself for being so stupid. After a week, I messaged him back that I’m sorry for freaking him out and will not bother him again. He never reply me. Since my sister and I shared one Facebook account, I decided to not log into that account again and give it to my sister. I made a new one. I didn’t add him on my new account. (Okay I did added him but he was a jerk. He never add me back, but I don’t blame him because if I was him I would be scared too). I don’t know when he will ever remember me again.

I hope you enjoy reading my story.

Below is a small section I wrote on my dairy I would like to share.

I found myself in a situation where I shouldn’t be. This year my feelings are so different. I never experience this feeling before. The feeling of wanting and the feeling of nothing. I know I do have these types of feeling before but this time is romantic feeling. Am I actually in love this year? I don’t know but half of myself is actually chasing after love. I was so impatient about someone that I must see him or I will never get the chance to see him again. However, I end up broken after asking him to meet me. I came out all wrong and stupid. This is the first time I do something stupid like this; asking someone to meet me is so stupid. I never thought he took my words that way. Does he really think I like him or something? I must admit that I do like him because he was my childhood crush but now I don’t really know if I like him or not. When I found him on social media, I thought that it would be a good idea to meet him but it never happened. It was just my imagination of meeting him for the last time of my life. I have been waiting for ten years that’s why I decided to take a chance and followed my heart. I should have follow my brain instead?.  Ever since that day I never contact him again. The day I waited for him on the rain. Why am I waiting for him when he already told me he’s not coming? I’m not stupid but why did I that?  He makes me feel like I’m a creep and have done something horrible wrong. I want him to delete me on Facebook but why didn’t he? He should delete me because if I was him I would be scared too. I don’t know what to say to him to not misunderstand me. I want him to know that my intention is good not bad. I want him to remember me even though he didn’t want to. When I talk to him online it seems like he doesn’t wish to talk to me. I know because I came out like a stalker to him. If I was in his position I would not talk to someone like that too. He makes me create a new Facebook account. I’m so stupid for adding him in the first place. I shouldn’t talk to him or asking him questions about me. I should know better that it has been so long, he will never remember me. We’re all adults now and there nothing I can blame him. I chose to remember him because I want to. He chose to not remember me because he wants to.

Ever since that day, I threw away all my notes that contained my memory of him when we were in grade school. In my dairy, I wrote that I wish to meet him again. I want to hold into faith and hope that one day I will get to see him. In the end, I did meet him but only on social media. I also wrote that I will hold into him and never let him go but I can’t. He took my intention all wrong, so wrong. I don’t know how to explain it but I wish that one day he will come to understand my true intention. I wish that one day he will ask me to meet him so I can explain myself to him. He probably thinks I wanted something from him but am I? I never thought about it.

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